~Fluffy’s Refuge~

Chenguang’s POV

It took flipping a coin, a flower’s petals of “to go” and “not to go”, my conscience and some hard thinking about whether or not I was ready to face Sehun.

As determined as I was after my brother had basically pep-talked me, I couldn’t just find it in myself to walk up to Sehun and give him the answer he wanted.

Unfortunately, changing your feelings isn’t as easy as flipping a pressing a button or else I would have broken that button from repeatedly pressing on it.

 I was currently lying on my bed talking to Key (yes, Key, this is what I’ve resorted to, I’m a mess).

“Either you’re extremely bored or there’s something you want from me and I have a feeling I’m not going to like it.”

“Yeobosaeyo to you too, you peanut.” I blankly responded. It’s barely been five seconds and I regret calling him and he probably regrets answering.

“I’m going to look past that. I’m going to hang up if you don’t tell me why you’re calling.” I could practically picture the sneer on his face.

“I have relationship problems.”

“You realize we’re not exactly close, right? Are you sure you want to confide in me?”

“So as I was saying, there’s this guy I liked but he doesn’t like me back and this other dude likes me and I may or may not like him back as well but I’m so confused about what I should do.”

“…Are you at least eating regularly and leaving the house and not updating your profile with lyrics of sad love songs and profile pictures of sad people or abandoned cats in the rain?”

“I said I was confused not broken.” Besides, I could never give up food or bibimpap. Also, I’ve been without a phone for a while now, I’m using the telephone for crying out loud.

“Good. So how long have you been confused?”

“…Like…nearly a full flipping month, I just got rejected by my crush a while ago and I’m trying to get over it. So far so good..and bad. Cause I don’t want to go after Sehun if I’m confused cause then he might feel like a rebound.”

“The one thing stopping me from hanging up right now are my morals.”

I gritted my teeth and on my teeth. The one thing separating me from that guy was distance! “You’re not going to help me, are you?”

He hummed in thought, “Mmm, not really, no. Just go see the guy and sort things out. I’m hanging up now. Have a nice day.”

The beep on the other end of the phone basically told me that he hung up. I regretfully whined and my gaze drifted towards a poster of Myungsoo I cut out from a magazine. I stuck out my bottom lip and crossed my arms. “You!” I exclaimed, “If you could have just met me in person and dated me I wouldn’t have to go through this!” Who am I kidding, I don’t even know the guy personally.

Realizing this was pointless I couldn’t help but think back to the last time I saw Sehun and the things he told me before I left.

“You like Lay, right?”

Gosh, it was still fresh in my memory, I could recall the cynical tone he used.

“I just told you I like you, what’s so confusing about that!?”

Twiddling my thumbs together, my leg started jumping up and down as an unknown feeling started to pool in the pit of my stomach.

“Tell me you felt nothing when we kissed. Look me in the eye and tell me it was nothing, and I’ll let you go.”

I never could…because I felt something for sure. I can’t simply forget something like that. His lips were soft, he was gentle and as a matter of opinion, I’d say it was almost perfect, the kiss I mean. I felt at ease and it felt right. I’ve never gotten the opportunity to kiss Lay and I probably won’t ever receive it, but if I think about the kiss with Sehun, it was different. Lay barely crosses my mind if I think about kissing Sehun. What am I even contemplating at this moment, this is so unlike me!

“Go. Until you can sort your feelings out, don’t make this worse than it already is. I shouldn’t have said anything.”

Shame, that’s what I felt. How dare I do this to him? It must have been hard for the guy to even muster up the courage to confess something like that considering his character in the time that I’ve known him.

“It’s not going to be fun there if you’re not there with me.”

