Just when I was actually forgetting about her something unexpected happened. Being in the same industry sometimes you can know about someone in that industry without even trying. I came to know that Amber is back in Korea and f(x) made a comeback even though I paid no attention to her or her group. I am happy for a moment when I heard that but didn't give much thought to it and just carried on.

We just made a comeback too and we are busy with our promotions which helped me take my mind off those things. We just performed our song 'love song' on sbs inkigayo and started going towards the back of the stage so that other artists who also performed that day could come on the stage. As I was walking some artists started to come I haven't really noticed who it was and gave them my signature bow which I usually do that if I don't know the person. But only after 5 seconds I've realised that the person that I greeted just now was none other than Amber herself.

My heart started to beat like crazy so I just kept on moving and my members' goofy actions distracted me for some time. But that didn't last long knowing that she was standing just a few feet away from me with her members being absolutely clueless about me and my inner turmoil that I'm having because of her. All I could see is the back of her head but that's enough for me to go crazy. At that moment the hosts of the show announced that bigbang won and I didn't realise that until my crazy members started jumping and fooling around. So I moved to front of the stage to accept the trophy with my members and I intentionally passed by f(x) while doing that. I could tell that f(x) members are bowing when I did that which brought an actual smile to my face because Amber was the one who bowed continously among them and that made me giddy. That went away quickly when I saw Daesung bowing to f(x) by going really close to them, me knowing that his bias is Amber didn't sit well with me at that moment. Right w