Jessica's POV

Me and the girls are finish promoting IGaB and our next stop is to Japan to start our Girls and Peace tour...
We will do 14 concerts in 6 different cities in Japan. It maybe tiring but I guess it would be fun ^^

During our concerts, we celebrated both Sooyoung and Taeyeons birthday:





It was really fun. I myself wanted to celebrate my birthday on a concert but when I asked the schedule, there were no
sceduled concerts on my birthday. I pouted in frustation.
 

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Days have passed and it was already my birthday. The girls prepared me a cake but they said that it was Tae eonnie who really
prepared it. I was happy because of that and we even took a selca of it:



We only had a simple party inside our dorm, there were no guests since we're at Japan.

We were talking and laughing and eating like there's no tomorrow. Moments later, it was time to clean up, we need to sleep early since tomorrow would be another busy day. I went to the kitchen to help the other girls clean our mess and after that, I immediately proceeded to the bathroom to take a bath and then I immediately wore my PJ's and went to bed.

I was turning and turning around since I can't get to sleep. I stood up from my bed and went to our kitchen to drink some water.

As soon as I came back to my roon, my phone rang, I was about to answer it but it turned out to be voice mail.

Uhmmm...Anneyonghaseyo noona..

My eyes widened in shock to hear his voice. It's Suho...

...I just wanted to greet you a Happy happy Birthday (chukkles)

I also chukkled when he chukkled, I don't know. Maybe I just missed talking with him.

You know noona, I...uhmmm.. m-miss you (chukkles) honestly speaking noona, I miss everything about you. I miss your smie, your laugh, your cold stare. Everything!

I smiled at what he said

Uhhmmm...Noona, are you ignoring me?

I suddenly went serious when he asked me that.

I dont know, it seems like your ignoring me. I just noticed it when you were still here in Korea. When I approuch you 
you just talk to me for a moment and then  you'll ignore me completely.

Suddenly, I felt a tear fall down into my cheeks but I immediately wiped it.

Did I do something wrong noona? If I did noona, please tell me?

and again the tears just can't stop falling from my eyes.

Noona, do you still remember the time when we were both at the SME's rooftop? Where I confessed my feelings for you?

Then again, everything that happened on that day flashed into my eyes.

I hope you still remember that (chukkles a little) Noona, I promise, I will do my best to win your heart. I will do whatever
it takes to melt the Ice princesses heart.

I chukkled a little with his overcheeziness but still tears wont stop falling from my eyes.

I guess, I'll stop here. Noona, Joa...I mean, Saranghaeyo and Happy Birthday..

and it was gone. After that, I covered my face with the pillow since my tears just wont stop. 

I immediately got up from my bed and got some tissue. I was like having a runny nose but not from the nose, from the eyes.

(Aishhh Suho, look what you've done to me. I'm a mess right now)-I said inside my mind

I'm having a feeling that my eyes are super bulgy right now. I just hope it would be gone the next morning.

(Suho, If you only know, if you only know what I'm going through right now maybe you'll understand. I love you too Suho but I can't tell you...
my life is really complicated especially when you came around. I just can't get you out of my head...It is really hard. Even if we only get to know
each other for months, it feels like I've known you for years... I'm really sorry Suho, I'm sorry)-I said inside my mind

and after that, I went to my dreamland with Suho...

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Morning came and my eyelids feels heavy, I opened my eyes and again tears came out but I immediately wiped it off...

(Maybe I slept crying last night)-I said inside my mind

I remembered everything that happened last night and again here comes my tears.

"Aishhh chincha.."-Jessica

I said as I wiped the remaining tears in my eyes and after that I moved out.

As soon as I moved out. I saw all the girls already eating their Breakfast. As soon as I approuched the table the girls looked at me with shocked expression

"Sica did your cry?"-Taeyeon

Tae eonnie was the first one who asked me

"A-aniyo eonnie, I-I just had a colds last night and I just can't stop tearing up"-Jessica

I told them and smiled. Some fell for it but my 3 bestfriends won't fall for my excuse. They are no other than Sooyoung, Yuri and Yoona.

While eating breakfast, the 3 of them kept staring at me like I'm a criminal and after eating breakfast we went to our own rooms to have our shower and after that we immediately proceeded to the building where we will be having our practice. Moments later, while we were having our break time, SooYoonYul dragged me outside and proceeded to the restroom and locked it.

"Explain"-Yuri

Yul said

"What do I have to explain?"-Jessica

I asked her

"Why did you cry last night?"-SooYoonYul

The 3 of them said at the same time and crossed their arms

I sighed in defeat and said:

"Fine..."-Jessica

I got my phone from my pocket and replayed the voice mail that Suho sent me. After hearing it the girls were crying.

"Aishhh chincha, stop crying"-Jessica

I told them

"Sica don't you see?"-Yuri

Yul said

"Suho like you so much eonnie"-Yoona

Yoona said

"Eonnie, you're not only hurting yourself, you're also hurting Suho"-Sooyoung

Sooyoung said while wiping her tears

"Sica, sooner or later. You have to tell everything to Tae eonnie"-Yuri

Yul said

"No I won't... she won't know anything about this"-Jessica

I told them coldly

"but eonnie, you and Tae eonnie are ok now. Since the 2 of you are ok now, why don't you try telling her
what you feel for Suho"-Yoona

Yoona said

"Yeah eonnie, try it. She might understand"-Sooyoung

Sooyoung continued

"But what if she wont? Then I just wasted all my effort! I wont tell her eveything, this is all I ever wanted, right?
to bring my old status back with Taeyeon and I even promised myself that I wont regret any of my decisions."-Jessica

I told them

"Sica, we are trying to help you!"-Yuri

Yuri said

"You are not trying to help me! You are making it harder for me. All I need is your support"-Jessica

I said tears finally rolling down my eyes

It was silent for a moment and then...

"FIne..."-Yuri

Yul said not even looking at me. She was about to go out but she stopped

"SIca, I hope you wont regret your decisions in the future and also dont go running to me while crying
and telling me that you regret everything"-Yuri

Yul said and slammed the restroom door shut.

I fell down on my knees crying. Yoona and Sooyoung comforted me.

"What have I done..."-Jessica

I said while sobbing

"Eonnie.. just rest for awhile. I know Yuri eonnie wont be mad at you for long"-Sooyoung

"Yeah eonnie... she just cares for you a lot"-Yoona

They both said while comforting me

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So here is the update~ :)

I was planning to do a double update again but I still don't have an
Idea for the next chapter. I need tot hink about it first. ^^

Please keep the comments coming~!!!






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