Jessica's POV

I am currently here in my room, zooming out. Yesterday, me and Tae eonnie had a little quarrel, I can't blame her since it's my fault.

(Flashback:)

As soon as I entered our dorm, I saw the girls comforting Tae eonnie because she was crying.

"Eonnie.."-Jessica

I said and I was about to approuch her when she suddenly stood up and spanked me in the face.
The girls were shock but I'm not...

"Eonnie...mianhae"-Jessica

I said as tears started to flow down my cheeks

"Sorry!? What would your sorry do now!? It's Done!"-Taeyeon

Tae eonnie shouted at me and I continued to cry

"Eonnie... I-I didn't mean to.."-Jessica

I said sobbing uncontrolablly

"Don't tell me you didn't mean it! I saw you 2 together! kissing!"-Taeyeon

Taeyeon said crying like crazy

"Eonnie.. it's just that.."-Jessica

I tried to say something but she cut me through

"It's just that what sica!? It's just that you want to kiss him??"-Taeyeon

Taeyeon eonnie said angrily

"No eonnie"-Jessica

I said and she continue

"Is this the way you want to repay me for ignoring you for the past years? Is this it sica?"-Taeyeon

Tae eonnie kept cutting me through

"Well Good job! because I will surely never forget this!"-Taeyeon

Taeyeon shouted. SInce I can't take it anymore I shouted at her too.

"TAEYEON!!"-Jessica

and they all got shocked with my sudden burst out

"Fine, I'll tell you the truth.. I like Suho"-Jessica

I shouted and Tae eonnie seem shock

"Tae, I like him from the day we met. I don't even know if this is like anymore, I think I love him already."-Jessica

I told her straight forward

"You know Tae, since the day I figured out that you like Suho, I tried to distant myself from him since I don't want you to be hurt just because 
of me but the more I distant myself from him, the more deeper my feeligs grew for him. Eonnie, I'm sorry. That kiss awhile ago means nothing,
if you want me to forget it, fine! I'll forget about it. If you want me to ignore him from now on, i'll do it"-Jessica

I told her as tears flow down my cheeks.

"But why didn't you tell me?"-Taeyeon

she asked me and there I became silent

"Why didn't you tell me sica? You could've told me and I should've understand"-Taeyeon

Taeyeon told me as tears continue to flow down our cheeks

"because I thought you would hate me more if I tell you..."-Jessica

I told her and she just looked down.

"So I am not trust worthy..."fine-Taeyeon

she said and went to her room, I was about to catch her when Sunny and Hoyeon caught me

"Sica... just let her and you rest first, let her calm down first and talk to her tomorrow"-Hyoyeon

Hyoyeon said and Sunny nodded. I nodded my head and entered my room and cried everything there.

(End Of Flashback)

Suddenly tears flowed down on my cheeks as I remembered the incident last night but I immediately wiped it off. I stood up from my bed and went out from the room. As soon as I went outside the girls greeted me a goodmorning and i just gave them a weak smile. I sat down at the breakfast table and noticed that one chair wasn't occupied. I looked at the girls and like I thought, it was Tae eonnie who is not around.

"Where is Tae eonnie?"-Jessica

I asked them out of the blues. They looked at each other and finally Tiffany decided to speak

"She already went first..."-Tiffany

Tiffany said as she drink her Strawberry milk

"Now she doesn't even want to eat breakfast when I'm around"-Jessica

I whispered but they heared it.

"It's not that sica , it's just that she really needs to go early today"-Sunny

Sunny said but I know it's just an excuse

"Don't need to cover her Sunny, I understand."-Jessica

I said and drink up all my milk and stood up

"Eonnie, how about your breakfast"-Seohyun

Seohyun called out

"I'm sorry but... I'm not that hungry"-Jessica

I said and entered our room and again I cried.






Suho's POV:

As soon as I woke up, my eyes we bulgy. I guess I cried crying last night. I stood up anc checked my eyes at our mirror and they were red.
Then suddenly, some one entered my room and it was Chanyeol.

