I quietly sat in class, messing with my pen, writing random things all over my blank notebook. I started doodling around my notes and found myself to not even be paying attention at all. It's my first day without him and I'm already going crazy. I started writing what was going through my mind instead of writing down notes..

Dear Lee Seung Hyun, 

I can't seem to keep my mind focused right now. I texted you as soon as I got to school and I got your response. You're currently rehersing for the next concert that you guys are planning so I know you won't be texting me back often today. I don't understand how I could miss someone so much even if I just saw them last night. Just the thought of you drives me crazy right now. You've been on my mind since the second you drove away from my house. If this is how the first day is without you...how will I be able to handle weeks...months....years? I think I'm thinking too far ahead to be worrying about that. Bell's going to ring soon. I hope to talk to you later, Seungri. 

with love, 
Li Chung Ae

I folded up the letter and put it in my backpack. I glanced over at Soo Min who fell asleep on her desk. The bell rung and I walked over to her to wake her up. 
"Ya~ Soo Min.." I said as I shook her a little. She didn't wake up, "YA~!" I shook her more. She slowly opened her eyes. 
"What time is it? Is it breakfast time?" She asked, she rubbed her eyes then stretched, "How long was I out?"
"I think the whole period." I said as I grabbed her stuff and then her arm, "Let's go, we'll be late for our next period." She didn't argue and just followed. We walked into the hallways and every girl gave me this kind of look. I ignored all of them and just kept walking. 
"Ya~, Chae....why is everyone looking at you?" Soo Min asked as she looked around at the girls who would pause for a second then continue walking, "Is this about...." She stopped talking, "nevermind..." I knew she knew exactly why these girls were giving me the look. It probably must have gone around that Seungri and I were together. I went to my locker and opened it. A card fell out with a rose , too. Who could have possibly left this in my locker? There were a few sticky notes stuck to my locker. It read: 

Chae,
I came to your school without your permission, but I talked to your principal about leaving you something in your locker. I thought it would be something to make you smile since I can't be with you. I really miss you...and I can't wait to see you :D 

I found it really cute that he would do something like this for me. He completely read my mind..since I had already missed him so much. I wish I could see him tonight, but I've got so much to do before school ends. I have books to return, last minute essays to write for teachers, and college stuff to take care of. I was stressing myself out though because I don't want to miss anything that could cause me to not graduate. Jung Hee walked up to me. 
"Aiish, is this a gift from the famous Seungri?" he smirked. He looked at the rose and then handed it back to me. 
"Jung Hee, why are you being so uptight about him? I swear, you make him seem like he's a villain.." I argued. 
"I don't know, Chae. I just don't know if he's the ri---" 
"Don't even go down that road" I cut him off, closed my locker, and walked of to my next class. I've been feeling like no one has been approving of Seungri and I being together now. I was worried that this would only pose negative news around the school..and maybe even around the city....around the world? No, Chae. Don't even worry about that. What matters at this point is your happiness and his. 

Am I even making him happy? 

The rest of my school day was unbearable. All I wanted to do was go home and sleep. Walking home was strange. I had almost every person who pass me, stare at me. When I realized that was happening, I walked faster. I stopped by a nearby store to buy a snack. The store clerk was an old woman,. She smiled at me when I paid for my food. 
"You're a lucky girl, aren't you?" She told me. I smiled at her and nodded. I walked out and soon arrived home. No one was home yet and so, I headed off to my room. I dropped my stuff on the floor and laid in bed. I stared up at the ceiling and realized that I hadn't read Seungri's card that he left in my locker. I quickly went to my bag to take it out. I slowly opened it..I could smell his irrisistable scent as soon as I opened it. Either his scent is still stuck to this or he sprayed whatever he puts on everyday. I smiled as I looked at the card. He actually made it himself because he drew a chibi version of he and I hugging. I smiled at the adorable cover that said in big letters, "OPPA MISSES YOU." I opened the card and read it: 

My Lovely Chae,
I can't help but realize that you're finally mine. After unexpectedly meeting you at one of our concerts, my mind was full of thoughts about you. I couldn't sleep because all I could think about was you. That told me that I really had to find you somehow. I know it sounds crazy...and possibly weird. I'm really happy that I found you and that you're okay after that accident. I'm truly sorry again for that...don't even try to deny that it's my fault, I should have thought of a smarter way to handle it. I hope you're not too stressed right now or tired...just take care while we're apart. I hope I get to see you soon...I miss you a lot already even if it's only been a few hours. It hasn't even been a day yet and I'm already going crazy without you! Don't miss oppa too much ;) Talk to you soon. 
                                                                                          Seungri 

I hugged the card and laid back in bed. After a long day at school, this card made me feel so much better.
I still don't understand why not even a day without him is driving me crazy...I just want to see him right now...his smile, his adorable laugh, and all in all, him. <3 

Sorry for updating so late, I've been so busy with work!
:) Thanks for being patient.