Chapter 13

Left behind

 

"Jiho!" Kyung shouted, "Jiho, wait up!!"

 

Jiho was marching off away from the house, " off, Kyung!"

 

"What did I do?!" Kyung complained, "Come on Jiho, stop for sake!"

 

Jiho finally came to a halt, letting Kyung get the chance to catch up. The taller eyes were glaring down at the other when he finally reached him, sighing in annoyance.

 

"Why did you run away like a ing teenage girl?!" Kyung breathed out, clearly affected by the early run.

 

"Don't I have the right to be angry as well?" Jiho countered.

 

"You know it's all based in misunderstandings. You just need to-"

 

"I don't care."

 

"... Yeah, try fooling yourself with that." Kyung said, rolling his eyes.

 

Jiho groaned and kicked a stone away from the ground.

 

"Jiho," Kyung started, "Calm down."

 

"YOU WANT ME TO CALM DOWN WHEN EVERYONE HATES ME BECAUSE I RUINED JIHOON'S LIFE AND-"

 

"SSSHH!!" Kyung hissed, " Jiho, don't scream! You're not ruining Jihoon's life, what-"

 

"ing seems like it,"

 

"Well," Kyung started, "Just apologize for now." He put his hand on Jiho's shoulder, giving it a light squeeze, "You'll find someone someday, I'm sure."

 

Jiho looked at him.

 

Kyung smiled, "I'm your best friend, who knows everything about you. Don't you think I know about your inner self freaking out about the fact that you might never find someone to love?"

 

Jiho's body language changed, anger fading from his eyes.

 

"Don't worry," Kyung continued, with a more serious tone, "You're still young, and a lot of people play around in our age."

 

"And a lot of people in our age find their true love." Jiho interrupted.

 

Kyung nodded, "Yes, but for some people it takes some time," he paused, "Just don't be so insecure."

 

"I'm not insecure!"

 

Kyung raised an eyebrow, "Says the one who thinks everyone hates him."

 

Jiho groaned, "I don-"

 

"You're afraid no one will like the real you, aren't you? Don't you think I've noticed? That's why you always play cool in front of girls, like a total different person. Why don't you try and show the real you and not have the same night you meet someone?"

 

Jiho looked down, mumbling to himself, accusing Kyung for knowing way too much about him.

 

"Just try, ok?" Kyung asked, trying to meet his eyes.

 

Jiho nodded, "Yeah yeah..."

 

Kyung giggled, "Good! Now let's go back, I think we're going to head back home soon."

 

Kyung turned to walked away, Jiho following with heavy steps, "Hey, Kyung?"

 

"Mm?"

 

"Thanks.. You know, for understanding."

 

Kyung smiled, nudging the other's shoulder, "Anytime."

 

Jiho smiled back, "I'll kill you if you tell the other's though."

 

"I know!"

 

 

-

 

 

Jihoon smiled when his eyes met Taeil's as he returned to the room. Yukwon smiled up to him as well and stood up, giving him a pat on the shoulder.

"I talked to him and I managed to calm him down a bit," he leant up to whispered, "Did you talk to Jiho?" he asked, careful not to let Taeil hear.

 

Jihoon nodded, and Yukwon smiled brighter, "It's going to be ok, Jihoon-ah."

 

The younger smiled, "Thank you hyung, really."

 

"No problem. I'm glad to help, you know that."

 

Jihoon nodded again, grateful for his friend who left the room to join his lonely boyfriend down at the kitchen.

 

Jihoon kneeled down in front of Taeil, "How are you feeling?"

 

Taeil shrugged, "I'm ok,"

 

Jihoon studied him, trying to find any kind of sign that he was lying. The stare made Taeil uncomfortable and he looked away, "It is better, Jihoon. I promise."

 

Jihoon let out a sigh in releif, "Good!" He stood up again, stretching his back.

 

Taeil turned to look at him, "He told me..." he started, catching Jihoon's attention, "about his past."

 

Jihoon looked at the other, "Yukwon?"

 

Taeil nodded, "When he spoke about certain things I could, you know, recognize myself in them. Behind that smile he's always wearing he's been hurting too, did you know? I feel sorry for him."

 

Jihoon didn't give any answer, so Taeil continued, almost whispering, "I realized that maybe you should try things out, even if it hurts you."

 

"Taeil..."

 

"I-I don't know if it'll work out, since I kind of hate everything, and can't feel anything," he sighed, covering his face with his hands. "Never mind."

 

"What do you-," Jihoon started.

 

Taeil just shook his head, "Forget about it."

 

Jihoon sat down on the floor again, moving Taeil's face out from his small hands, "Taeil? Please continue?"

 

Taeil took a deep breath, "I'm feeling something for you."

 

Jihoon looked at him, dead serious, and the panic started to fill up inside Taeil. He swallowed, ignoring it, foring himself to continue, "Maybe we could... take it slow and, I don't know, try?"

 

He closed his eyes, amazed by his own courage. He released a huge breathe of relief just a second before he was attacked with the warmest hug he'd ever received. Jihoon bubbling giggles, his big body crushing against his own, the feeling brought so much happiness that Taeil couldn't help but giggle back.