"Hyung... I know everything. Yoona noona told me"-Chanyeol

Chanyeol said and sat on Sehuns bed

"Do the others know?"-Suho

I asked

"Well, yes since they have the right to know"-Chanyeol

Chanyeol said

"Is Baekhyun mad at me?"-Suho

"Not really but don't be shock if he'll ignore you"-Chanyeol

Chanyeol said and I sighed in frustration

"What should I do now Chanyeol"-Suho

I said as I lay down my bed

"apologize hyung"-Chanyeol

Chanyeol said while swinging Sehun's badminton racket

"as if they'll gonna forgive me"-Suho

I replied

"even though, as long as you apologized"-Chanyeol

Chanyeol said and I just sighed

"Hyung, you gotta eat breakfast now. We need to go to the SME for a meeting"-Chanyeol

Chanyeol said and stood up

"Just tell them to keep the foods, I don't have any appetite to eat"-Suho

I said still lying on the bed

"Are you sure hyung?"-Chanyeol

Chanyeol asked and I just nodded my head. As soon as he went out another tear escaped my eye but I immediately wiped
since crying wont make anything better..






Jessica's POV:

Moments later, we arrived at the SME building.
I was wearing my shades since I don't want to let them see my super puffy red eyes.
We immediately went insidethe meeting room since we are 3 minutes late.

As soon as we entered I already saw Tae eonnie. She is not even looking at us.
I sighed and sat down on my chair and listened to what our manager is talking about.

As soon as the meeting was finish... I decided to approuch Tae eonnie but she immediately went out. The girls saw it and looked at me.
A tear fell down my cheeks but I immediately wiped it off and luckily no one noticed since I'm wearing my shades.

"Lets go"-Jessica

I told them slyly as we moved out of the room. While we walking,we saw a group of boys ahead of us and it's Exo. I looked down since
I don't want to see Suho because it will hurt me more...

As we pass by them, I can see at the corner of my eyes that he is looking at me, he wanted to approuch me but I quickened my pace.
When I can no longer see them, A tear escaped my eye and I immediately went to thebathroom and cried my heart out.





Suho's POV:

While walking, I was zooming out. I kept thinking if I should apologize or what...

Suddenly I noticed a group of girls ahead of us and when I looked, it was the SNSD noonas. I immediately saw sica noona.
She was looking down. As we pass by them, I wanted to grab sica noona and apologize to her at that moment.

I was actually going approuch her but she quickened her pace which only means one thing. She really hates me.
As soon as they were gone I sighed and continued to walk. The guys were looking at me pitifully...
My knees were shakey, I don't know why. I suddenly stumbled but I maintained my balance and didn't fall down

"Hyung..."-Sehun

Sehun said approuched me

"I'm ok, don't worry"-Suho

I told them and smiled faintly and continued to walk.

During the meeting I was again zooming out. I just can't get noona out of my head. 
I didn't even notice manager hyung is calling me.

"Suho... Suho.... SUHO!"-Manager

Managey hyung shouted

"neh hyung?"-Suho

I said startled

"Do you understand?"-Manager

manager hyung asked and i just nodded my head even though I didn't hear anything that he said

"Aishhh~ what's wrong with you today boy"-Manager

Manager hyung said as he moves out of the room. The guys looked at me worriedly

"I'll be in the restroom"-Suho

I told them and moved out. As soon as I entered the restroom, I looked at my reflection and again I remembered the day when I kissed sica noona, I thought it would be prefect but then... Tae noona arrived...

I looked down as a tear again escaped my eyes. I've hurt so many people, I've hurt Tae noona,I've hurt Baekhyun and most of all Sica noona.
I clenched my fist and I began to shout then I punched the wall continously until my hands began to bleed.

Suddenly the Exo guys entered the restroom and saw my hands bleeding.

"HYUNG!"-Exo

They shouted and approuched me.

"What the heck are you doing Suho!"-Xiumin

Xiumin hyung said as he examined my hand

The other Exo guys were looking at me shocked

"Suho, punching the wall and make you hurt wont do anything"-Kris

Kris said while washing his handkerchief. He kneeled down beside me and place it on my hand. I shouted pain since it really hurts.

"I think hyung has a broken arm"-Kai

Kai said while looking at my arm.

The guys helped me stand up and we walked to the clinic

>>>>>>

While the nurse is fixing my bandages, manager hyung arrived

"What the heck were you doing Suho!"-Manager

he shouted in anger

"I was just letting out my anger and frustration hyung"-Suho

I said

"You could've just punched a punching bag, not the wall!"-Manager

Manager hyung said while looking at my broken arm

"You guys are going to comeback soon and you have a broken arm"-Manager

"This will take awhile to heal hyung, don't panick"-Suho

I said and thanked the nurse who just finished bandaging my arm

"Aishhh.. we don't have a choice but to move your comeback"-Manager

Manager hyung said

"BWOH!?"-Exo

we all said

"I said this will only take awhile"-Suho

I told him

"Just take a rest and I'll change your schedules. Take care of your leader, arasso?"-Manager

Manager hyung said and went away. I can see in my members faces that they were frustrated...

