In my lifetime, all I did is to cry. What can I do? I was sad afterall. I couldn't stop myself from crying. I couldn't even hold it. have no control of my emotion. Itis embarrassing especially for a good looking boy like me. They thought I was a GAY. I've been noticing that people think a boy like me who cries vicibly in the public's eye is a GAY. Such people are JUDGEMENTAL. They don't know ANYTHING. How can I be a GAY? How can they tell? Can they tell I'm a gay just because I'm crying? They can't just judge me easily! You can't judge a person based in their phisical appearance or in what they're doing. It's not just girls who cry. Boys cry TOO. All people cry. Geez, crying is my way of relieveing stress and getting rid of that pain. So what? What do they care? If they see me crying, why not comfort me? They just stare and make whispers. All I could think is I'm GAY in their eyes. When I think of it, I even cry more... WHAT AM I SAD FOR?

MY PAST... NO, it's not really my past. It's still here with me.

One morning, I woke up. I can't hear anyhting. I remembered that I glanced at the clock before getting up. 4:05 AM. I was so thirsty so I went to the kitchen where the fridge is. It's dark but I can see my way. I didn't turn on the lights because I don't want to wake up someone.

I heard a voice. I recognized the voice. It's my MOM. Good that she didn't notice me. Looks like she's doing something so... I hid somewhere.

["HAHAHAHAHA! I'm so CRUEL. Like I am! It's not so ME! I... I killed HIM! HAHAHAHA! Did I? Hey, are you really dead? *pokes the body* Oh my gosh, he's not moving. I REALLY KILLED HIM! I killed him with my own hands! Blood has stained to me. ALL OVER me, my clothes and my face. I did it all! I killed my HUSBAND! I killed the man I love. The man who dedicated his life to me but not his HEART. The man who took away my happiness by taking away my love ones. One by one they disappear until I was left alone to this man. He's so protective to me, is he? Why did he marry me? What did he saw to made him marry me? MONEY! Money is ALL he wanted, NOT ME! How SAD would that be!? HAHAHAHAHAHA! WHAT A BLIND! He DIDN'T EVEN see my feelings when I told him I love him. He only gave me a cold shoulder and walked away. That was a sharp, painful slap in my heart. See? He didn't really WANT me. He's only after my wealth. What a pig! He don't deserve me or my love. He don't deserve my everything. He only deserved to DIE! He don't belong in here. He belong to HELL along with SATAN! AHAHAHAHAHA!!!"]

["I... I know, I know. *cough*cough*spits blood* I'm sorry that... I made you f-feel that way. I-I'm sorry that I didn't behave like a good husband to you. *cough*cough* I'm sorry that I didn't love you the way you want to be loved. *spits blood* Before I die, I want to tell you the truth. I want you to listen to me. I won't lie the moment I am in my deathpath. The truth is... I love you a lot.  Even as your husband, I lack self-confidence telling you what I really feel. I was so shy to tell you I love you. I feel so sorry to myself. You gave me everything but all I can offer is my life and I never thank you for all of that. I can't believe you married a man like me. *cough*cough*cough* T-Thank you and I'm so s-sorry. I made you very unhappy all through our marriage. I'm happy to see the face of the woman I loved for the last time. I-I love you. This is goodbye..."]

SCENE: Wife hugging the husband's bloody after coming back to her senses. She's not laughing anymore after that revelation. She's crying terribly...

["N-No... No! No! No! Don't go! D-Don't leave! I AM SORRY! I didn't mean it! I should have talk to you about that matter calmly. I know nothing about your feelings. I'm an IDIOT! I lose myself because I'm so madly in LOVE with you. I didn't know that too much love would have cause this. *cries*sob* I didn't save our relationship from falling apart and destruction. I'm no good. I-I just didn't know what to do so I thought of this plan. It's my fault. I shouldn't have killed you. How evil am I? How could I do this to my own husband? Now, it's TOO late. I had destroyed my one and only happiness! W-What have I done? I commited a crime! M-MURDER! This makes me a MURDERER! I'm a murderer! Y-Yes, it is... *sob*sob*"]

I dropped the glass I was holding because of shock. Good thing it was just made of plastic. It made a sound enough to turn my mom's head towards my direction. Ah, she saw me!

["Uhmah, y-you killed ahpah? Why?"]

["You're a child so you wouldn't understand. It'd be btter if you call the police. I'm a killer. That'll be the best choice."]

["I can't! You can't be a MURDERER! You ARE my UHMAH! I know you're good. Whatever happens, you can't leave my side. It's hard to grow without a mother. It's painful! I feel alone all along! So... I can't call the police. They'll arrest you. They will take you away from me. How can you do that to me, Uhmah?"]

["LOOK, YOU DID SEE THAT! You had EYES of your own! I KILLED YOUR AHPAH! Believe THAT! This isn't a dream. I'm not LYING! You have to believe me because Uhmah is telling the truth, ok? Please, I'm telling you. Understand me and respect me. Don't look at me like that. Just grant my only wish: call the police for me. Just call them, please. After you call them, just leave. I'll be ok. I assure you that they won't arrest or hurt me. Trust me. I won't be gone in your life because, I LOVE YOU."]

I needed no more words from Uhmah for me to disobey. I simply understood. I knew what i had to do. I had to obey. I had to make her happy because I know all she wants is happiness and love. I love her so I want her to be happy. I don't even care about my own happiness. My Uhmah is more important than my own happiness. 

I went to the window as I hear the sirens outside. I finally called the police here; flash of red and blue and people wearing those uniforms. I was going to tell Uhmah that the police were here but I WAS EXTREMELY SHOCKED when I saw her DEAD...

(=0.0=)

"Hey, Eli-kun. Eli-kun? Eli-kun...?"

"Why? Ah, I'm sorry. What is it, Saku-chan?"

"Never mind. You're not listening anyway. That's sad."

"Do you know what SADNESS is?"

"Forget it. You didn't hear me too anyway."

"What IS that?"

Eli picx: XDD

I don't own this photos... so that's end. See you again next time~~ Fighting, U-kiss!! :">