"Seungri oppa!" I cried out. I saw him walking ahead of me, he seemed so close yet so far, "Oppa!" I tried running towards him, but it didn't seem to make a difference. Each step that I took, I felt like I was just getting farther and farther away from him. He turned around and smiled at me, but it didn't stop the tears rising from my eyes. I felt that if I let out of my hand to him, he'd somehow be able to reach for it. He reached out for me, but he was still too far. I can see the hurt in his face. It hurt me to know that I was possibly losing him. Right before my eyes, it was as if each part of his body was slowly fading away. 
"Seunri Oppa..." I tried to choke out, "Please, don't leave me." I managed to say, but it was too late because the last thing I saw was his smile. That disappeared, too. My surroundings quickly turned pitch black and I was left alone. I didn't understand where this was really coming from, but I was so afraid. I could feel my heart beating so fast. I felt like it was losing myself. I don't know what was going on with me. I had thoughts like: 

Why am I here? 
Why is he into ME of all people? 
I'm probably not even right for him. 
He deserves better. 

I tried to do whatever it took to push these thoughts out of my head. I closed my eyes trying to see if things woiuld change. They didn't....and I only saw absolutely nothing. It wasn't helping my cause. It wasn't helping me get these feelings out. I was growing more afraid of this and I didn't know how to get out of it. I attempted closing my eyes and opening them again to see if things would change around me, but yet again...nothing. I was feeling like a prisoner in my own thoughts at this point. I just wanted out, anything to get me out of this place. I couldn't even put a finger on where I was...I mean who could? I didn't move from where I was standing, but I tried slowly moving my foot forward to see if there was anything around me. I could still feel a solid, concrete ground, so I continued to move forward. Each step I took, I held my breath, afraid that I would quickly fall into even more nothing. I was thinking about the possibilities of falling forever. I felt just like giving up. I wanted to lay down in the fetal position and close my eyes. I know nothing woulc change, but what else could I possibly do? I did just that. I slowly used my hands to find the cold, hard ground. I laid my head down and then the rest of my body. I closed my eyes and still saw nothing different, but deep down I was just hoping this would end. Please, end this right here, right now because I can't take this. 

**Very delayed updates on this story, really sorry! I'll be updating when I can!