It was familiar to Seungyoon, the white. Everything was so white. And it smelt clean too. No matter where you went every corner would linger the scent of disinfectant or some sort of cleaning product which always made him feel the most uncomfortable. How can such a big place be so clean? He can't even keep his own room clean let alone resorting to hiring a maid since his grandma would always nag him for claiming to be independant when he can't even look after himself. This would be his 4th time visiting the hospital within 3 days, of course to visit Jinwoo. But as weird as it sounds, Seungyoon was more concerned about Mino.

Seungyoon opened the door marked 251, first thing that always grabbed his attention was the recovering older lying in bed. Dressed in a white hospital robe and nothing else. Seungyoon couldn't help but smile. It had been so long since he saw Jinwoo without all the makeup, without all the female clothes, just Jinwoo. And if you cancel out the fact that he was recovering, he looked much more peaceful and at ease to be as Jinwoo, and not as Rachel. Though whenever he would study the older, his attention would always be drawn afterwards to the person who was in the room, sitting beside the bed, body marked with a dark expression that anyone could pin point.

Seungyoon sighed.
"Mino go home and rest."

"No. I must stay with him."

......
It was always the same response, over and over, like a song stuck on replay. It wouldn't even matter if it wasn't Seungyoon. Mino's answer would always be the same towards  a nurse,  the doctor, or just anyone who comes into room 251 for that matter. Even if the conversation would be something else and not about Jinwoo, Mino's answer would always be the same. 

"Mino. Jinwoo looks more alive than you."
"No. I must stay with him."
"Did you atleast sleep today?"
"No. I must stay-"
"Did you even eat the noodles I bought you?"
....
....
.....
"No. I mus-"
"Mino you're just being stupid right now."
...
"No. I must stay with him."

At this point Seungyoon tried his best not to punch the out of the other. This was just borderline annoying, unrealistic. Stupidity at its best. But, it was just Mino's way of coping right? How can he be angry towards someone who is just worried sick about someone else? Seungyoon sighed as he stared at the other, removing the frustration from his forehead, eyebrow and frown.

"Mino. I understand that you're concerned about Jinwoo, and that you want to be beside him when he wakes up." Seungyoon paused before continuing. "But a dehydrated and under nourished Mino is not something Jinwoo wants to see the first thing he wakes up." Seungyoon kept his stare towards the other, but it seems like Mino wasn't paying attention to him whatsoever.

"How do you expect to survive on candy bars from those vending machines alone? You didn't even eat any of the noodles I kept buying you." Seungyoon eyed out the container stack sitting beside Mino. He had purchased Mino's favourite noodles from Little Asia over and over, alongside an assortment of side dishes that Mino favoured whenever they went to the restaurant back then. Though not one has been touched. Seungyoon wouldn't be surprised if some were spoilt and had accumulated dust. Seungyoon sighed as he sat next to the other. Obviously scolding wasn't working at all.

"Mino. you haven't had a proper sleep for the last 3 days. The nurses keep contacting me, saying that you're more of a patient than Jinwoo."

....
No response from Mino whatsoever. The same expression, the same posture. Nothing changing. Mino hasn't really thrown any sort of tantrums over the years Seungyoon has known him. Seungyoon recalled how  Mino came over to his house years ago for a sleepover, hiding his precious Pororo plush toy away for the night, expecting some crying, maybe even some screaming from the other. But everything backfired, Mino didn't react whatsoever. Mino wasn't the one to react, infront of everyone or people he doesn't trust atleast.

"He's our friend too." Mino seemed to twitch at the leader's voice, yet still remained in his position. Same expression, same everything.
"We want to look after him too you know. It's not fair if he wakes up to know that you were the only one here waiting for him."
...
"So get some rest. I'll watch over."
...
Nothing.

