I grabbed his hand. I knew the small town around this beach too well and it would be nice for him and I to get sometime to explore it together. As we walked I asked questions for him to answer. Things that I asked myself quite often when I felt myself slipping away from reality. It happened more often than I liked to admit. But being an idol took a lot from you. Sometimes your imagination hid the reality of things.

They start out easy, name, hobbies, favorite things. But gradually they become deeper. Things more like what do you think of certain people? What would break you? What's the best thing in your life right now?

He had answers for everything. It made me begin to see how broken he actually was.

"What would without a doubt break you?" I asked him.

"Watching something horrible happen to my Hyungs and you. You guys are family to me now. I care about you guys like brothers. Because you have become brothers to me."

I smiled.

"What is the best thing in your life?"

"Being part of Bangtan. You guys have completely lightened up everything for me."

"What's the worst thing?"

"These damn nightmares. They keep me thinking that there is no such thing as light anymore. They make me think that everything around me is fake."

I thought hard before asking the next question.

"Hyung?" I asked carefully.

"Yeah?"

"What is it that you're afraid of?"

He looked at me for a minute a