Chapter Seventeen
I Love You
The day of the concert is already here so, I got up early to prepare myself, well it’s not like I really could sleep, I was too excited about it and nervous, because this would be my first time seeing Micky after a long time, and we haven’t talk to each other from last time he came to my house, so I’m more nervous especially for this reason! when I was ready I left home. Arrived at the place of the concert, I waited for Sarah who was supposed to be already here… even if it’s still a little early for the concert, Sarah was late! I was going to call her but she called first so I picked up :
“ WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?? Where are youuu??” I said irritated.
“ ____!! *cough* I’m so sorry!! *cough cough* but I’m not feeling well *cough*!!”
“ WHAT???are you serious?? What am I supposed to do now???”
“ Ooh don’t worry I already found a replacement so don’t move from there, okay??”
“ What?? What do you mean?? You’re really not going to come??” I was confused.
“ *cough * sorry ____! But I have to go ok?? Don’t worry he won’t be late!!”
“ SARAH???” she hung up. – What?? Seriously??-
So after a few minutes I saw him coming towards me, her ‘replacement ‘. – oooh are you kidding me?? not today pleaseee-. I had a bad feeling about it.
“ Sorry ,I’m late!! Did you wait long?” he said.
“ Ah no no, it’s fine oppa..”. –what does she have in mind?? I’m going to kill her soon!!-.
“ So you still a fan of him?” he asked.
“ what?”
“ Park Yoochun.. well you used to have his picture as backgroung on your phone.. and you still go to his concerts.. ”
“ Ah.. well somehow.. hahaha..” – ok! This is awkward!-.
“ Ahm.. let’s go Oppa, I think it’s time..” I said. So we went in and then I realized how lucky we were to be that close to the stage.
“ Wow it’s even a first row, ____! So now you can have a good close up of Yoochun! Ahahah!!” he said laughing and teasing me.
–SHIIIIT!!! That’s right!!! And now??? What if he sees me?? Ooooh no please, pleeeese!!!!-.I started to worry.
“ Ha- Haha.. Well it was Sarah who got us the ticket, Oppa!”
“ Wha-??” –HA! You got served!-.
So when the concert begun I tried to hide my face with the light stick hoping that I won’t be recognizable. But I got too excited with their voice and music that I forget about it. When it was all ended people were leaving, but I received a message so I checked it:
From: Micky<3
“Come to the backstage! Now.”
-WHAT?? WHYYYY???- I thought. -How did he even see me?? -. I think my tactic to hide my face with a light stick was a failure, at this point. –Well.. it was stupid though..-
“ Mmmm.. Oppa I will go to the toilet okay?” I tried to tell him any excuse to go.
“ Ah sure, But be careful! Don’t get lost or I will be killed, Okay??” he said.
“ Hahaha okay! So don’t worry!”
I was going to backstage but of course there are a lot of security. Not knowing what to do I just sent him a message:
To: Micky<3
“ I’m here.. but u know.. security..-_- ”
So after two minutes or something, someone pulled my arm to the backstage. I can tell who is it even if he is all dressed in black with a cap and sunglasses. He brought me in a dressing room, he closed the door and pushed me on it. He was holding my wrist strongly.
“ Can you let go now? It hurts you know??” I said to him trying to free myself from his grip.
He was staring at me but not letting go yet.
“ Why did you bring him here?!” He was angry.
“ Micky it hurts! Let go!”
“ You know I don’t like him! What? Are you showing off or something??”
“ Showing off?? Really??” -This is getting ridiculous!!-.
“Do you love him?!!” he asked angrily and pressing more on his grip.
“ What do you want, Micky!!!” I told him rising my voice.
“ Answer me first!!”
“ What if??” I said angrily too.
“ Seriously??” he was more irritated.
“ And that’s not your business. So why are you so angry??” I said looking away. He leaned closer to face me, still not letting go of my wrist.
“ Not my business??” he said just staring at me intensively.
“ Yeah! Why? Are you jealous??” I said looking at him now.
“ Wha-??” He was taken aback by my sudden question. Without realizing it tears begun to fall down.
“ Do you love him that much??”
“ Do you love me then??” I asked even though I already the answer.
“ M-me??” he was perplexed.
“ Yeah.. I already know.. it’s just.. He is not the one I love, Micky!!” I can't keep it in anymore. Tears keep falling and I couldn’t stop them.
“ W-what do you mean??” he was lightening his grip on my wrist.
“ Why are you so slow, Micky??”
“ Huh?” he was too confused.
“ You know what? It’s enough now.. It hurts too much…” I said freeing myself from his grip, that was already loosen up.
“ *Sigh* Just..” I said turning around, giving him my back and wiping my tears.
“Just forget about it, Okay?!” I then opened the door and ran out.
“ forge-? Wait!! ____!!!” he shouted my name but I ignored it and ran away. –How can he be so slow?? Why tears won’t stop??-. I started to cry again, walking out.
“ ____??” I heard Jaejoong Oppa voice calling for me but I couldn’t stop now and let him see me like this.
–I can’t go on like this.. I can’t keep fooling myself, it was always one sided.. So from now on I will stop! I can’t take this anymore.. I’m just hurting myself…-. I wiped away my tears as I get out of the concert hall. I remembered that I left Jung- Woo Oppa behind, so I sent him a message saying that I wasn’t feeling well so I had to leave first and that I was so sorry and I will make up for it. I know it’s rude of me but I really need to be alone and to go home right now.
Sorry if it's a little late but my internet was gone for a few days.. i had only my phone but it's to much write so i waited a little.. But in the meantime I wrote another story :) well i was going to write it before this one but then 'I love you' won over it.. XD So if you want to check it, you can find it here:
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