Jinwoo awoke to the sounds of birds chirping as sunlight seeped through the under folds of the tent. Although they were quite noisy, it was a more pleasing change from the repetitive alarm clock his phone made for the last 4 months and 2 weeks. Aside from the fact that he was sleeping in a tent in some forest, Jinwoo felt that this morning was different. Although his body sweated under the 3 layers of heavy blankets, he felt cold on the inside, then it clicked. He instanly felt the missing presence of arms wrapped around his small waist, no head nuzzling in between his neck, nothing anchoring him down, certainly no deep moans filling his ears. Or anything poking his .
"Mino?" Jinwoo barely croaked as his voice broke. He patted the space next to him, yet he only felt nothing but space, empty.
"Mino- AH!" Jinwoo instanly regretted sitting up as his head pounded with ache, as if a hammer directly to his skull, pounding, repeatedly, over and over, again and again. Jinwoo swirled in his spot, everything an instant blurr as he felt himself get sick, stomach churning. He tried to massage his skull though only to notice that his wig was still on.
Wait..what?
Jinwoo removed the layer of blankets revealing that he's still wearing the same clothes from yesterday, even the tight pair of heels restricting him from wiggling his toes. He was about to remove the pair of devils when his stomach suddenly churned aggresively as he felt his throat clog up.
.
Jinwoo shuffled as he got off the bed and left the tent, searching for the nearest bathroom. Though the lobby building was too far.
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Jinwoo looked around. Bingo. Sprinting to a nearby bush Jinwoo puked all over the ground. It was as if he had swallowed acid, his throat burned up, everything burned up, head, stomach, body. He didn't even care that it was morning, or that he was puking in broad day light where anyone could've seen him, he didn't care what time it was or if he was going to be late for the camp meeting every morning, or if the camp meeting even started. What time is it? I don't care.
Jinwoo crouched down as he wiped his mouth, removing any trace of bile. Even at this position his knees felt like collapsing. He felt the , and that was all he could describe himself at this moment.
"Ahhh....."Jinwoo croaked as his head pounded.
What the hell happened last night?
"Ahhhh...."
What did I do last night?
"Ahhhh...."
Where did I go last night?
"Ahhhh!!!...."
Did I....Did I anyone last night?
"AHHHH!!"
I don't remember.
Jinwoo stumbled around, trying to stand up. A lucky miss when he nearly fell on the puddle of vomit on the grass. More importantly where was Mino? He could barely recall seeing Mino last night....Or was that Taehyun? Ahh I don't remember. Jinwoo was about to call out for the other once more when he suddenly realized the state he was in. Jinwoo scattered back inside the tent and took a good look at himself in the mirror.
"I look like a e." Jinwoo croaked. Heels scuffed with dirt and vomit, stockings ripped, barely holding together, coat splattered with various stains including some weird sticky white substance, though luckily his make shift s were still intact and bouncy. Though the same couldn't be said with his makeup, mascara running down his cheeks, did he cry last night? Fake lashes wonky. Barely any lipstick left on his lips though instead neck covered with lip marks. he needed to find out what exactly happened, or more importantly where Mino was, or more important-importantly where everyone was. Seemed that when he was outside puking no one was in sight. But first things first he's the realest, and so he needed to change, no one wants to look at a e at 9 in the morning, or whatever time it was. Jinwoo couldn't even read the hands on his wristwatch, everything was still a blur.

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"Mr. Lee?" Jinwoo called out inside the massive empty lobby building, though no one was there, no one was anywhere.
They're all probably out in the valley and forest doing activities..... Jinwoo sighed. He loved the outdoors, he loved spending time one with nature, although he enjoyed being alone at times, he enjoyed nature the most whenever he was with someone else. During childhood, even if it was just the playground, he would act as if he was in a theme park with his father. The swings would become his roller coaster. Though more recently this year, he enjoyed nature with WINNER, in fact he was the one who requested to eat lunch outside on the field every break, and it was a nice change that all WINNER members could agree on. Jinwoo pouted in disappointment. Though on the bright side he decided not to wear heels for the rest of the trip, whatever he did last night really stuffed up his foot. And so he decided to borrow a pair of shoes from Mino's luggage. He could also think of more positives, today he was wearing a comfortable outfit, all from Mino's wardrobe, except for the skirt, he still needed to be Rachel even if it meant wearing a wig that looked busted and crap, though Mino's hoodie certainly did a good job of covering the horrible spots. For once Jinwoo felt comfortable in some way as Rachel. No heels, no heavy makeup, comforable outfit. Finally.