Thank foodness no one was around to see my face right now, it probably looks like I fell into blush or something. Just remembering how he kissed me afterwards made me shudder and my lips were twitching as if the sensation of it was recent…

I remembered when he kissed me out of all things, I brought up Myungsoo. My eyes drifted back to his picture and with a heavy sigh, I walked towards it and gave it a longing look. “Look, oppa. It’s been…It’s been fun. But I don’t..I don’t think I can…Oppa what I’m trying to say is…This is so hard!” I loudly wailed, not caring who could hear me. “Oppa! I can no longer be one of your big fans!” I clutched my hands into a fist and bit my lip. “I’m…I’m going to try and commit myself to a guy, oppa! I can’t do that if I go on about you like this so, I’m going to let you go. Instead, I will support infinite as an inspirit. I’m sorry oppa, it’s not you, it’s me, and kinda Sehun but please understand.” With a dramatic shriek I took the picture down.

“I worry about you sometimes.”

I looked up and found Luhan giving me a questioning look with a cup of coffee in his hands.

“Thank you.” I quickly responded and gave him the picture.

“What am I supposed to do with this?” He raised a brow.

“Keep it from me, duh.” I made it sound like it was the most logical thing to do. “I have a man to hunt.”

I felt like a stalker.

I was waiting for Sehun to walk out of the building, I was basically under the tree in front of the building and I’ve been here for a while and IT’S SO COLD it feels like I’m sunbathing in a freezer, for crying out loud!

Where’s Sehun!?

Can’t he telepathically feel me out here!?

There’s no way I’m going in that building again, it’s too quiet and professional-looking and everyone’s in suits and I feel so out of place waltzing in there with a pair of converse, washed out jeans and an old and baggy jacket. Plus, my hair is in a messy bun, I didn’t have the patience to tame my bush that is my hair.

If my finger nails start turning blue I’m going home.

I’m serious.

How long does it take to do admin work!?

Jeez, I’m never going to last in that building.

Great, I’m visibly shivering. Do you see what happens when I let go of Lay and give up being a huge fan of Kim Myungsoo, Oh Sehun!? This is for you, man! THIS IS FOR YOU!

My eyes caught sight of a figure exiting the building and I immediately saw the car keys in his hand. I made a wild dash around the building to the parking lot, Sehun still hadn’t seen me, I spotted the familiar car I once had the privilege of being in and ducked behind the passenger seat.

My prey is approaching. I am such a skilled hunter.

As he came closer I internally admitted that he looked so good in that crisp black suit and even though his hair was messily styled I just loved it so much, gosh, what’s his secret, how can he look like that?

Just as he was about to unlock the car door I jumped up. “WAIT! DON’T GO!”

“OH SWEET CRISPY PEANUTS!”

…What?

“SO HEREEEE I AAAM,” I was serenading him now, someone stop me. “WITH OPEN AAAARMS~!” I spread my arms on either side for effect.

“Chenguang?” He asked in disbelief as he clutched his stomach with a scared and guarded look on his face.

I nodded my head and stopped singing. I was so nervous now, why did I think ambushing him in a parking lot was a great idea?

“What are you doing here?” He said through clenched teeth as he leaned against the car for support, I must have seriously scared him, now I feel bad.

Hunting. “I came to see you.” I said it like it was the most obvious thing ever.

“Okay, why?” He coldly asked and actually looked at me. The look he gave me made me uncomfortable, it was dull and blank, I couldn’t hold his gaze for long and hurriedly looked away.

“B-because you told me to.” I meekly replied, I suddenly felt very small.

Sehun scoffed, “When did I-“

“You told me to find you when I figured out my feelings.”

He paused and shifted a bit, he softly responded. “And? Did you?”

“I..” It was so easy earlier on why is it so hard now!? “I think so.”

“You think so?” He asked in a shocked voice and then he cynically laughed. “I told you to come to me when you figured your feelings out, not when you thought you did. Goodbye, Chenguang.” He opened the car with a button on his keys and got in and quickly shut the door.

“Wait! Sehun!” I panicked and quickly grabbed the handle on the passenger’s side and got in. This isn’t even my car what am I doing?

To say Sehun was shocked was an understatement, he was shocked and furious. “You have three seconds to get out right now.” He warned me with a sharp glare. “Three.”

I gave him a pleading look but he only returned it with a cold one. “Sehun, please, just hear me out!”

