We had a date picked out and as it neared I got more and more anxious. It was killing me keeping it from everyone. Eventually I had to tell Namjoon. He would be understanding and would help me out. 

It was a few days before our date and we finally got time for me to talk to Joon alone. 

"Namjoon hyung?" I asked quietly

"What is it Jungkook?"

He was sitting at the counter pondering over his phone. I walked over and sat next to him. 
"I want your opinion on something." 

He put his phone down and looked at me completely serious. 

"Ok you have my full attention." He said.

I took a deep breath as I reached into my pocket. I pulled out the small box and opened it.

"Jungkook." He breathed slowly. 

I looked at him as he became confused and exited all at once. 
"When?" he asked

"In 2 days. What do you think?" 

He looked at me and told me exactly everything he thought without hesitating.

"I think it's great but there's risks. You can't actually do it. Bang would never allow it."

"I know but it's better than nothing right?" 

He nodded "It is. I say do it if you've thought about it enough and think it's what you want."

It was. I had thought about it a million times over and over and decided it was what I wanted. We hadn't been together that long but I was still beyond ready for something like this. 

"Good luck Kookie. This is a big deal." 

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