However no matter how much he thought of the positives, he was still hungover. He simply couldn't ignore the pounding in his head, in fact he felt like fainting when he was taking a shower not too long ago, though the warm water did help a little in keeping him feeling alive. He wanted to participate in the activities, he really wanted to, but not in this state. In this state he could've died from a mere mosquito bite. He needed rest and he needed it ASAP. Jinwoo made his way back to Mino's tent as he buried himself in layers of blankets which again were owned by Mino. Come to think of it the school never lent the other any camping equipment unlike the other students. Actually he never even saw Mino carrying any type of equipment during the bus trip here to camp. Maybe the Songs were regular customers here...So the camp people store their equipment seperately....Ugh whatever. Jinwoo shook off the thought as he tried to find his inner peace. Okay Jinwoo...Just relax...Let everything go and just..relax...Remember when the famous idol singer IU hit those 3 notes in her song Good Day? Yep, go back to that relaxing state......3 notes.....IU.....
"AHH!!! THIS ISN'T WORKING!" Jinwoo shouted in frustration, he squirmed around the bed as he threw his wig off across the tent.
Usually whenever he had hangovers, they wouldn't last as long or be as painful as this one.
I remember drinking alcohol last night......But did I take anything else?
...
....
.....
Drugs? No. I would never do that.
But then again I do things I would never do when I'm sober.
Who the hell brings drugs to camp anyway...
Maybe.....Ye?
no...
Maybe...
Jinwoo's thoughts were interrupted as the older's ears twitched, foot steps sounded by the ling of grass headed towards the tent.
Mino?
"Mino!-Oh." Jinwoo's smile suddenly dropped, though a weak grin replaced his lips, at least someone was here with him, someone he could talk to comfortably.

"I thought everyone was out in the forest doing activities?" Jinwoo weakly grumbled as he sat up, facing the figure.
"Yes well I thought so too, but then again you're here at camp alone." Hanbin grinned as he sat on the edge of the bed. Jinwoo shuffled over so the other could lay beside him, though Hanbin shook his head and gestured him to come closer.
...
....
....
"Here." Hanbin fed Jinwoo as he gladly accepted, he hasn't eaten breakfast so why not? Jinwoo couldn't help but giggle through all the chewing
"What?" Hanbin asked as he kept feeding the older.
"Remember back then when I was sick and didn't go to school for 2 days. Then you came over with food and fed me." Jinwoo smiled, recalling how close they were back in childhood. They were like brothers, best friends though they still were, just not as close as they would like to be. Though the weeks they spent together for the last month truly did re-ignite something from the past, something familiar and heartwarming.
"You were so tiny back then." Hanbin smiled, wiping off any scrap of food from Jinwoo's pink lips before feeding the older again.
"I was taller than you though" Jinwoo glared at the other.
"Yeah...back then." Hanbin teased, feeding Jinwoo one last time before the container and its contents were empty. Due to Seunghoon's massive appetite this morning, there were barely any leftovers left. He recalled how the other was eating so much that Mr. Lee finally broke his peace and silence justf to yell at the student right in front of everybody, though to everyone's relief Seunghoon was hailed a winner by both teachers and students for returning Mr. Lee to his usual mad state. Although it was fun while it lasted. Hanbin could only receive a tiny amount of food from the kitchen cooks though it was enough to feed Jinwoo since the older doesn't eat that much anyway.
"Thank you Hanbin-"
"It's B.I" Hanbin snickered at the older. For some reason he never bothered to correct anyone else apart from Jinwoo, probably because it was the name Jinwoo used to call him back then. Afterschool, his ears would always ring with shouts of B.I as they crossed the road together, hand to hand. Was it because he wanted to relive those precious moments again? Was it because he didn't want to accept the fact that after the trip Jinwoo was moving away from him? Jinwoossi....I have missed you...Do you know how much sadness I felt when I moved away back then? Do you know what you did to me? You made me depressed. Back then i lived my life in a colourful way, however when you're not around everything is black and white. You are the joy of my life, and that is something I don't want to let go of.

