I need a break. A really not stressful week or day even.

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What have I done? I think I ruined a nice relationship. I disgraced myself. What was I thinking?

Have you ever seen Jungkook cry? Sad eyes,brimmed with tears. Eyes, red shot. His lips trembling,trying to make words. His nose ,sniffling every few seconds.

Its a broken sight.

Its all my fault,I know that. Its better if I just tell him to leave me alone for a while. But nicer?

I do like Jungkook. He was there when I needed him. He's an amazing friend. Possibly,I only want him as a friend.

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The other guy....gosh...call him a rose for god sake! I've known him for two almost three years. We are friends. Just not close friends.

Unfortunately, I don't...i dont want to date for a while. I need to ask Jungkook for space. Just for right now. Until I get my thoughts straight.

But the problem is...how do I ask him?

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Rose guy.

Rose guy has thorns. Get too close. Pricks you until you bleed. Don't cross the line then , you'll be okay.

Rose guy has a nice humor. Drastically different. Everytime I see him. I instantly think of the color blue. Not the dark blue or the sad blue. The aqua color. Turquoise!

Don't know why,though. Maybe because he has that vibe that can make anything calm. Like the sea. Shines bright like the sky.

I'm getting carried away now...

Anyways, I want to just focus on the competition. Its in less than 4 days. Four days. I'm not gonna survive if it keeps coming closer. I should text Hoseok, if I can go over to practice. I'll probably be lucky if Jin and Namjoon were there. Cause I know, if Namjoon is there,Jin is also there.

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