Jessica's POV

It has been 3 days since I heard that Tae and Baekhyun is now official. Their relationship has been announced
between exoshidae members only...

I am happy for the 2 of them. At least Baekhyun have the guts to tell Taeyeon eonnie what he really feel for her...not like me
a weakling, a selfless weakling..

Taeyeon haven't forgived me yet and I understand...

Me and the girls are driving off to our destination... We are attending the Dream Concert at Seoul...
the SHINee boys will be attending too.. but Jonghyun wont be around since he is a little bit not ok...
I really care for that guy. He is like my real brother.. We even chukkle whenever we see fans
saying that we are a real couple since we are not and our relationship will always be a sibling-sibling relationship
nothing more, nothing less...

As soon as we arrive... we immediately walked the red carpet. I am actually between Seohyun and Tiffany.


After answering some questions and taking some pictures... we immediately went to the back stage and there we met the Exo guys.
I saw Suho and he looks stunning as always...I really miss him, I really do..

I can see Taeyeon and Baekhyun looking at each other... they were like shy in showing their affection infront of us and I think the others
noticed it.

"Aishhh~ Just hug each other already"-Hyoyeon

Hyoyeon shouted which made all of us chukkle. Taeyeon blushed at what Hyoyeon said and Baekhyun chukkled seeing Taeyeon blush. Since Taeyeon is too shy to initiate the hug, Baekhyun hugged her first and Taeyeon hugged him back which made us all cheer. They immediately broke their hug when staffs pass by.

After a couple of minutes... the concert started... as usual we were the last one to perform. The Exo guys performed somewhere in the middle, they didn't get to finish the whole concert since they need to attend to something..

They even went to see us before the go... I even saw some BaekTae moments^^
Chanyeol approuched me while the others were talking...

"Noona Fighting!"-Chanyeol

he said with a smile

"neh Fighting!"-Jessica

I told him with a smile

"Noona... now that BaekTae is real, what about Susica?"-Chanyeol

Chanyeol whispered and smiled. I chukkled

"I don't think so Chanyeol..."-Jessica

I told him and smiled

"Noona... it's not too late"-Chanyeol

Chanyeol said but I stopped him and just smiled at him. After a moment they finally went away...

Moments later, we finally performed on the stage... we can see pink light sticks infront of us.
After that performing our last song, I got a boy...
we stayed behind for the final song.... the SHINee boys are with us during the ending...

I even get to bond with Hara during the last part. Sunny and Hyoyeon were the crazy ones during the ending, Sunny even got me jumping
while waving at the fans :)

After a moment, the song has finally ended, we waved one more time to the SONE's out there and we went away.
After that, we immediately went back to our dorms..

Yes.. we were all damn tired especially Tae eonnie since she sin;t feeling since this morning.
We girls immediately went to our rooms. Sooyoung went to the bathroom first and I decided to surf the internet
while waiting for Sooyoung..

I tried to search for some male celebrity who is getting linked with me..well, that's what I usually do whenever I'm bored or something...
of course no. 1 is Haesica

I don't know why but Haesica is an old topic... me and Donghae oppa are only friends now. Yes, I admit that once in my
life, a guy named Lee Donghae dated me but we never have been official. We decided to just be friends from now on...

no. 2 is Jongsica... seriously? Jonghyun is just a close friend... a really close friend
he is like my brother or something...nothing more, nothing less...

no. 3 is Jaesica... Jaebum oppa... ok, he is one of my admirers until now... but I don't like him..

no. 4 is Heesica.. Heechul oppa... well even thought Heechul oppa has publicly stated that his Ideal girls
is WG's Sohee... some fans ship us (sigh)... nevermind

no. 5 is Taecsica... I don't know why but everytime I see this my blood boils up... he is the reason why I am in my current situation right now.
He is the reason for why everything happened like this...

I scrolled down since I'm checking for something new but I can only see similar artists but at the last part... there were new entries...
Krissica.. seriously? Kris is just my dongsaeng... just because of those small interactions between us fans already ship us??
well... I don't blame tham (sigh)

the next one... I didn't expect, It's Susica... me and Suho. Fans started to ship this because of our interactions during the SM town world tour...
If only fans know what their idols love situation is and their shipps would help their idol.... (sigh)

I turned my laptop off and threw myself on my bed closed my eyes and tried to rest... after a moment, Sooyoung came out and it
was my turn. I went inisde the bathroom, took a shower and after that I immediatley went to bed...

"Good night eonnie"-Sooyoung

Sooyoung said

"night.."-Jessica

I responded.... I checked the clock and it was already 11 p.m. and so I closed my eyes and tried to sleep...

I've been turning around my bed for I the nth time already and I still can't sleep... I opened my eyes and checked the clock
and it was already 2: 35 in the morning... I sighed

"Sooyoung..."-Jessica

I tried to call for Sooyoung but her only respond was her snor...
I stood up from my bed for I have decided to have a stroll at the park just beside our dorm...
I wore my jeans and just put on a jacket. As I walk at the living room... I noticed that the TV was on and so I turned it off...
After that, I got my boots at our shoe rack and wear it... I silently approuched the door and twisted the knob but I was shock to find it unlock...
Aishhh~ who forgot to lock this? what if a burgler entered our dorm? or worst.... a rappist?!? AIshhh~ chincha -_-

nevermind.... I'll just let this pass. I went outside, silently locked the door and went away.
As I approuch the park... I can already smell the scent of trees and popcorn, you know the scent when your in a carnival?
that's the scent here in the park but it is more peaceful than the carnival.

While walking... I can see many couples around, holding hands, eating together.. I wonder when would be the time where me and my special
guy would do that.. maybe it ownt happen.