Hanbin's thoughts were suddenly interrupted by Jinwoo groaning at his side. The older was obviously sick, and he needed attention. Though Hanbin wasn't the best in the medical field. Hell, he got kicked out from health class within the first week mostly because he wasn't paying attention and was a distraction to the people around him. He remembered treating the whole class as a joke, recalling his words 'I'll just hire a doctor anyway' before leaving the class, only to be reassigned to another subject which was P.E. Which he enjoyed very thoroughly, as any teacher could tell by his soaring grades and of course the repetitive use of the private workout rooms in the school gym.

"Uhh...One of the camp managers probably has first aid training." Hanbin got up and was about to leave when Jinwoo suddenly tugged at the other's t shirt.
"I'm fine...Just.... stay here with me." Jinwoo croaked out, though clearly he wasn't fine. Hanbin felt the older's forehead and he was burning up, beads of sweat covered his forehead as he tried to reassure the other of his condition.
"Jinwoo you need medical attention." Hanbin removed the older's hand from his shirt and walked towards the tent opening when Jinwoo suddenly lunged forward and tugged at his shirt once more.
"No!"
Hanbin sighed, he took Jinwoo's hand and turned around as their gaze met.
"Jinwoo you'll get more sick if you don't get help-"
"Don't leave me...again." Jinwoo weakly pleaded, head down, gripping tighter on the other's shirt as his knuckles turned red.
...
Hanbin felt weak, he felt guilty, he felt annoyed with himself, a mixture of emotions bottled up in his body. Jinwoo's eyes expressed the same emotions years ago when he was moving away. And that was something Hanbin had to live with recalling the same image for years now. This time he couldn't, he didn't want to abandon Jinwoo again. Not this time. Never.
Hanbin took the older's hand as he squeezed it, gesturing Jinwoo to lie down again. He returned to his position on the edge of the bed as he swept Jinwoo's fringe away from his face.
"You're always so needy." Hanbin teased as he dabbed the sweat away. Though Jinwoo didn't say anything back, only squeezing the other's hand in response. Hanbin couldn't help but smile at the sight, Jinwoo always looked so peaceful whenever he was resting, his nose, his pink plump lips, his doe like eyes, his soft hair.

Jinwoo, I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused you.
I know that it must've been tough dealing with all the bullying when I moved away.
Every single day I wasn't there to protect you.
Every single day I wasn't there as your friend.
Every single day I wasn't there as your brother.
Every single day I felt guilty.
I don't know how, but you managed to live through it, alone. And that is something I am truly proud you achieved. But it's also something that I dread.
You're not the vulnerable Jinwoo I used to know, you're confident, you're mature, you're independant. I'm not sure that you'll need me in your life anymore.
To protect you.
To be there for you.
To wipe your tears away.
To make you laugh.
To hug you whenever your cold.
To hold your hands whenever your cold.
It looks like you already found someone else.
It looks like you're already happy with them.
That you two are already close.
That he's doing a far better job than I am.
Of looking after you.
But....always know.
That I will be your tower.
A tower that will always stand up tall, always there looking out for you no matter how far you are.
A tower that will always endure hardships.
A tower that you can always run back to for protection.
 

Hanbin watched as Jinwoo's chest motioned up and down. He was asleep.
"Whether you like it or not, you need to eat something." Hanbin muttered under his breathe before squeezing the older's hand once more and leaving.

Author's note: <3 Ugh. Hanbin stahp. Where did our Mino go? Comment below what you think happened to our main man.
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