Joshua's

I've never encountered someone like him.

Is it even a bad thing that I save him?
Is it even a bad thing that he's still breathing?

He's now walking away from this bridge..

Leaving me like nothing happened.

I kinda upset though. How could he just walk away just like that?

He even called me fool.

No one ever called me that before not even my parents.

But he did. Just because I ask him why  did he do that.

His already nowhere in sight.

I shook my head.

How could someone thought of killing his own? Don't they know it's a sin?

But then Who am I to question him.

I didn't even get to know his reason.

I stood up starting to walk away from the bridge.

But what if he do that again?

What if--because I failed him today.. He'll do it again in another place?

Aish. Why am I even stressing myself because of that guy?

Huh. It's even weirding me out to even call him a 'GUY' when exactly.. He look like a girl.

He look like an angel.
His skin that look like a milk that is pampered with pinkish patch.

Not mentioning his Strawberry scent.

Ugh! What am I even thinking?

I want to brush him out of my mind but it won't budge.

Ok. Now Im strolling around this street where there's a lot of people passing by.

But what I notice is..

They always tilt thier head and look back at someone before proceeding on thier walk.

"Gosh.. I wish Im pretty as her."

"Me too~~"

I heared the passersby..

Then somehow my vision brought me to that person they're looking at.

Oh.. Won't you take a look at that.

He's there standing beside the traffick light pole and waiting for light signal on the pedestrian lain.

But wait?

People are already crossing..

Why is he still standing there?

Is he just going to watch the crosswalkers? Huh. He's mad.

Seconds left before the go signal for the cars would light up so I walk towards the pedestrian.

But then when people stop crossing preparing to wait for the next stop light.. There he was.. Stepping his feet in a road with a bunch of high speed rushing cars.

. He's really out of his mind.

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Normal Pov



 

Jeonghan didn't even spare a look at Joshua before walking away.

All he could think of is he need to stop this thing--his heart from throbbing beacause he can't help it.

So he think of another thing again.
 

That's when he see cars, vans, motorcycles, buses and trucks are passing by with speed you can't run off because they are trying not to gey delayed. Not when they're avoiding being caught by the stop light.

He stood up beside a certain pole where people also are crossing paths on the lined area of the road.



 

Then it hit him.

This is it.

With this transportation high speed running.. One of them will hit me and bam!

This time no Joshua Hong to stop me.

He saw people rushing towards the pedestrian to catch the remaining seconds left for the crosswalkers.

And the green light signaled.

There the racing of cars began as his step also made it's way to it's purpose.

People's eyes widened.

Some even shout to stop him.
 

But there he was.. Two steps away from his sure death.

 

A little more..

 

A Van is approaching fastly.

Light from it getting brighter.

Smile on his lips formed.







 

Nearer..

Nearer..







 

"YOON JEONGHAN!!!!"



























 

He --again-- felt someone pulled him by the hand.. Which bring his step backwards and fell on his feet because of the pulls impact.

Gasps are heared around.





 

"tard!!!"
 

The driver shouted out on it's window before roding off.

"SERIOUSLY?! HERE?! ARE YOU REALLY OUT OF YOUR MIND?!"

Joshua shouted at him..

But he just stand there.

People are also having thier whispers on the air.

Started to look at the two of them.

That's when Joshua realized he is in public.

Thankful for the hat he's wearing.

He also pulled his mask on his nose to cover his mouth..







 

Out of the blue..

He held Jeonghan's cold hand and walk away from the crowd.

Then he stopped when he thinks the distance was enough to separate both of them from the people who saw what happened.

"You know what? You really want to die? I know somewhere. That's a perfect place."

He don't know why he said that but it just came out from his mind.

Jeonghan stared at him.

Joshua got startled by the laugh Jeonghan made.

"You're mad."

(mad means crazy)

He mumbled.

"Look who's talking. Earlier I want to die immediately.. But you always stop me. You stop me twice!! And now.. You're going to offer me a place to die perfectly? You're mad as well.."

