The atmosphere in the car was awkwardly quiet especially having Got7's loud and annoying leader JB and Day6's self-claimed Sweg Chicken (Jae) and JYP's Vitamin all in the same car. Whenever we're together there will always be entertaining and loud with the other two  (Jr. and Yerin) trying to shush us down in embarrassment. I could feel eyes staring at me but I looked out the window and smile bitterly at what happened. I couldn't help but let out a bitter laugh and blink away the tears.... After 10 minutes of awkward silent and feeling so suffocate, as if something was squeezing my air way. I needed some fresh air and get away from the stares, I could feel boring holes into the back of my head 

"Oppa.....?" I said barely above a whisper. Even I was shocked at how soft and my voice has become. I was the loud and confident PARK JIMIN but now I feel so small and tiny. 

"Neh... Jimin-ah?" 

"Can you drop me off at the park near our dorm? I need some fresh air." I whisper barely making eye contact with him.  

Silent.... "Neh....."  He stopped by the park near our dorm and opened the door for me.  

"Jimin-ah....?" He said while I gave him a smile before getting out of the car. I walked unconsciously to the walking trail and walk without knowing where my destination is. I smile bitterly as memories of our friendship played in my mind and scenes flashed by while in my hand held onto the offensive piece of metal. The event earlier replayed in my mind... the smile on his face.... how I wished it was me who he would smiled like that to.... how I wished I was the one that made him smiled like she did, and be the one who made him feel warm inside. Why didn't I let him know of my feelings....?  

I stopped walking and closed my eyes... and let the most meaningful item in my life slip through my fingers and continue walking without looking back at it.  

The night breeze never felt so good on my skin, if it was any other night, I would be complaining about the coldness but tonight. I couldn't feel anything. As a bench comes into my view, I walked over and sat on it and found the "J+J" craved onto the bench. I ran my hand over it....  

Suddenly someone put a jacket over my shoulder, startling me.  

"Jimin-ah...." His smooth voice coo 

"Oppa.... why does it hurt so much?" I cried as soon as I heard his voice. The tears I blinked away became undone and I was bawling my eyes out. Never had I cried this hard in front of anyone even Jackson. I was always the cheerful, tough energetic girl but tonight I let my demeanor down and cried 

Instantly I was pulled into warm embracement.  

"Cry.... just cry it out. I rather see you cry then see you acting as if it doesn't effect you. Let it all out." He cooed as he rubbed small circles on my back. 

"I was going to confess today...... I took your advice and I was ….. I ….. I … i..... I was.... I was going …... to tell.... him...." I said in between breaths as I could no longer control my cries 

"I know..... I know..... " 

"Oppa.... Oppa... I.... I... I am ….. am... standing.... on a.... line... I … I could... couldn't... cross... and …. and i.... I.... i... should... should've know.... that.... this... hopeless... hopeless.... love..."  

"Jimin-ah.... it is not like that.... you're a wonderful girl and who ever date you is one lucky guy! Jackson doesn’t know what he is missing. You're one in an infinity and it is his lost for not seeing your affections toward him." he said as he pulled me away and looked me straight in the eyes while wiping away my tear streaked face. 

"Your Prince Charming is out there somewhere, and just you wait. Maybe he is just around the corner, feeding his white horse some gas so he'll reach to you sooner. Even if Jackson isn't the one, there are many guys out there that would love to get a small percent of the affection you gave Jackson. If only you looked beyond Jackson, you'll see how much you are worth and that there are so many other guys out there." 

I smiled