~ Music appreciation (Pre black day) filming ~ 

I had a scheduling to have a fan meeting on the street café near the JYP building. It was a chance to meet and have a one on one with my fans. Before the event started, the staffs had fans write down questions they would like to ask me and curious about. There was some interaction with them before I start singing my new song along with another song, my manger had me prepared a song that I would like to sing and automatically the song that came to my mind was Miss A Unnie's Are you dazed. It was a song that fit completely with my situation. 

After what happened, when we see each other in the hallways, he would give walk away once he see me. The smile on his face would disappear as I walk by and he would find an excuse to leave... the livingness in his eyes that I loved so much would disappear in a blink of an eye and coldness would be replaced in them. I couldn't help but stare at his back every times as he walked away. As his figure get smaller and smaller until I can no longer see his image. I was really letting him walk away when I always fought so hard to make him stay. Who knew....life is so cruel in its own way.... playing with our hearts and breaking them as it pleases.  

A fan's question was Where did you get the emotions to sing these type of songs? I answered... with a lie, not wanting them to dig into my personal life or thinking that they must protect me. 

"Because I don't have experiences of liking someone by myself and being hurt. I don't know how to express this song. So, I thought about food as I sang. I am being honest with you. I sang by thinking of a braised spicy chicken" but in reality, the emotions behind this song is based real experiences. My personal heartbreak was fueling the emotions of this song. All the pains and heartache was expressed into this song.  

"The first song is JYP's Miss A Unnie's song. It is not a new song, but it's the song I have liked for a long time. The song is called Are you dazed. I'll start the show with that song" 

Seeing you draw away from me  

I am dazed looking at you 

As if it would make you turn back 

If I start crying now 

it really might be the end 

That's why I hardly pretend to be calm 

 Thought about holding you back  

but the cold look in your eyes  

left me speechless, I could only stand staring  

We loved each other 

You wanted me more than anything  

Now you're turning away from me 

And I can't believe it 

The good times we had 

we were so unbelievably happy  

The beautiful memories between us 

are now streaming down my face 

Now the tears are coming 

Guess it's time to let you go 

Seeing you drift further away  

I am dazed looking at you. 

I thought it would make you turn back 

I hate to see myself  

in these helpless tears 

want to go back in time 

to the days when I didn't know you. 
We loved each other 

You wanted me more than anything  

Now you're turning away from me 

And I can't believe it 

The good times we had 

we were so unbelievably happy  

The beautiful memories between us 

are now streaming down my face 

Now the tears are coming 

Guess it's time to let you go 

Now I can see you far away  

I stand here still 

Don't leave me, come back to me 

Turn back to me once more 

We loved each other 

You wanted me more than anything