 

 

*

 

 

About an hour later, all of them had packed their stuff, said goodbye to Yukwon, and sat in the car back to Seoul. The ride went on pretty quietly, since everyone except for Minhyuk and Taeil fell asleep almost immediately. Jihoon was leaning against him, breating heavily, as Taeil's felt his heart beat more euphoric everytime the breath from Jihoon's mouth kissed his exposed neck. He smiled gently and looked ahead to the road, meeting Minhyuk's eyes smirking back at him through the back mirror. Taeil's smiled turned into an angry glare within seconds.

 

"Congrats," Minhyuk said to him.

 

Taeil choosed to look out through the window, ignoring the other.

 

Minhyuk pouted, "I mean it."

 

"Thanks,"

 

When Minhyuk stopped the car to let Taeil off, Jihoon was still pressed up against him, sleeping soundly on his shoulder. The older debated whether or not to wake him up to say goodbye, or just try to sneak his way out without waking him up. His gaze flicked between the blonde and the door to the car,

 

"You want me to wake him up?" Kyung asked, as if understanding the situation.

 

Taeil shook his head, "It's ok," choosing the second idea, to just sneak out.

 

That didn't turn out as he planned though, as Jihoon woke up the second after, groggily looking around, "Oh, are we already there?"

 

"Good morning, Jihoon-ah," Minhyuk teased.

 

"Ah... I slept for too long," Jihoon rubbed his eyes as he yawned.

 

Newly awoken Jihoon in a car was just as adorable to Taeil as a newly awoken Jihoon in a bed. The same lost expression, hair tousled in various places and mouth pouting. It reminded Taeil of an adorable puppy.

 

"Taeil is going off now," Kyung explained and Jihoon looked at the other.

 

"Now?"

 

Taeil smiled and nodded, going out, taking his backpack with him.

 

"Bye then," he said and the others waved, even Jiho nodded awkwardly a goodbye. "Bye Jihoon," he finished and turned to leave.

 

"Wait," Jihoon grabbed his arm, "Can't I come with you?"

 

Taeil stared at him, "... Why?"

 

He could hear Kyung snicker behind them, before Minhyuk turned to slap him to shut him up.

 

"Can't I?" Jihoon looked at him eagerly, one hand already grabbing his backpack.

 

Taeil was still staring at him, "O-okey?"

 

"Yay!" Jihoon smiled, "Thanks for the ride Minhyuk!"

 

"No problem, have fun you guys!" Minhyuk waved, "And see you tomorrow Jihoon-ah,"

 

Jihoon nodded and closed the cardoor, watching them drive off.

 

Taeil looked at Jihoon, who was smiling down at him like an idiot, his whole face shining, and he couldn't help but roll his eyes, snorting at him.

 

"I need to go to the grocery store," Taeil said and started walking, Jihoon skipping behind. "And please stop giggling like that," he added, "It's embarrassing..."

 

"Sorry~" Jihoon sang, "I'll help you carry the bags!"

 

They walked silently beside each other, Taeil's heart racing with both the panic of what to do, and what to talk about. Nothing was said until they reached the store, and Taeil picked up one of the blue basket to carry the groceries in by the entrance.

 

"I can hold it for you." Jihoon said, reaching for the basket.

 

Taeil turned to glare at him, "I'm not weak, nor am I a little girl."

 

Jihoon laughed, holding his hands up in defence, "Just trying to be a good boyfriend,"

 

Taeil gulped, looking away, Is that what we are? Boyfriends? He'd never thought of them as boyfriends, being a couple and saying that he had a boyfriend with his own mouth, was something he'd never thought he would have to deal with.
He felt a chill through his body, Is that what he thinks we are? In a relationship?
The label pressured him.

 

Jihoon noticed the change in the older and realized his mistake, "Sorry, I said it without thinking," he said, scratching his head, "I know we're still not like that."

 

Taeil gave him an uneasy smile, "It's ok,"

 

It was ok, but the sudden word took him by surprise. He shook his head, trying to shake the anxiety away, forcing his brain to think about what to buy, and what to make for lunch tomorrow instead.

 

Other than that, the shopping went by just fine. Jihoon ran back and forth, helping picking up the things Taeil wanted, they shared some samples of fresh grapes that were on sale, and Jihoon watched in amusement when Taeil tried to choose between apples or pears for a good five minutes.

 

"Is it ok if I come with you home?" Jihoon asked on their way out of the store.

 

"Um, sure," Taeil shrugged.

 

Did I just invite him home?

 

They walked the roads leading them to Taeil's neighbourhood. The dogs in the shelter welcomed them with barks and howls, surprising Jihoon in a very good way. Taeil smiled as he opened the gate, letting Jihoon inside to greet the dogs.

 

"Who is it?" the owner appeared from the entrance, "Taeil! See you brought a friend?"

 

Taeil smiled, "Kangchil-hyung, this is Jihoon."

