Jessica's POV:

Days have passed and it's finally Panie~panie's birthday~!!!
Saengil Chukkahaeyo fany-ah~!! Saranghaeyo~!!! <3 <3 <3

me and the girls decided to have  a pool party during night time.
We were all wearing bikinis actually, we were wearing big shirts and underneath is our bikinis
except fany the birthday girl~!^^



Having this bonding time with the girls makes me super happy because this things are pretty rare
and only happens once in a blue moon, no I'm exaggerating it but it somehow feels like that...
like we haven't bonded for such a long decade..

After Tiffany's party, we helped each other in cleaning up our mess. Yeah, you can say that we really
party hard because the whole venue is really messy. There was even a floating pizza pool..thanks to Sooyoung.
Luckily she didn't get cramps while eating on the pool.

After neating up things, we all went inside our dorm and stayed at the living room. We were talking with each other.
Moments later, our doorbell rang. We all looked at each other because we weren't expecting any guest at that time and it's
almost midnight.

The doorbell rang again but we were so lazy to pick it up. As always, our ever kind maknae went to check who it was.
As soon as Seohyun came back, she was holding 2 bouquet of flowers. 1 is an all pink rose while the other 1 are mix pink and white roses.
It looks so cute! The all pink one was given to Tiffany because it's her birthday. She smiled at the sight of it and read the message written on the
card attached on her flowers

To: Tiffany Noona

SAENGIL CHUKKAHAEYO~!!!
We wish you more birthday's to come!
Saranghaeyo~!!!

From: EXO dongsaengs

"Awww...kamsahamnida"-Tiffany

Tiffany said and hugged the flowers. We all chukkled at what she did. After that, our attention went back to Seohyun because there is still 1 more
bouquet of flowers on her hand. 

"To whom are those Seo?"-Tiffany

Tiffany asked Seohyun

"I think...it's for sica eonnie"-Seohyun

Seohyun said and handed me the bouquet of flowers. All the girls cooed and started to tease me with it.

"Awww...Poor Taeyeon. Baekhyun didn't gave her any flowers"-Tiffany

Tiffany teased Taeyeon and we all chukkled even Taeyeon

"Baekhyun maybe didn't give me any flowers today but at least he gave me a teddy bear this morning"-Taeyeon

Taeyeon said with pride. We all squeeled in gladness with what she said

"Omo~ where is it? where is it? I wanna see it"-Tiffany

there goes the ever active birthday girl as she run towards Taeyeon's room and went out with a life size white teddy bear on her hands.
All our eyes were twinkling in amazement since it's the biggest bear staying in our dorm! like seriously *O*

The bear is holding a heart shaped pillow and stitched on it is B+T Forever...

"Omo~!!! Kyeopta~!!!"-SNSD

We all said as we envied Taeyeon with her gift

"Try and press the heart"-Taeyeon

Taeyeon said and Sooyoung did it and suddenly...

"SARANGHAEYO TAEYEON~!!!"

a voice came out...I mean it's Baekhyun's voice saying that.

"OMO!!!"-SNSD

We all said and took turns on pressing the heart

"Omo..Baekhyun is really something"-Sunny

Sunny said

"and he is mine.."-Taeyeon

Taeyeon said snatching the teddy bear from us and placed it back on her room. As soon as she came back, she sat down between Sunny and Yoona facing the chair to where I am seating at.

"So...lets read YOUR letter"-Taeyeon

Taeyeon said with a goofy smile on her face. I was confuse at first and then I noticed a card hanging from the bouquet of flowers that I was holding.

"Ooh~ sica got a letter from Suho~"-Tiffany

Fany teased

"Not just any oridinary letter.."-Yoona

Yoona continued

"but a love letter.."-Yuri

Yuri said and they all cooed

"Why would I read this letter infront of you girls? It's MY letter"-Jessica

I told them emphasizing the MY part.