"YAH! MINO, YOU HEARD THE DOCTOR, HE SAID HE'LL BE FINE WITHIN A COUPLE OF DAYS. IT'S YOU THAT'S MAKING THE SITUATION WORSE. YOU HAVEN'T EATEN OR SLEPT PROPERLY! YOU LOOK THIN! I DON'T KNOW WHY YOU HAVEN'T BEEN SHOWING UP TO SCHOOL BUT YOUVE GOTTEN EVERYONE WORRIED SICK! YOU'VE GOTTEN ME WORRIED! EVERYONE! CL NOONA EVEN ASKED ME IF YOU WERE KIDNAPPED OR BEATEN BY ONE OF THE SM GANG GROUPS! YOU'LL MAKE IT EVEN WORSE FOR JINWOO IF HE FINDS OUT YOU'RE IN THIS STATE WHEN HE WAKES UP! SO STOP PITYING HIM AND TAKE CARE OF YOURSE-"

"SHUT UP!" Mino stood up, fists clenched as they turned red. Hot tears streaming down his face as he stared right into Seungyoon's eyes. Seungyoon was taken aback by the sight, but despite Mino's strong stature he could tell that the other was weak, extremely weak. Emotionally, physically, mentally drained.

"shut up...." Mino quivered as his lips trembled, barely able to say the very words. He felt himself trembling, though he tried to stay strong, so strong, for him and Jinwoo. But he couldn't even stand still. He was a failure. Everything that happened to Jinwoo he blamed himself for. If only he didn't confess his feelings that night, maybe just maybe none of this would have happened. No, if in fact he didn't suggest Jinwoo to dress up as Rachel at all maybe none of this would've happened. No, if he didn't even help Jinwoo on the very first day of school when Mr. Lee scolded him maybe none of this would've happened. If Mino would've simply turned his head away like he did to every other person, maybe none of this would've happened. If he didn't enter the other's life. Nothing would be harmful to Jinwoo. Nothing. 

"I failed him hyung." Mino bit his lips. Trying so hard to keep the tears at bay, but he wasn't strong enough. And that was something he kept repeating to himself.
"I couldn't protect him."
"...Mino."
"I didn't know what to do. I just....I was just looking at him when he was in pain." Mino could barely say his words properly, saliva thick, sniffling, figeting.
"He t-trusted m-me. I betrayed him." He couldn't even look at Seungyoon anymore, eyes of the ground as tears streamed down his cheeks.

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"Hyung I don't know why you keep buying him food when he's just going to leave it alone-" Seunghoon barged into room 251 and was about to finish what he was saying, but the sight infront of him made his jaw drop. Seunghoon was about to drop the plastic bag full of food in shock when the leader scolded him to put the food down on the table in the corner.

"I got what you said." Seunghoon whispered as he sat next to the leader, handing him his credit card. He eyed out Mino sleeping on a row of chairs across the room. Seungyoon snatched the credit card and tucked it in his wallet before resuming to his phone. Probably texting Taehyun.

"How did you get him to sleep?" Seunghoon asked the leader as quiet as possible.
"I didn't, he did it to himself. Finally letting his feelings out. Tired himself out." Seungyoon replied nonchalantly.
"Mino? Feelings?"
Seungyoon couldn't help but chuckle at the other's statement. It was sort of true. Everything appeared cold about Mino in the student body's eyes. Though in WINNER, he was just of a dork as Seungyoon, Taehyun, Seunghoon and Jinwoo was. And so, whenever he heard such statements about Mino, he can't help but laugh at them. But, that was Mino's image, and having a cool image made it easier to survive in Belle. Plus, having such an image meant you drowned in , or , whatever your game, though the lack of openly gay people in school was almost none. Though the rumours of Jonghyun and Key from the Shinee group was almost always the pin point of the topic, but the rumours had circulated so much that no one pays attention to them anymore.

"Even if he is sleeping now, how do you know he'll eat?"
"He will. Everyone eats after crying." Seungyoon replied nonchalantly.
...
....
.....
Seungyoon winced at the rustling noise beside him. He eyed out the other sitting beside him, only to see Seunghoon opening a plastic wrapped pastry.
"Did you buy that with my credit card? When I specifically told you only to buy the noodles from Little Asia? For Mino and Mino only?"
"Sorry, I was still hungry after I bought the noodles for Mino and myself."
"You bought yourself noodles aswell? and that pastry?!?!" Seungyoon tried not to shout, but clearly he was annoyed, indications of the lines on his forehead.
"Yeah...Plus, I bought this pastry from a bakery I just discovered. It's really cool! It's called Little France. It's infront of Peaches and Cream." Seunghoon smiled as he took a bite of the pastry, mouth in awe at how good it tasted. He taunted Seungyoon, but the other took no notice of him and kept to his phone.

