I’m driving home from Tasha unnie’s house, and I’m so tired. I’m also so…confused. The more I think about what she said, the more I confuse myself and want to just crawl under the covers of my bed and hide and forget everything until the morning. I just need to practice and win to give TOP a little nudge in the right direction. Until then, here I am, driving down the streets of Seoul, distracting myself from the real task at hand. Whether or not I can win TOP’s heart will have to be secondary to my goal no matter what. I know I can beat this CL girl, because she is a rookie, and I have years of experience on her. I pull up to my apartment building and head for my home. I go inside and let my head hit the pillow. After all, I have to go work out the next morning.