I sat down on the bench near the fountain... there was couple approuching the fountain.. they threw a coin on the fountain and they held each others arms and they seemed to wish something... maybe you guys don't believe in those, throwing coins on well, fountains or anything but me... I actually believe in them, theres nothing wrong in believing right? but if one day you'll know that it's not true that's where it hurts...

I was imagining me and Suho... walking around this park, no paparazzis, our hands entangled with each other and wishing at that fountain...
I stood up and approuched the fountain and looked at my reflection at the water, I look so gloomy... I tried to smile but still you can see in my eyes
that I'm sad. Tears were again building up on my eyes and it dropped on the fountain. I wiped the remaining tears and sat back down on the bench...

(Maybe even if I drop a coin on that fountain and wish that everything would be back to normal it wouldn't happen since it is done and
I have no choice but to accept it and just live with it)-I said inside my mind

I was looking down... I didn't even notice someone was standing infront of me, he/she was kinda giving me something. I looked up and saw a mint chocolate ice cream on a cup and when I looked at the person it was Tae eonnie. I was shock at first since it was hard to believe that Tae eonnie is now actually recognizing me... it's not that she doesn't recognize me or something...

"Eonnie... why are you here?"-Jessica

I asked her as she give me the mint chocolate ice cream which I gladly accepted. As I shoved a spoon of the ice cream on my mouth, it was so relaxing. it seems like all my problems are gone...

"Do you usually go out during this time eonnie?"-Jessica

I asked her

"Aniyo... me and Baekhyun just had a date awhile ago"-Taeyeon

Tae said with a smile plastered on her face

"Chincha? where is he now?"-Jessica

I asked her in excitement..I don't know why but I feel happy

"he already went home... look at this, it's our first ever official selca"-Taeyeon

Tae said showing me her phones wallpaper. They were both eating cotton candy and using it as their mustache

"Omo~ kyeopta!"-Jessica

I squeeled

"I was about to go home too when I decided to eat some Ice cream first then suddenly I noticed this girl strolling around the park
alone looking sad. She didn't even asked permission in going out"-Taeyeon

she told me and I bit my lower lip

"well... it's your fault too since you left the TV open and the door unlocked, what if there's a burgler enetered ey?"-Jessica

I told her and she bit her lowere lip. We argued and argued whos fault it is and we ended up laughing. Luckily no one was around because if they heard Taeyeons ahjumma laugh maybe they could've recognized us...

the next thing went unexpectedly...

"Sica mianahaeyo"-Taeyon

Taeyeon looking directly unto my eyes

"why are you apologizing Tae? it's not your fault"-Jessica

I told her

"No... it's my fault, I didn't mean to spank you or something. I was just so confused before"-Taeyeon

she said and this time tears were falling down from her eyes. I immediately hugged her...

"shhh... Tae it's not you fault. I'm the one whos suppose to be apologizing. Eonnie I'm sorry..."-Jessica

I told her

"Don't apologize sica... I know I have caused you so much pain that is why I'm asking for forgiveness."-Taeyeon

Tae said which made me teary

"Sica please forgive me?"-Taeyeon

Taeyeon said

"Eonnie... you don't  need to ask for forgiveness because I never blames you"-Jessica

I told her and smiled. She smiled back and hugged me. We stayed there for a moment... breathing in the fesh morning air trying to
forget our problems...

"Sica...will you do me a favor?"-Taeyeon

Taeyeon asked

"Of course eonnie, anything"-Jessica

I responded

"Please talk to Suho and explain everything to him"-Taeyeon

Taeyeon said which shocked me

"Now I know, Suho and you are made for each other and I am sorry for breaking you 2 apart.."-Taeyeon

Taeyeon continue

"sica.... please"-Taeyeon

Tae said

"I-I'm sorry eonnie... I can't"-Jessica

I said tears breaming up on my eyes

"but why? didn't you 2 love each other?"-Taeyeon

Tae said

"Yes I love him so much but he doesn't love me any longer eonnie... he has let go of me"-Jessica

I told her tears uncontrollably falling down from my face

"sica... if he told you that he has let go of you, it only means one thing. He loves you so much because he doesn't want you
to be hurt because of him"-Taeyeon

Tae said

" No eonnie... time has given me so much chances telling him that I love him but I took it for granted... I'm sorry eonnie
I can't.... I can't even approuch him anymore, I can't even see him smile anymore when I'm around"-Jessica

I said

" I love him eonnie but I don't have my full strength in telling him that because I'm scared, I'm scared that he would
leave me, I'm scared if he wont accept it, I'm scared to accept the truth"-Jessica

I said clenching my fist. Tae eonnie hugged me and try to calm me down...

"I can't eonnie, I can't..."-Jessica

I continously tell her while she comforts me.... After a moment, we finally went back to our dorm. The girls were awake since they found out that we were gone. They bombarded us questions but Tae told them to just go back to sleep and she'll explain tomorrow...

the girls were looking at me worriedly since I look so pale and my eyes were red since I'm crying like forever...
I layed down my bed, feeling drained up and finally I have fallen asleep.... dreaming about Suho....

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Omo~ long time no update, mianhaeyo~ (^_^)V
anyways have you seen EXO's comeback pictures???
Aren't they amazing!!?? even thought the hair kinda gives me the creeps... xD

hahaha... I hope you like the update^^
make sure to comment down^^

Love lots everyone~!!! XOXO, get it? XOXO hihi^^


ANSWE: YES~!!! You have finally given us EXOtics your comeback photos xD




(*CREDITS TO THE OWNERS)
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