"I'm sorry..."-Suho

I told them

"It's ok Suho-ah..."-Luhan

Luhan said and approuched me

"Yeah... we understand you"-Lay

Lay reponded

"Well, I guess our fans would be bashing our manager again because of our late comeback"-D.O

D.O said and we all laughed

"Come on guys, let's buy some lunch and Suho hyung you should stay here first. You need to rest"-Chanyeol

Chanyeol said

"Yah.. my hand is the one broken not my feet"-Suho

"But still hyung, you have to rest"-Chen

Chen said while the others nodded their heads in agreement

"Aishhh fine"-Suho

I said and they all moved out except Baekhyun

"H-hyung...I-I'm sorry"-Baekhyun

he said heads down

"Huh? what are you apologizing for Baekhyun-ah?"-Suho

I asked

"You're mad at me right? That's why you punched the wall"-Baekhyun

Baekhyun said

"Aishhh aniyo... I'm not mad at you, I'm mad at myself and I should be the one apologizing"-Suho

I told him sincerely

"Aniyo hyung, I'm not blaming you. I understand"-Baekhyun

Baekhyun said and smiled at me

"Thanks Baek"-Suho

I told him and smiled back.

"and Baek... don't give up just yet, arasso?"-Suho

I told him

"I don't know hyung... I'm losing hope with Tae noona"-Baekhyun

Baekhyun said

"Aishhh, chincha. Don't lose hope... you just don't know how love works, love works in mysterious ways"-Suho

I told him but he was still not convinced. With my unbroken arm, I touched his shoulders

"Baekhyun-ah... please don't give up, promise me you won't give up"-Suho

I told him and he sighed

"Ok hyung, I promise"-Baekhyun

he said and smiled and I smiled back. Moments later the guys already entered the clinic

"SuBaek moments~!!!"-Sehun and Tao

The 2 maknaes shouted and they all chukkled

"Yah! Baekhyun! How dare you cheat on me!"-Chanyeol

Chanyeol shouted

"I am not cheating on you..I-"-Baekhyun

he was cut through mid-sentence when we looked at him with a shocked expression

"I mean I... I..Aishhh chincha..Yah!"-Baekhyun

Baekhyun said and slapped Chanyeol which made us laugh harded.

"How are you hyung?"-Chen

Chen asked

"Still lost..."-Suho

I said and smiled faintly and they just nodded their heads and then we ate lunch...




 

Jessica's POV:

I am currently inside a cubicle in the restroom crying then suddenly someone entered the restroom.
I tried to stop myself from crying but I can't.

Then suddenly I heard familiar voices

"Eonnie... gwenchanayo"-Sooyoung
"Eonnie... please come out from there"-Yoona
"Sica.... come out and talk to us"-Yuri

I silently went out the cubicle and saw their worried faces. My eyes built up more tears and I cried infront of the. They approuched me and hugged me.

"Just let it all out sica..."-Yuri

Yul said as she gently my hairs and I did what she said.

Moments later, I have finally calmed down.

"What are you girls doing here?"-Jessica

I asked them

"we wanted to make sure you're ok eonnie"-Yoona

Yoona replied

"How about the others?"-Jessica

I asked

"They're comforting Tae eonnie since she's also crying"-Sooyoung

Sooyoung said and bit her lower lip. Again tears crowded my eye

"Girls... I'm sorry because of me, we're broken again"-Jessica

I said as tears run down from my eyes

"Sica... don't blame yourself, it's not even your fault, not even Suho's and not even Tae eonnies. It's no ones fault"-Yuri

Yuri said

"but still... if I didn't kiss Suho, this should've not happen."-Jessica

I said and they all kept silent

"Don't worry, I'll ignore Suho from now on"-Jessica

I told them

"But eonnie... you will only hurt yourself"-Yoona

she said

"I don't care...if it's the only way then I'll do it"-Jessica

I said

"Eonnie, how about Suho..."-Sooyoung

"I bet he also hates me right now"-Jessica

"Ok sica, if you really want to forget Suho, say this: "I hate Suho"... If you can tell that to us right now, we wont stop
you with your plans"-Yuri

Yuri said looking directly into my eyes. I looked directly into her eyes and try to say it but I can't. It's already in my mind all I need
to do is to say it but I can't

Suddenly tears again rappidly flows down my cheeks.

"I can't Yuri-ah, I just can't.... I-I love him"-Jessica

I said crying uncontrollably and the girls didn't uttered anything and just continued to comfort me

"I'm lost..."-Jessica

I told them and I suddenly passed out....

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