I came to the conclusion that I have to do something about my crush on Amber because seeing her with other male idols and her skinship with them is not making me happy. Well I didn't get there on my own someone helped me. One day I was missing Amber so I searched for videos of her mcing for show champion unfortunately the video that I decided to watch has many interactions of her with exo members and there were a lot of hugs.

That made me really upset so I was sulking in my studio by myself and that's when Top hyung entered. He sat beside me and started to stare at me without saying anything so I broke the silence and asked him what does he want?He just gave me a smile and asked me if everything is all right? I said yes but he was not satisfied by my reply.

Who am I trying to fool it's Top hyung that we are talking about, he could see right through me and it looked like I couldn't get out of it so I told him the truth. He listened patiently to everything that I said and then he told me very seriously that I have to confess to her or atleast talk to her because me being jealous is not going to take me anywhere and someone's going to take her away. That woke me up cuz his words hit me hard. I thought I could deal with this alone, that's why I didn't say anything to my members but it looks like I needed this talk and Top hyung's brotherly advice (more of a warning) did help me out. 

So I executed a plan to finally meet Amber. I decided to go to the show champion and come up with some excuse to talk to her. That was the time when our hoobaes 2ne1 were promoting their song 'falling in love' so I decided to use them as my excuse if I do get caught by someone, I would say to them that I am here to support 2ne1 and I'm planning to give them a surprise. Also that's when I get to know that Amber and Minzy are actually close friends, after hearing that I wasn't surprised knowing that Amber is the social butterfly of kpop I was just sad cuz if I had known that s