Sometime around 2018

 

Minatozaki Sana has the most beautiful sleeping face ever.

 

Her eyelids closed against the dim light from the window.

 

Her long lashes that makes her eyes attractive even though it is closed.

 

Her pointed nose.

 

And her parted lips.

 

She is such a beauty no matter what she does.

 

No matter where she is.

 

She is a beauty that Hirai Momo would always admire.

 

Would always cherish.

 

Hirai Momo smiles. She gently tucks the loose hair strand of Sana back to her ears.

 

She’s been awake for almost an hour and she has not done anything than looking at the sleeping Sana.

 

Than watching Sana’s face peacefully sleeping.

 

A part of her cannot believe any of it.

 

A part of her wishes that it is not a dream, that everything is real.

 

That finally Sana is back in her life.

 

That she is back in Sana’s life.

 

Maybe that is why she puts an extra effort in waking up early every day that Sana is sleeping over just to make sure that it is real.

 

That she is not going crazy.

 

That Sana is not going away.

 

Momo smiles.

 

Like every other day when Sana sleeps over, she did not go away.

 

She stayed.

 

The feelings that Momo has for Sana is undeniable.

 

She loves her before and even more now.

 

Though, they have been almost inseparable again.

 

Momo still has a lot of worries.

 

She worries about her fragile heart.

 

Cause –

 

Even though Sana and she are going back to how they used to be.

 

There isn’t any confirmation of what they are now.

 

There isn’t any exclusivity between the two of them.

 

Baby steps?

 

Momo sighs.

 

She knows to herself that she will never hurt Sana ever.

 

She knows for a fact that she will never repeat that same mistake ever.

 

But –

 

Sana isn’t willing to take another step.

 

She isn’t willing enough to enter that wide-open door for them to officially be back together.

 

“What’s wrong?”

 

The husky sleepy voice of Sana invades Momo’s thoughts.

 

Momo smiles in an instance.

 

“Nothing,”

 

She caresses Sana’s face before pecking her lips.

 

Sana kisses back then smile right away.

 

“What time is it?” She groggily asks.

 

“Around 6 in the morning,”

 

Sana smiles and pecks Momo’s lips before forcing herself to get up.

 

Momo whines. She pulls Sana back to the bed.

 

“What?” Sana asks playfully annoyed.

 

“Stay longer,” Momo whines again.

 

“You know I need to go back home and then get ready to go to work,” Sana banters.

 

“But..” Momo pouts.

 

Sana smiles.

 

She cups Momo’s cheeks and kisses her pout away.

 

Momo tries making more advance kissing.

 

Sana responds but soon after she pulls away.

 

“I’ll be late,”

 

Sana pecks one last time.

 

Then she stands up from the bed.

 

She goes straight to the bathroom to tidy herself up.

 

Momo wants to ask.

 

She wants to ask something.

 

She wants to say something.

 

But she is so afraid to do so.

 

What if.

 

What if with that question what they have built recently will crumble back.

 

She does not know what to do.

 

She does not know what to say.

 

Everything that they currently have is nicer than when they are apart.

 

She wants to break all of Sana’s wall.

 

But she does not want to force herself and destroy everything that they have.

 

That they were trying to build after the catastrophe that they have created.

 

Sana came out of the washroom.

 

She sat on the bed where the unmoving Momo stayed.

 

“You sure, there isn’t anything wrong? Do you want to talk about it?”

 

Of course, Sana would notice the worry in Momo’s eyes.

 

Momo looks at her for a very long time.

 

Sana is just trying to probe more.

 

Momo holds her hand.

 

Sana smiles with that action.

 

“I… lo – “

 

“I’ll be late, Mo. I’ll see you later,” Sana cuts Momo off.

 

Then she kisses her lips and takes her to leave.

 

Momo just looks at Sana.

 

She hugs herself.

 

They were just like that but –

 

Sana may not be ready.

 

Sana may not be –

 

Momo’s doubts resurface again.

 

There isn’t anything wrong about Momo.

 

But –

 

There is something wrong about Sana.

 

Is it really that difficult?

 

 

 

 

 

Sana arrives in her shared house with Dahyun and Jihyo at exactly 6:55 AM.