"Aishhh Sica~!!!"-SNSD

they all whined at what I said and so I chukkled at them

"Wahaha Omo~..arasso, arasso. I'll read it"-Jessica

I told them and started to read Suho's letter

"To Sica..."-Jessica

I stopped and looked at them and they were all looking at me like kids who are so excited
in hearing a fairytale story. I smiled at the sight of them

"Just continue..."-SNSD

they all said at the same time and so I let out a small laugh

"Fine.."-Jessica

I told them and continued to read the letter

"I hope you like the flowers that I bought you because I guess this would be the last time
I'll be buying you such"-Jessica

my eyebrows scrunged because I really don't get what he means. I looked at the girls and I can see confusion in their faces and so
I decided to read more of it...

"I'm sorry but..I think things wont work out this way anymore. Our current status made me realize
that. 'Till next time....Suho"-Jessica

That's it...tears were breaming up on my face, I don't know what to do, I don't know what to say.
I suddenly dropped the card because my hands were shaking. I held my hands together and covered my mouth as
tears rolled down my cheeks..

"W-what have I done? Did I do something wrong for him to hate me?"-Jessica

I said and soon the girls approuched me and tried to comfort me

"Sica..you have done nothing wrong..."-Hyoyeon

Hyo said

"I have, I have...why would he tell me that if I haven't done something wrong. Hyo tell me what have I done?
please tell me what have I done?"-Jessica

I asked her as tears rapidly flows down from my eyes.

I saw Taeyeon marched over towards the table and grabbed her phone and dialed someone. Soon...it was ringing and then she was talking with Baekhyun

"Where is Suho?"-Taeyeon

she said walking back and forth in the living room

"Baekhyun I'm serious!"-Taeyeon

Tae shouted

"What is his problem!?"-Taeyeon

Taeyeon told Baekhyun over the phone

"You guys don't know anything about it!?"-Taeyeon

Taeyeon bursted out

"Wait..why are you stuttering?"-Taeyeon

Tae asked

"Whatever...just ask your leader to what is his problem and he should fix it ASAP,bye"-Taeyeon

Taeyeon said and hanged up. She massaged her temples and sat down on the chair infront of me

"What the heck is Suho thinking??? You guys are evennot yet in a relationship and now..he is like breaking up with you!?
geez!"-Tiffany

Tiffany said

"Sica... just stop thinking about it, ok? The first thing he'll do tomorrow is apologize to you"-Taeyeon

Tae said trying to brighten up the mood. I wiped away the remaining tears from my eyes and stood up.

"I don't need his apology. It isn't his fault if he doesn't like me anymore. Maybe destiny just doesn't want us 
be together"-Jessica

I told them as a tear again escaped my eye. I immediately wiped it and smiled at them

"I'll be in my room, I'm going to live it open for you Soo.."-Jessica

I told Sooyoung and walked away. As soon I went in, I closed the door but I didn't locked it. I slumped mysef on my bed and burried
my face on my pillow since tears again were threatening to fall down..

"What did I do to make you hate me? Is it because I've made you wait too long? Is that it Suho?"-Jessica

I told myself and this time tears soaked in my pillow and that made me fall in deep slumber because I'm tired...
tired of waiting, tired of work and tired of loving...

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Here is a sad chapter from a sad Author TT^TT

I am still crying because of the concert that happened yesterday..
In my entire life, I have never attended a K-POP concert... I'm always #TeamBahay #TeamFancam #TeamNgaNga
#TeamYoutube #TeamFB #TeamIyak

Seeing the fancams awhile ago inspired me to finally write this sad twisted chapter...
I am crying while writing this chapter..because it ached my heart TT^TT

It aches my heart that a kid made me realize that EXO are one of my unreachable dreams
and because of that I have lost hope in believing that someday I'll be meeting them and someday
they'll know my name and everything...

but no worries, I will still continue to support them. It just made me lose my hope and faith for them.

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