Jeonghan said.

They've been mute.

Silence came between them.

Then tears slowly stream down on Jeonghan's cheeks.

Joshua's heart skipped a moment.

He look at Jeonghan's face..

Jeonghan looking down while crying silently.

"Why c-can't you just let me.. Let me die.. Why?"

Jeonghan said between sobs.
The other don't know what to say.. He couldn't grasp the word to reply.

He is not good at this. Comforting people.

"You.. You don't know what it feels like.. You don't feel what I feel. But you.. You won't let me.. "

He said sobbing continuesly.

"Why can't you just.. Just stay back and go and do whatever you want to do in your life! Just let me do mine.. Just.. Let me.. Let me please die.."

He said voice cracking. Blurting out what he want to say..

Joshua. Held him.

At a time like this.. The best thing he can do is to give something this person might need.

He embrace him.

He felt heavy because of what he is seeing in front of him right now.

"Sshh.. Cry.. Let it all out."

He whispered.. and as if on cue..

Jeonghan's tears flooded his eyes more.

He don't know but something inside him tells him to let it all out just like what Joshua said.

He felt hands caressing his back and hushing him.

And that's what made him cry even harder. He haven't felt this kind of thing for a long time.

He sure need it now.

He need someone to listen..

He need someone to hush him when he cries. He need to have someone to lean on.

He need not to be alone.

Tears somehow stopped and he already calmed himself.

But still Joshua is hugging him.

So he pulled his body away from the Singer who is now in front of him.

He don't know what to say.

"Better?"

Joshua asked.

He then bit his lip unconsciously.
To be honest, He felt better but still not that full.

"You know what? Killing yourself is not the answer on your problem.. "

Joshua said..

"Don't talk like you knew what I've been going through. You might do the same if you are in my position."

Jeonghan replied.

Joshua sighed. He's right. He doesn't know anything about what he's been going through so he should be careful on things that he's saying.

"Jeonghan--

"You know me?"
 

The pretty guy asked.

Joshua. Dumbfounded. How can he casually say that he follows him on IG, that he's always updated on his new photos on magazines and brochures. How can he say that he knows where he lived because it is written on his profile account.

How can he say that he's been following ANJEL's for a while now on it's page and IG..  Even on it's official accounts just to get updated of one of thier models who is now standing in front of him.

"Uhm.. Mr. Hong. Im asking you. How did you know my name?"

His soul was pulled back to reality when Jeonghan snapped him back.

"I.. Uh.. Y-you're a model right? I just happened to see you on those magazines."

He said. Jeonghan let out an 'oh'
as an answer.

After that awkwardness crept in.

"So.. Uh.. You know what? I know a place that will- well hopefully you'll like it coz it will give you lighter feeling if you see it though.."

Joshua spoke.. He meant it.

Jeonghan looked at him.

"I thought you'll bring me to that place you mentioned earlier?"

He asked.

"Well.. That's also a sure deadly place too.."



 

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He brought Jeonghan to that place he mentioned earlier.

Jeonghan don't know where Joshua's car stopped but he follows him anyway.

"Here.."

Joshua offered his hand to assist Jeonghan who is getting out of his car beside the driver's seat.

Jeonghan finds it adorable.

What a gentleman.

He thought.

Joshua closed the door without letting go of Jeonghan's hand.

He held the slow walking angel behind him.

"It's getting late. We should get up there before they closed this place."

He said.

They stepped inside the elevator..

Without noticing thier hands are still holding each other..

"Uhm.. Mr. Hong.."

"Mmmh.. Why? And please call me Joshua or Jisoo."

"J-jisoo.. M-my hands.."

"Oh.. Sorry."

He then let go of Jeonghan's soft hands.

"I'ts ok.."

Afterwards they heared a sound from the elevetor.

"Yes. We're here. Come on. "
 

Jeonghan wearily look around him.

It was surrounded by glass wide window.

The moment he step close to the wide glass in front of him where Joshua was already standing... He held his breath.

"Wow.."