"Actually, that guy from the Got7 group works there. The one with the red hair-"
"Mmmmphhh." Mino groaned in his sleep, cutting off whatever Seunghoon was about to say.
"If you keep talking and you wake up Mino, I swear I will tell everybody at school about how you fail to pick up any girls and have to resort to that whorehouse for pleasure." Seungyoon hissed at the other.
Seunghoon sneered as he taunted the leader with a bite.

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The sun blinded Jinwoo's eyes as he cracked them open, he couldn't help but wince and cover his sight. Though as time passed by, his eyes adjusted, revealing that they were only lights, ceiling lights. Jinwoo tried to move, though his whole body ached, but to his relief it was no comparison to what happened to him 4 days ago, not that he knew how long he was unconscious for. And so all he could do right now was pivot his neck. Jinwoo turned his head to the left, gazing at a familiar figure. Quite skinny and rather feminine, like his own. Though he was pretty as Cha Eun Sung, however his true beauty shone as himself. Lucious hair, parted in the middle, sharp face features and of course those mischievous eyes.

"Taehyun." Jinwoo groaned. Though it seemed that the said person was too distracted by their phone.
"Taehyun." Jinwoo groaned louder, feeling his coarse throat every time he gulped.

Taehyun looked up from texting Seungyoon, only to have his jaw dropped.
"JINW- jinwoo." Taehyun quiclkly shut himself up. As excited, shocked and happy he was, he still needed to keep quiet for Mino who was sleeping once again across the room. Jinwoo smiled at Taehyun. Taehyun swore he could've melted right there and now. The last time he saw Jinwoo smile like that was around the first few weeks of Belle, when Jinwoo was...Jinwoo. So innocent and pure. Taehyun returned the gesture as he smiled back, approaching the older.

"How are you feeling?"
"I'm fine thanks." Jinwoo replied, though his groaning voice just won't go away.
"How's everyone?" Jinwoo asked.
"Everyone? Everyone is fine. Actually let's talk outside. He's still sleeping." Taehyun pointed to the other side. Jinwoo faced the right to see a sleeping Mino. He smiled and agreed to Taehyun's idea.
"Plus, I need to get some fresh air." Jinwoo added.
"Can you stand and walk on your own?" Taehyun asked as he assisted Jinwoo in sitting up.
"I uhh...Actually my body still kind of hurts but I'll be fine."
"That's okay then, I'll get a wheelchair." Taehyun patted the older's back before leaving the room.
Jinwoo's eyes trailed the other as he left, though his attention would automatically divert towards the stack of Little Asia noodle containers sitting on one of the chairs.
"Seunghoon must've been here." Jinwoo chuckled.
He faced Mino again as he studied the other's facial features. Mino had strong sharp features, yet there would always be a soft and almost delicate side. His chest would go up and down as he took gentle breathes in his sleep. Hair slightly messy, a contrast to the usual slick and clean Mino he would see every single day at school. Though on top of everything, Mino looked at peace. Jinwoo recalled how the other looked on the night he had the anxiety attack. Although his vision was blurry, a vivid picture of Mino petrified and completely lost was painted in his mind. He's never seen the other in such distress before. But then again, Jinwoo too would react the same if he saw something terrible happening right infront of his very eyes yet he couldn't do anything but watch in horror.
"You must've been more scared than I was huh?" Jinwoo muttered under his breath.

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"How long have I been unconscious?" Jinwoo asked, amidst his ice cream.

"4 days, 5 in a few hours." Taehyun replied, amidst his ice cream.

"Hmmm...okay...." Jinwoo nodded. He felt the cool breeze of the Tuesday night as it played with his hair. Taehyun seemed to enjoy it too as both boys were smiling. They were outside within the hospital gardens which offered a spectacular view of the city's night life. Cars rushing past, helicopters like fire flies hovering above them as hundreds of lit buildings surrounded the area like garden lights. But through out all the scenery, the night sky's stars seemed to be blurred out by the city lights, dampening Jinwoo's mood by a bit, but none the less he was happy to regain conciousness. This wasn't the first time he had fallen unconscious. Back then when his anxiety attacks happened more often, he would faint frequently though his recovery time would only take a couple of minutes, in serious cases 1 or 2 hours. Though over the years as Jinwoo overcame his fears and reality, his anxiety attack would come to a stop all together. Plus back then he took medicine which helped alot. However since he experienced one all of a sudden after years of living sympton free, with no medicine whatsoever, him and his body were sent in a state of shock. Thus a longer recovery time. This was what the doctor had told him a few minutes back which made a whole lot of sense to Jinwoo, though the same couldn't be said to Taehyun. But nonetheless the other nodded anyway, stating to the doctor "I study at Belle, so I can understand aswell". Though Jinwoo couldn't help but scoff and chuckle at him.