“Two.”

I acted without thinking and grabbed his keys and pressed a button, a noise went off and the doors of the car automatically locked. Sehun was bewildered for barely a second until he practically climbed over the seat to grab his keys from me.

“Give it back!” He yelled.

“Only if you listen to me!”

“You’re in no position to make propositions, Chenguang. Give. Me. The. Keys.”

I dodged his hands wildly and clutched on to the keys like Smeagol did with the ring, Sehun could not have the precious or else I’d never get this out of the way. “Sehun, just listen!”

“No!”

It was so awkward being in the passenger seat trying to avoid a very mad car owner who is wrestling me for his car keys.

I never thought Sehun was this strong.

Seeing that he was so persistent and it looked like he wasn’t going to listen any time soon, I did the unthinkable. I cupped the side of his cheek with my one hand, the gentle action took him my surprise for a second. I used that to my advantage and leaned in, my lips brushed against his. It was silent, Sehun was practically frozen in position with his eyes wide open while I kept mine shut, refusing to move. If this is what it took to calm him, I would have done this long ago. Neither of us moved for a good ten seconds until Sehun pulled away and slumped in his seat.

“Why are you doing this to me?” He softly mumbled and brought his hands up to his face. “I was getting ready to get over you and now you show up all of a sudden and you do things like this.” He looked at me with a pained expression that made me feel so guilty. “Is this what you wanted? To see me like this, because of you? I know I wasn’t the best person to you but was this really necessary?”

Hey, don’t make me out to be the guilty one here, mister. “I missed you, okay?” I finally blurted out. He said nothing so I just continued. “I didn’t know what to do after that day. I tried asking for help but it was so…unhelpful. I was confused and things just weren’t the same and I felt so bad.”

I leaned back in the seat and twiddled my thumbs together. “I even confessed to Yixing.”

Sehun’s head turned in my direction in surprise, he looked like he wanted to say something but then he closed his mouth again. “What happened?” He mumbled.

“I got rejected.” I tried responding as nonchalantly as possible, people get rejected, and it happens, might as well move on.

Sehun let out a snort and quickly silenced himself after he saw the glare I gave him, I could still see his lips twitching to form a smug smile though. At least he hasn’t changed much.

“He likes someone else.” I rolled my eyes. “It isn’t easy but I’m getting over it, so far so good.”

“Rejection feels horrible, doesn’t it?”

“Quiet Sehun, I’m explaining myself. Anyway, things are going well so far, I can speak normally to Yixing now, but it doesn’t feel the same. Like, I’m calling him Yixing now. See what I mean when I say it just isn’t the same? I don’t get butterflies or any of that lovey dovey stuff, just the reminder that this guy rejected me.”

“There’s a point to all of this, I’m just waiting for it.” He sarcastically remarked. Gosh, that was one thing I didn’t miss.

“Don’t rush me, I took down my Myungsoo poster because of you!” I frowned.

“Oh goodie.”

“I did it so I could properly like you!” I tried justifying myself.

“Sweetheart, after how you left me the last time you and I spoke, you’re going to have to do more than that to convince me.” He scoffed and did his signature eye roll.

“I kissed you!” I stressed, “Willingly!”

He shrugged nonchalantly. “Yeah, and? I kissed you too, but unlike you, I knew why.” Sehun shifted a bit and locked his intense gaze on me. There was no playful smirk, no bored-looking eyes. Just a serious and stern expression. “Chenguang, I really like you. If you realized how serious I am about this, then you will realize I don’t want to hear about how you feel about Lay or a celebrity. I care about what you think about me, because right now, at this moment, I really want to kiss you but I don’t think this is going to work out if you don’t know what you want.” He whispered the last part, his confident tone broke a bit towards the end as if it took him a lot to admit this.

I chewed the inside of my cheek and this time, I made sure not to look away from him.

I was done running away.