He whispered.

Joshua was able to hear it because he is near him.

"See? I knew you'll like it.."

Jeonghan didn't answered.

He was too busy appreciating the beauty of view in front od him.

Lights are everywhere and the mountains beyond are also visible..

And it somehow amazed him. Jeonghan.

"You must break the glass before you jump there and get yourself killed.. "

Joshua said grinning.

"Sarcastic fool."

Jeonghan said still looking outside.

Joshua let out a chuckle that made Jeonghan smiled.

Moments passed and They started a conversation. Mentioning thier likes and dislikes. Talking about jobs.

Even complementing each other's looks.

"Remember when we first met?"

Joshua asked.

"Huh? But I just met you today. I only see you on Tv and hear your voice in radio and celphones though."

"So you already forgot? Well I don't blame you. It's been a long time though. Few months already--
 

"Wait. I think I remember you. Are you that guy I escaped from after stealing that necktie from your hands? Is that it?"
 

Joshua laghed while nodding.

So he remembered..


 

Joshua didn't dare made a mistake on asking what is happening to him. Instead he fished out his phone and invite Jeonghan for a couple of selfies..

They are already drown in thier conversation when a staff approached them and told them that they are already closing the place.

"It's closing time already Sir and Miss. You can visit here tomorrow again.."

Joshua giggled.

Miss.. I feel him.
 

"What time is it already?"

Joshua asked.

"It's already 10:30 pm sir."

The two look at each other.. Surprised . They didn't notice the time and how long they are talking to each other.

"Guess we need to go home."

Joshua said chuckling then he remembered something.

"Hey.. You wanna.. Uhm.. Have some dinner before going home? I mean we hadn't eaten yet.. So if it's ok with you.. We can have dinner together."
 

Jeonghan looked at him surprised.

Well he's hungry already so why need to reject the invitation?

He nod to agree. So the moment they got out of the place Joshua drove to a 24 hour fastfood chain.

They went in for coffees and a meal for two.

They ate quietly though Joshua is being aware of people around because he don't want to be recognized. Jeonghan notice that so while munching the fries he have in hand he asked the latter.

"It must have been hard for you.. Hiding from everyone.."

Joshua gives him a startled look because of his random thoughts.

"Y-yeah.. That's why I need to wear caps and mask everytime I want to stroll around."

Jeonghan then stretched his hand and carefully adjust Joshua's cap pushing it down carefully to help him cover up.

"There you go.."
 

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"Give me your phone.. "

Joshua said.

They're now in front of Jeonghan's house while his leaning on his car.

Though confused Jeonghan gave his phone.

Joshua carefully took it and starting tapping on both of the phone he have in hands.

Afterwards hand the phone back to Jeonghan..

"Im going.. It's late already.."

He said. Jeonghan pouted. He knew it's because of him. Somehow he felt guilt crept in but was interrupted because of a pinch on his nose.

"Don't worry it's only 11 pm. I even sleep later than this.. Stop pouting."

"Take care.. Uhm.. Jisoo."

He called. So the other attentively hummed and listen.

"Im.. Im sorry.. Really. Thank you for being there. I know I was a burden some today and Im sorry for that."

Jeonghan said while looking at the ground.

Joshua stay silent.

Then he tap on his phone.

Jeonghan's phone vibrated so he fished it out and look at the caller ID.

         Jisoo<3.    Calling..

He then look at Joshua who is now grinning and hang up the call.

"Don't hesitate to call me ok? Just call me and I'll be there.. Get it?"
 

Jeonghan nod.

"So.. Goodbye For now. Take care of yourself  'Mr.Model' .. "

Jeonghan on the other hand waved goodbye and waited for Joshua's car to rode of.

When it's out of sight already..

He get inside his house.

Flop down on his couch.
 

For the first time for a long time.

He got home feeling light.

Thanks to Jisoo.




 

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Sorry for the wrong grammars though. Hope you like this.

I was jjinjja shook when I saw how many words this chap is...

-Dafny Noona