"Hyung.. Stop it already. You're drunk."

Minghao said as he slowly grabbed the bottle of beer from Jeonghan's grip.

Both Minghao and Jun was there to pick him from the bar where he is.

They sat beside him and the two look at each other..

Then at the bottle of beers already empty on Jeonghan's table.

Both sighed when they heard sobs.

Again..

"Hyung.. It's been 3 months you know.. You can't just smile like nothing's happening to you. You need to smile truely. That would only happened if you let go hyung.."

Jun nodded, a sign that he agree with the younger.

Rubbing Jeonghan's back and carresing his hair. That's what the two did. When the sobbing stopped they knew already.
It only means Jeonghan is already asleep.

So they brought him to thier car and to his house.

They carefully tuck him in the bed.

They hate it.

Seeing Jeonghan crying is like slapping thierselves for multiple times.

Jeonghan is one of the people they don't want to get hurt.

They both sighed problematic.

It has been three months already.

But both of them know that it's still fresh on thier hyung's mind.

"We should stay for the night. We can't just leave him like this."

The younger nodded.

"You know what? I really hate that Seungcheol guy. I may not know him that much but I really hate him for doing this to Jeonghan hyung."

Minghao said.

"I'ts not only you though.."

Jun replied as he plop down on the couch comfortably.

Minghao also did the same beside Jun. They turned the tv on.

After pushing buttons on the controler, they settled on one channel.

"So.. Joshua Hong. How about show us some talent? "

"Now? I mean.. Sure.."

And the man being interviewed place himself in the center as a staff hand him an acoustic guitar and he start strumming.

"I hope you guys will appreciate this.. Sing with me please."

He said giving the audience a flash of smile and cheered for him.

The two tv watchers listen and watch intently to the charming artist who's in the tv. Suddenly Jun give comment.

"He's a good singer.. And charming."

"Yeah he is.."

Minghao agreed.

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The sun broke away the clouds and light up the town. A sign of another morning.

Jeonghan on the other hand is sound asleep.

"Hyung.. "

Minghao called as he wake Jeonghan up. Not that long he succeed.

"Breakfast is ready hyung. You need to get up coz you still have to go to your work later."

Jeonghan who is half asleep smiled to the boy.

He's thankful to have these two china guys with him.

He feld a pang in his head and remembered last night.

He's gone drunk.. Again.

"You go first. I'll just clean myself."

"Ok. Better hurry. We're going home already."

That's when he felt sad again.

They are always there for him yet when he's already alone, he always felt left out.

Not mentioning that the're leaving next week flying back to china for some important things to take care of.

He sighed. Until decided to get up and do his morning routine.

After that, he headed downstairs.

"Morning."

He greeted. Jun smiled and offer him milk.

He's not allowed to drink coffee because of his acidity.

He then grab the food in front of him.

"So.. You two.. Are sure leaving next week right?"

He asked. Trying not to sound sad about the departure.

The two look at each other before nodding as a yes to thier hyung.

"You should always take care then."

He said smiling.

He smile like it's ok. Trying to look happy but he's not. Not when we know him too well..

Jun thought.

He then smiled at Jeonghan who is eating the sandwich he made.

"Hyung.. We need to go home already. We'll call you later."

Minghao said as he stood from his seat. There again, Jeonghan smiled chewing his food.

They give him a pat on his shoulder before going out as they said thier goodbyes.

As soon as the he heard the a car droving away, he stood up and put his plate on the sink.

He sighed.. Again.


 

He's alone.. Again..



 

Full of silence.. Again
 

"Cheol? What if one day.. You'll just wake up to find that you don't love me anymore?"

He asked his beloved while washing the plates they used.
He then felt two firm arms wrapped on his waist and felt Seungcheol's breath on his neck from behind.

A backhug.

 

"Don't ask me that question.. You know it won't happen right?"

The answer he got was enough to make him smile.

"I love you Cheol.."

"And I love you more Han.."








 

Tears.. Again.

He then felt a pang on his chest.

these tears..

 

After calming his lonely self he then heard his phone rang from the table.

*Saenggak cheoreom mami.. Mareur deutji anheun nikka.."*

(I want to forget but the heart has just a mind of it's own)

He cleared his throat before answering the Phone he just pick up.

Though he's feeling nervous at the suddend call, he answered it.

"Hello?"

 

"Hello? Is this Mr. Jeonghan Yoon?"
 

"Yes.. Why?"







 

"Hi I am a nurse here in ******* hospital--





 

"Hospital?? Why?"







 

"Y-Your Mom has been Confined earlier because of her ---



 

He didn't let the speaker finished and start to run to get a cab.















 

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"Why didn't you tell me?"

"Jeonghan-ah.. Don't worry---

"How could you tell me not to worry mom! Y-you have been suffering for a long time I don't know, guess It's my fault for not even knowing that my mom is already dying..."

"Jeonghan-ah.. Don't blame yourself.. Y-you deosn't have anything to do with this Lung Cancer after all.. Please don't.."

"Eomma.. Im sorry I didn't know."

"Take good care of yourself son.
Well.. Seungcheol is there for you. There's nothing I need to worry about right?"

And all he could answer was sobs.

She doesn't have to know about it.

Not when she is suffering.


 

"Hey.."

He felt a tap on his head so he open his eyes.

"Eomma.."

"You should go home and rest.. You've been here for a week and You're lack of sleep. Get rest for now."

The elder said.

Jeonghan has been taking care of her for a week and she can see how tired he is.

He'd show there after work and stay until morning watching over her then will go back again to his house just to Clean himself and head again to his work and it has been a cycle for a week now.

He look at his mom lying in the bed where he rest his head earlier.

The woman in front of him is getting pale and paler.

He smiled to her and nod.

"I'll be back here later afternoon okay?"

He kissed her forehead before giving her a warm hug.

"Always take care of yourself Han.. And please tell Seungcheol to be careful on his Out of town work."

Out of town work.
What a great liar I am.

He reasoned out why Seungcheol can't come and visit her.

"Bye. Take care. Always."

The woman said. He just again give a nod.

"I love you Jeonghan-ah.."

She said smiling.

He just smiled at her and replied..

"I love you more Eomma.."
 

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He remembered the findings the Doctor told him a week ago.

"I told her to take a chemotherapy but she refused.. That was a year ago. And base on the findings, She's not taking up her medication."

"I-is there any.. Any c-chance?"

He asked.. But deep inside him, he know already.

"Miracle is the only chance Mr. Yoon. Let's just pray for her."

He sighed. Tearing up.

"Thanks Doc. Im going already. Thank you for the time.."

"Uhm.. Mr.Yoon? I think I need to tell you this."

The Doctor said when he was about to open the door.

"What is it Doc?"

"A year ago, She went here for a check up. When we already found out the bad news I tried to convince her to undergo for a treatment.

It's already Stage 3 that time. Unsure if the treatment will be successful.. But she just smiled at me and said.

'Doc. Im fine. I don't want to suffer anymore.'

Well.. Im not implying anything but.. I just have a feeling that I need to tell you this."

Jeonghan nodded.

He bowed before he got out from the Doctor's office.

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