The rumours about me started going around. It wasn’t as bad as when I was in high school though, I had people around me who are willing to protect me.

I was grateful, but also scared. I did my best concealing my pheromones and being nice to everyone. I did my best so that no one would think of me as a bad person.

Though as much as I try I soon realized that, no matter how good I am, if I was something that was out of the norm people will judge. And judge they did.

Thankfully no one notices the bump in my stomach since I’ve been wearing Siwon and kyu’s as well as the Hyung’s clothes. They were big enough to cover up my baby bump. Though I’m sure that if someone touches my tummy they’ll find out.

I noticed that Donghae has been doing his part as well from afar. He wont come near me, but he regularly sends me food and living expenses. He also sent some vitamins, medications and supplements.

I guess he felt guilty? Either that or he’s still only looking out for the baby. Not that I care. I’ve been through enough pain with him to know that I shouldn’t expect much from him.

Still, if this was genuinely him caring for me, I might just feel something.

What am I doing really.. *sigh*

It’s been like.. around 3 month since I last spoken to him. Even if forgiving him takes a lot, if he’s willing to hold me in those arms for the rest of his life I might just consider it..

As I thought, I wasn’t over him, not at all. Not even a little. I was still crazily yearning for him even though everyone told me to forget him.

I cant. My heart doesn’t want to.

*sigh* whatever, I shouldn’t be stressing about things right now

I looked over to the lump on my belly and caressed it.

“Mommy is waiting for the day until we finally meet my sweet child, until then, please stay comfy there” i whispered.

CLICK

I turned around in shock.

That sounded like a camera shutter. Is someone taking a picture of me? Could it be the stalker that was following me?!

I took a moment before calming down and checking my surroundings.

This was a crowded park, if someone was acting suspicious then there would be witnesses.. but no one seemed to be worried so there was probably nothing. Is what I thought.. until I heard noises from the bushes behind the bench I was sitting on.

“Who goes there?!” I jumped up from the bench and waited for the person to show themselves.

I took a deep breath and gathered the courage to approach it, but before I could reach the bush some more ruffles came out from it.

I froze for a moment thinking a huge scary man with sunglasses and a little spy camera thing would be popping out but instead..

Meow

It was only a little cat.

“Geez, you almost gave me a heart attack you little furball” I said, petting the cat.

I was relieved knowing that it was only a cat, whatever clicking noise I heard was probably just my paranoid imagination. But that didn’t convince me enough to stay longer there, so I just took my bag and went back to campus to hand in my assignments.

As I walked to campus my phone buzzed.

I grabbed it from the pocket of my jeans and to my surprise, those buzzing noises was caused by a call. A call that made my mind froze and my hands trembled.

I gathered the courage to answer the call, but before I could even do that a voice called out my name.

“Lee Hyukjae!”

I turned around to where the voice was coming from and forced a fake smile on my face.

“Hi, dad. How are you?”

“Good, good, how are you? Have you been eating well? You look a little pale son!” he said with worries written all over his face.

He tried to give me a hug and out of panic I just rejected him a little harsh by slapping his hands.

“Hyukjae? What’s wrong?”

I was surprised by my own actions, and quickly thought of an excus