 

Jihoon waved happily, "Nice to meet you sir!"

 

Kangchil greeted the younger, "A very happy young man you are I see?"

 

Jihoon let out a laugh, "Such nice dogs you have!"

 

"Thank you, I do love every single one of them. Even though it would be better to find them new loving homes. We're still living on the hope that Taeil will buy at least half of them, when he moves to a bigger place," the owner joked, winking at Taeil.

 

"I'm already acting as their owner, coming here playing with them every day!" Taeil laughed, "But yes, I promise."

 

"I'll buy some of them too!" Jihoon said, and the owner chuckled.

 

"I like this kid!"

 

They stayed for a while, playing and cuddling with the dogs before going to Taeil's place. Reaching the door, Taeil hesitated for a moment, feeling nervous for showing Jihoon what was his, how he lived. Allowing someone to enter your room was the same thing as exposing yourself, since a person's house shows who they are.

 

He inhaled quietly before he turned the key and opened the door. His place was small, but comfortable. He didn't have that much stuff, the only thing he'd put a lot of money into was his big flat screen HD TV with the best surround system Seoul had to offer.

 

"It's so homey!" Jihoon beamed.

 

"It's nothing special," Taeil said and went to put his groceries in the kitchen.

 

"Better than my room, plus you live alone. It must feel good,"

 

It doesn't feel good, you drown yourself with your own thoughts,
"Yeah, sometimes I guess."

 

Jihoon went to join him in the kitchen, "How long have you been staying here?"

 

"I don't know,"

 

"Is your family visiting you often?"

 

"I don't talk to my parents,"

 

Jihoon raised his eyebrows, "Why?"

 

Taeil sighed, "They hate me and I hate them,"

 

"What... happened?"

 

Taeil opened the fridge to put in some vegetables, "Some things."

 

Jihoon pouted and looked away, understanding that Taeil didn't want to talk about it.
"So what are we eating then?" he smiled, turning the conversation around.

 

Taeil was greatful that Jihoon had changed the subject, and turned to give him a smile, "What do you want? I thought about just putting the chicken and vegetables together and fry it in some sauce,"

 

"Sounds good!"




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A/N: Sorry I made you wait, my head just wouldn't give me any ideas T^T but it's working again finally.
AND BLOCK B IS COMING BACK!!! FINALLY♥ Big fandom hug to all of you~~~

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KaratKookies #1
Chapter 33: THIS STORY IS BACK AHHHHHHH!!! I missed it so much, you have no idea T-T I was so sad when it wasn’t available anymore. There are very few quality Block B fanfics and this is my favorite by far.
Rapulapulla #2
Chapter 33: Aah this story is so good! I was scrolling through the taepyo tag and found you and seriously this piece is so wonderful. I feel like with a theme of depression and angst it's hard to keep the story non cliche, but I think you're doing a great job keeping it realistic but also entertaining and relatable. Anyway, sorry for making this comment super long. I hope you have a nice day or night! ♡
Crystalchara
#3
Chapter 33: Omg i love everything you write! Fav fanfic author of all time !
Misaitonya #4
Chapter 33: Idk what kill me more on this chapter....
ZiKyung fluffyness after the time, TaePyo kitchen time or your comment about "tell them you love them and spend time with them"... like... that comment just connect the ZiKyung and TaePyo situation and gets me depress about my love story (? )

I really don't know why I haven't read this chapter 'cuz I love it and I really love the way you write ♡♡♡ and well my ZiKyung shipper that always was commenting you about give me some ZiKyung moment and this just happend... OMG I'm just so happy ♡♡♡ I really love this!

Hope you are doing well and tons of love for you too~
Waiting next chapter soon!
sweetseokjin #5
Chapter 33: i love this story! your writing is wonderful and i hope youre okay with school and stuff like that ! stay healthy and update soon x
songjuja #6
Chapter 33: This story is so good! You have a great writing style, it is so good to read~ Hope you will continue the story ❤ Please update if you can
Village-Idiot #7
Chapter 33: Awwww, the ZiKyung feels, I miss them so much ;-; in real life I mean
I need a comeback for like, yesterday TnT
Poor Jaehyo, but that was a good one lol
meii_yuseong #8
Chapter 33: OMG!
I dunno, it's like.... uhm, you know, I felt kind of confused? i think. It's like jiho and kyung have this stupid blindfold and they can't see like... the real feelings betwen them(?)
I mean, if there were no feelings, why jiho would be kind of.. mad? pissed of? because of kyung saying he didn't care like.. being toyed? It DEFINITELY means something!!! *insert a lot of frustration here*
But well, i can understand them(?)
I hope, if they start something, they realize that.... they have kind of feelings for each other(?) If not, they're gonna get hurt.. right? OMG!
And jaehyo... well, he's... he xD
Poor jihoonie and taeilie, they have to behave(?) (no guys, you do whatever u want xD)
I have to say it.. I ing loove u! and this fic is one of my favourites (problably you're sick of reading it?)
so... I'm gonna go now...
Be happy, smile a lot, and hope to read u soon~ <3