Life carried on, nothing out of ordinary happened. There were times when Amber used to come into my mind and I thought if I don't pay attention to that it would go away but that didn't really help. It used to make me little more frustrated. So I accepted it and slowly I got used to these feelings which I'm not really sure of. But I do know that they are not that strong and they are gonna away eventually which would have happened if it wasn't for that radio show.

I was invited to a radio show and the radio host was asking me the usual questions that all the idols get and also the questions only bigbang members get because who am I kidding we do get a special treatment. I answered all of them because I know vips are always eager to know anything about us and I know that if it wasn't for them we wouldn't be here so I always grant their wishes.

Everything was going on well until she asked me which girl group I'm interested in recently? I really didn't think much f(x) was the first group that came into my mind because in reality that's the only girl group that I've actually checked recently. So that's what I told her. It would have been better if she had stopped it there but that's not what happened. She asked me among f(x) members who I am mostly interested in? Without any hesitation I was about to say Amber because she was the only one who's in my mind recently but I stopped myself and said it was Sulli that I'm interested in and I think that she is really cute which is kind of true. After that, during the rest of the show I couldn't erase this uneasy feeling that settled in my heart. As I don't want to seem really distracted I tried to ignore that feeling and paid more attention to the host and her questions. That's how I completed my show and left for my company. I really want to spend some time with the music cuz I feel that's the only way I can get away from this stupid feeling as it is driving me crazy. Luckily I don't have any schedule after that so I asked my man