I LOOK AT HIM WITH A SURPRISED LOOK. HE AVERTS MY GAZE.

"WE SHOULD... GO TO SLEEP," I FINALLY SAY.

HE LOOKS AT ME. SOMETHING IS OBVIOUSLY ON HIS MIND. "YES, WE SHOULD."

"I'LL GO WASH UP IN THE BATHROOM DOWNSTAIRS."

"...OKAY."

RIGHT WHEN I'M ABOUT TO LEAVE THE ROOM JIN BURSTS IN.

"SORRY TO INTERUPT YOUR ALONE TIME, BUT I JUST CAME TO BRING TAE HIS EXTRA SET OF CLOTHES."

"OH RIGHT. HOW WAS I GONNA SHOWER WHEN I DON'T HAVE CLOTHES. THANKS HYUNG."

"NO PROBLEM." HE HANDS OVER THE BAG WITH MY CLOTHES.

"I'LL GO WASH UP NOW."

I EXIT THE ROOM. JIN STAYS BEHIND.

AFTER MY SHOWER I NOTICE THAT EVERYONE- EXCEPT JI MIN- HAS LEFT. JI MIN IS SITTING ON THE COUCH WATCHING SOMETHING ON HIS PHONE.

"GOOD NIGHT JI MIN."

"G'NIGHT LOVER BOY."

BACK IN JUNG KOOKS ROOM IT IS DARK. I LEAVE THE LIGHTS OFF AND SET MY THINGS DOWN ON THE FLOOR BESIDE THE DESK. I GET ON THE BED AS QUIET AS POSSIBLE. I FACE THE WALL.

WHO KNOWS HOW MUCH TIME PASSES AS I JUST LAY THERE. JUST STARING AT THE WALL THINKING.

WHY DID I ALSO LIKE THE KISS?

I'M AS STRAIGHT AS AN ARROW, RIGHT?

IT'S NOT LIKE IT WAS MY FIRST KISS.

IT WAS JUST A DARE.

WE'RE JUST FRIENDS.

THAT'S RIGHT.

FRIENDS.

FRIENDS WHO ENJOYED KISSING EACH OTHER.

YOU'RE THINKING TOO MUCH KIM TAE HYUNG.

HE'S STRAIGHT AND SO ARE YOU.

EVEN IF YOU START DATING YOU'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO SEE EACH OTHER.

HE ISN'T ALLOWED OUTSIDE.

IT WILL NEVER WORK.

YOU'RE STRAIGHT.

HE'S RELIGIOUS.

WHO CARES IF HE'S CUTE?

I DON'T.

NOPE.

NOT ONE BIT.

I DON'T WANT TO KISS HIM AGAIN.

HE'S A GUY.

A VERY ATTRACTIVE GUY.

AN ATTRACTIVE GUY WITH KISSABLE LIPS.

ALRIGHT THAT'S ENOUGH.

TIME TO SLEEP.

I SHUT MY EYES.

THE NEXT MORNING I WAKE UP TO AN EMPTY BED.

I HEAD TO THE BATHROOM TO GET READY FOR WORK.

AFTER I FINISH I GO DOWNSTAIRS.

"LEAVING ALREADY TAE TAE?"

JI MIN IS SITTING AT THE DINNER TABLE.

"YEA, I HAVE TO GO TO WORK."

"YOU'RE NOT STAYING FOR BREAKFAST? JUNG KOOK WOKE UP EARLY TO COOK."

I LOOK OVER AT SAID MALE. HE LOOKS AWAY.

"C'MON TAE. JOIN US FOR BREAKFAST. I'M SURE GRAMS WOULDN'T MIND."

"FINE."

I TAKE THE SEAT ACROSS FROM JI MIN.

DURING BREAKFAST NO ONE SAYS ANYTHING. NOT EVEN JI MIN.

IT MUST HAVE BEEN TOO MUCH FOR HIM SINCE HE THEN SPEAKS.

"WHAT'S UP WITH YOU TWO?"

"NOTHING," WE BOTH ANSWER.

"YOU GUYS AREN'T EVEN LOOKING AT EACH OTHER."

I LOOK AT JUNG KOOK. JUNG KOOK LOOKS AT HIS PLATE.

"SEE?"

"I HAVE TO GO TO WORK."

"NO, YOU ARE NOT LEAVING UNTIL ONE OF YOU TELLS ME WHAT'S WRONG."

"I DON'T NEED YOUR PERMISSION TO GO WORK."

"ACTUALLY, YOU DO NEED IT. YOUR FINGERPRINTS ARE NOT IN THE SYSTEM."

"JI MIN, I SERIOUSLY HAVE TO GO."

"THEN TELL ME."

"DUDE SERIOUSLY?"

"WE KISSED," JUNG KOOK SAYS.

"I KNOW. I SAW."

"NO, WE KISSED AGAIN."

"DID YOU NOW?"

"I...I LIKED IT. I LIKED KISSING HIM. IT FELT GOOD. BUT IT'S WRONG. I ENJOYED KISSING A MALE. I GOT MAD AT MYSELF AND WENT TO MY ROOM. I FELT THAT IF I STAYED I WOULD HAVE KISSED HIM AGAIN."

"WHICH YOU DID."

"YES. HE CAME UP TO MY ROOM AND I JUST...I HAD TO. IT WAS QUICK THOUGH. DIFFERENT FROM THE FIRST TIME."

"THEN?"

"THEN HE SAID WE SHOULD GO TO SLEEP."

"AND?"

"AND THEN JIN CAME TO GIVE ME MY CLOTHES. I TOOK A SHOWER DOWNSTAIRS AND JUNG KOOK UPSTAIRS AND THEN WE WENT TO SLEEP. THE END. CAN I GO TO WORK NOW? I'M LATE."

"WAS THAT SO HARD? THAT'S ALL YOU HAD TO DO."

" YOU."

"I DON'T THINK JUNG KOOK WOULD APPRECIATE THAT."

"WHATEVER."

"I'LL GO UNLOCK THE DOOR WHILE YOU SAY YOUR GOODBYES." HE GETS UP AND WALKS AWAY.

I GET UP AND GO WASH THE DISHES I USED. I GO TO JUNG KOOK.

"I GUESS THIS IS IT," I SAY.

"YES."

"THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME IN. I KNOW YOU WERE SCARED."

"I REALLY WANTED TO MEET YOU."

"I'M PROBABLY NOT WHAT YOU EXPECTED, RIGHT?"

"YOU ARE MORE HANDSOME THAN I THOUGHT. OTHER THAN THAT, YOU'RE EXACTLY HOW I IMAGINED."

"IS THAT A COMPLIMENT?"

HE SMILES. "YES."

"HURRY UP TAE! THIS THING HAS A TIMER! TEN SECONDS!"

"WILL YOU BE ON THE CHAT LATER?"

"YES. SAME TIME?"

I NOD.

"...BYE KOOKIE."

"GOODBYE V."

I LEAVE THE HOUSE WITH A HEAVY HEART.

I'LL PROBABLY NEVER SEE HIM AGAIN...

A/N: I AM BACK! THIS UPDATE TOOK A LITTLE LONGER THAN I WANTED IT TOO. LIFE IS KEEPING ME BUSY THESE DAYS :( 

ANYWAYS I HOPE YOU LIKE THIS UPDATE ;)

UNTIL NEXT TIME MY DARLINGS!