“So… why didn’t you tell me earlier?” my friend asked.

After school, we had decided to hang out together and maybe shop at the mall.

I played with my fingers, picking my words carefully. “I guess… I didn’t want to make you sad.”

“I-I see… how long…?”

“Hmm… about 5 more months from now.” I didn’t have to ask to know what she was talking about.

“Oh… so, the reason you’ve been coughing so much, and why you were exempted from gym…”

“Yup… oh! Look at that dress! It’ll look perfect on you!” I dragged my friend over to a shop, where there was a display of a beautiful baby pink dress.

“Omo! Let’s go in!” my friend ran into the shop happily.

It worked, the distraction had worked. She wouldn’t have to keep worrying anymore, she wouldn’t keep thinking about me… I hope…

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2 July, 8.47pm

Dear Diary,

Today, my best friend found out about my sickness. It was an accident, and she was totally shocked, but I guess… it’s okay now.

We cried together, and you know what? Because of that, I actually feel better. Like I’ve become lighter.

Oh, and I think I’m starting to lose hair already. Well, not that I’m bald, but it feels that way. I’m scared, so scared. But I know my mother and my friend will support me no matter what, and that thought comforts me.

Oh, and maybe Soohyun oppa too. But I won’t let him know about me having cancer. I mean… if I tell him… what if he avoids me? Or dislikes me? I don’t want that to happen…

Love,

Me 

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Author's Note

I read all of your comments, and well... was the last update that sad? TTuTT

anyway, short update this time! Sorry~ :(

More Soohyun will appear though, so don't worry ;) 

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