"I had a dream while I was unconscious." Jinwoo mumbled, amidst eating the waffle cone.

"Hmmm? What was it?" Taehyun asked, amidst eating the waffle cone.

"Well actually I had many dreams. But one of them had you in it."
Taehyun looked at Jinwoo. A story about me? This should be fun. I hope I was rich on my own and not from my family.

"We were sitting in the field, on our same spot at break like usual." Jinwoo started his story, he could tell that Taehyun was interested since the other stopped eating the waffle cone. Taehyun loves waffle cones. "We had a conversation like usual. And then the bell rang and so everybody was headed towards their period 3 classes. I had vocal lessons, Seunghoon had cooking and Mino had history-"

"I thought you said I was in it."

"I'm getting there. Anyway,  Me, Mino and Seunghoon were walking away but you and Seungyoon hyung stayed seated. Seunghoon asked why you two weren't moving but Seungyoon hyung shouted that you lost a ring in the grass. And so all three of us left-"

"But I don't wear rings."

"Are you going to let me tell the story or not?" Jinwoo growled at the other, atleast his croaky voice was getting better.

"Okay I'm sorry, go."

"As I was saying, the three of us left. 5 mnutes passed and you two were the only ones in the field. Still looking for your lost ring. You started laughing out of nowhere, but you were dribbling-"

"Jinwoo what the ? Since when do I dribble? And why did I laugh out of nowhere?"

"DO YOU WANT TO HEAR THE STORY OR NOT?!" Jinwoo shouted.

"OKAY! Sorry. Go."

"AS I WAS SAYING.... you were dribbling but Seungyoon saw this and wiped it off with his shirt. You apologized to him for getting his shirt dirty. But then he took it off and looked at you straight in the eyes. He was shirtless. Your gaze met his and hyung started to walk towards you. His eyes filled with lust. You walked towards him too. And then when your bodies clashed together, you both- ..........what are you looking at?" Jinwoo asked the other, irritated. Taehyun was no longer looking at him.

"Oh umm... ahahahahah! I forgot something in my car. Stay here and I'l be back okay? Okay." Taehyun quickly ran away. Hopefully he ran in time so that he wasn't seen by the other that was walking towards them.

"YAH! I CAN BARELY WALK LET ALONE WORK A WHEEL CHAIR! HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO-"

"Jinwoo."

He could recognise that voice anywhere. That deep voice that always sent chills down his spine.
"Mino." Jinwoo smiled as he turned his head around to see the other standing right behind him. Though he quickly became worried at the state Mino was in. He didn't look healthy, or like his clean usual self. Eye bags, dull skin, tear stains? And to top it off, Mino was giving him a worried look.

"I'm sorry." Mino clenched his fists. He could feel his eyes start to well up, though the hours of crying beside Seungyoon yesterday has left him all dried up. Though he could still feel tears on the verge of falling. Sure Mino has cried infront of Jinwoo before, but seeing him in this state. He looked so broken. An image of self punishment and anger. Self hate, self blame. Jinwoo stood up. Legs, joints, ankles aching. It was painful but he stood up. He walked over to the frustrated Mino and hugged him. He was cold. Despite Jinwoo only wearing a hospital robe in the cool night, Mino was cold. Though at his touch Jinwoo felt Mino melt in his arms as the other rested his head on his shoulder.

"You must've been more scared than I was huh?" Jinwoo muttered under his breath.

Author's note: Hello my thirsty readers. I have school once again. ugh. So I'll be more busy than usual. BUT, due my love and dedication for not only this story and all these ships, but for you guys aswell I will try my best to update as frequent as possible. Once again thank yall for all the comments and subscribers <3 Can I like give you online hugs and online fried chicken or something? Anyway, Our Jinwoo is fine :D What did yall think of his dream though? AHHAHAHAHA. but no, Taehyun had to interrupt and run away before he could find out the rest.

Mino plz. turn dat fr0wn ups1d3 d0wn.