fluff

It wasn't as if I really minded people listening to their music really loudly in public spaces, because first of all, I know, and that because I get told really often that I myself am pretty loud. And also, most of the time I'm listening to my own stuff but today, and I swear to god I hate myself for that, I forgot to pack my earbuds.

And I usually really like taking the train to my morning classes, because I don't mind getting up at 7 and having the entire afternoon to myself and because I think the atmosphere on a train in the morning is just something to behold. 

The way some high school students seem to be ever so engrossed in looking at their notes once again before they're heading into an exam and how a few old men seem to be going off and on about the world with nothing but a newspaper in their hand and man would I like to be like that when I'm reaching 70.

But today, I'm forced to listen to the bunch of 16-year-olds a few meters away talking about how they've spent their weekend drinking. There is a man who really should have packed some cough medicine, be it in form of candy or whatever. And then there is this person who I can't even look at because mind you, this train is full and with full I mean I don't think I'm able to turn around so there is this person, and in general, I enjoy Musiq Soulchild, but not today.

Not when I'm kind of angry at myself for not packing my own earbuds, when everyone around me is just that tad bit more annoying than they actually are, and not when I would like to be back in my bed, sleeping.

Now, I can't really do much at the moment because it's sort of strange if I were to try and turn my body around 180 degrees just to tell this person "excuse me but would you mind turning down your music a little bit we're on a train" because you just don't do that.

No one cares, really.

It is really annoying but it's also my own fault for forgetting my god-forsaken earbuds. Jung Daehyun you're an idiot. Noted.

As the song changes to another, and yes I do hear that, I try to relax a little bit because being stressed out or just kinda in a bad mood isn't the way I want to sit through my lecture, my professor is a pretty tolerable man but sitting through a 120-minute lecture about some terrible ongoings during gastroenterology interventions with an empty stomach and no will at all won't be very productive and hell. Do I look like I want to watch that lecture once again, online and that at 2 am?

No.

Musiq Soulchild it is.

Yet, I'm honestly wondering who on earth here on a train would listen to Musiq Soulchild, I've heard Yongguk ranting about him a few times but Jongup would usually cut him off and just ask everyone where they'd like to eat. I secretly thank God for Jongup sometimes.

But since my curiosity was just constantly growing, I try to twist my body so that I'm able to take a peek at the person who's standing behind me.

They're probably not much smaller than me since I can feel their arm pressed right into my back and god, that's a really bony elbow so I'm also hoping to get rid of that in the process of finding out who this mysterious Musiq Soulchild fan is.

And since I usually like his music, might as well have a nice talk with them, so the only problem here really is that it's terribly difficult to turn around, but I take a step, a very small one, away from my target and turn around, which might have led to my backpack hitting the poor child who was standing to my left, already struggling with standing up straight since it couldn't hold onto anything in this mass of people.

But that's not really my problem.

I haven't been in too much trouble lately, really.

But I do think that myst