 

She has a lot of time to get ready and prepare to go to work.

 

Her mind has been flying the whole trip.

 

She knows exactly what Momo is to say.

 

She knows exactly how Momo feels about this.

 

But all Sana can do is sigh.

 

“That means, everything is not going well the way it should be,”

 

Dahyun gives her the cutest smile in the morning.

 

She is by the counter eating her breakfast.

 

“Well, I knew it, Momo and you are bad news,” Jihyo butts in.

 

She is by the corner doing some Yoga.

 

Sana shrugs with a fake laugh.

 

“You realize that it is a waste of time and money sleeping over there and going back home every morning, right?”

 

Jihyo’s condescending tone resurfaces.

 

Sana keeps mum and sigh.

 

“I don’t mean to pry Sana, but what’s bothering you? Shouldn’t you be happy or something like that?”

 

Dahyun follows up.

 

“I’m happy. I mean I am happy having her in my life, hanging out with her and just being around her, I am really happy,” Sana smiles to them.

 

“Then why are you sighing?” Jihyo provokes.

 

Dahyun looks at her intently too. She is waiting for Sana to answer them directly.

 

“It’s nothing really,” Sana fakely smile.

 

“Are you thinking about Sunmi?” Jihyo isn’t giving Sana a break.

 

“No – “ Sana immediately answers.

 

“Then why do your words aren’t reflecting your actions, you said you’re happy, but you look so wary about things,” She is just too blunt.

 

Dahyun looks at Sana awkwardly.

 

She fakes a giggle.

 

“What Jihyo meant is that, you look like you have some doubts?” She reluctantly adds.

 

Sana takes a long deep breath.

 

“She definitely has some doubts,” Jihyo states the obvious.

 

There is a moment of silence.

 

“I know what I feel about Momo,” Sana smiles.

 

She says it as assuring as possible

 

Dahyun scratches the back of her head.

 

“Whatever you say Sattang, we believe you, but when you are ready to talk about it, we’ll listen, your love story is like a TV show, I can’t wait what is next,” Dahyun jokes.

 

Sana smiles at her.

 

She looks at Jihyo.

 

Jihyo just looks at her with a straight face.

 

They know everything.

 

They have an idea of why Sana feels like that.

Why Sana has doubts but they cannot just pinpoint it to Sana. Not when the girl is not ready to face her demons.

 

Jihyo ignores her and continues with her Yoga.

 

Sana smiles then she went to her room.

 

She shuts the door.

 

And leans her head to it.

 

“… doubts, huh?”

 

She lowers her shoulder.

 

Her mind flew back to earlier this morning.

 

The look in Momo’s eyes.

 

The words she was to utter.

 

Sana looks at the ground.

 

What are her doubts?

 

 

 

There is a long queue outside the studio where Momo teaches dance.

 

After the competition. Momo has become a celebrity.

 

There were calls for variety of invites. People had become very interested in her.

 

And as always, Momo is oblivious about her growing popularity.

 

She just thought that everything is normal.

 

That everything was the same.

 

“You have another fully booked class today, and there are a lot of people requesting for you to personally train them,” Jeongyeon, Momo’s coworker interrupts her spacing out.

 

They are all used to it.

 

Momo spacing out.

 

Momo works in a gym as a dance and professional trainer.

 

She had been working here since she had decided to put her life together and Jeongyeon is one of her closest friends.

 

“Yosh, I need to work double time then,” Momo encourages herself.

 

But after a few seconds, she loses her demeanor.

 

“What happened? You’re back with that girl you have been wanting to get back with, right?” Jeongyeon asks while shaking a protein shake.

 

“… well... we hang out and you know, but I .. we... it’s complicated, I guess,” Momo awkwardly answers.

 

“Tsk, I knew it,” Jeongyeon shakes her head.

 

“What do you know?” Momo asks in all interests.

 

“I just knew it, okay?” Jeongyeon insists.

 

Momo rolls her eyes.

 

She then lowers her shoulders.

 

“It’s weird you know, I mean we hang out and have fun, but when I try to be serious, when I try to talk about that stuff it is as if she does not want to talk about it,” Momo talks to Jeongyeon about her frustrations.

 

Jeongyeon laughs.

 

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