Sehun wasn’t done yet. “So, tell me. Tell me right now, what is it that you want? Are you just here because I’m your last resort, because you pity me, or because you took me seriously and you feel the same way I do?” Sehun’s eyes weren’t guarded, his posture was slumped, he just looked so tired and broken down I just wanted to hold him and tell him that everything will be okay, and that I’m here for him.

“I’m stressed from work, I miss you guys, I want things to go back to the way they were.” He reached over and grabbed my hand, a feeling of nostalgia crept up on me and I slowly wrapped my hand around his. “It’s not the same. I don’t know what’s going on and I’m so confused and lost so just tell me right now, do you like me or not?”

There it was again, those tingly sensations in my stomach which went through my toes and fingers. The words I wanted to say was on the tip of my tongue, all I had to do was say it. It sounded so simple so why was it so hard?

“Sehun..” I whimpered.

He didn’t say anything, instead I felt his grip on my hand tighten and that’s when I realized that Sehun was probably way more nervous than I was. It wasn’t easy to tell Lay how I felt and it was even harder trying to get over him. This was a completely different situation in which I actually decided to give this a shot, to allow myself to experience something new.

“Look, Sehun, there’s lots of girls out there that probably would be a good match for you. A girl who actually has a sense of fashion and who is quiet and gentle.” I could already see a pained look forming on his face but I continued anyway. “My experience with Yixing opened my eyes, I could have sat there and moped about it…Which, I kind of did but I couldn’t let that stop me. I had to buck up and get back on my feet and I did, I got myself together and faced the situation head on once I felt I was ready.”

“There’s a point to all of this I’m just waiting for it.”

“Will you stop belittling me for just one minute!?” I spat and gripped my hands into fists at the manner of how he was handling this.

“You need to understand that right now I’m torn between kicking you out my car and kissing you and believe me, sweetheart, I want to do both and the first one sounds very tempting.”

I visibly flushed at his words which caught me off guard. “C-can you j-just let me explain?”

“Nervous?” He scoffed. “Listen we’re getting nowhere with this.”

It was my turn to scoff at him. “I’ll say.”

“Listen here, missy, and listen well.” He leaned over towards me and I automatically tried fitting myself into the car door but alas, I was trapped and this guy was practically hovering over me. No, seriously, I could smell his cologne. I am not okay. I don’t even know where to look.

“I-I’m listening!” Why am I stuttering so much!?

“You know I like you, right?”

Words cannot express how incredibly nervous yet over the moon I am right now. I didn’t trust my mouth to say anything so I resorted for a determined nod of my head.

“If you really want this to work out, you need to consider me as well.” His eyes softened and he brushed a strand of my hair from out of my face, his hands were so warm. “If you like me as much as you claim to do, then understand that I don’t favour the idea of you gushing about other men.”

I shook my head and held his hand in my own with a steady grip and looked him straight in the eyes, I wasn’t going to back down. “I won’t! I even took down my Myungsoo picture!”

It took a great amount of time but I saw a tiny smile make its way onto his face. “Good. Because the only guy I want you to romantically favour is me. The only guy allowed to make you feel flustered and embarrassed is me. The only guy allowed to kiss those lips…” He closed the gap between us and this time, it was him who initiated the kiss. It was a simple peck. His lips against mine. They were soft, warm and the mere action sent a whir of emotions through me. It felt…nice. “The only guy allowed to kiss those lips is me.”

I cannot believe it.

“Oppa, please, give me my phone back.”

“Just wait.”

“Sehun.”

“What did you just call me and how dare you address me in that tone, young lady, I am the older one in this relationship.”

“Sehun Oppa, can I please get my phone back?”

“Much better, but no, not yet.”

That ogre-like whine sound that echoed through Fluffy’s Refuge was mine. It was break time and Sehun frequented the shop whenever he was done with work or when he was on break. It had been four months since the two of us made up and the two of us were officially a thing. Kyungsoo was on his last month of working at Fluffy’s Refuge until he became a full time student at SM Arts. It was somehow convenient. Let me tell you why.

After noticing just how unhappy Sehun was at the company, his father finally realized that he shouldn’t constrict Sehun from doing what he wants. Needless to say Sehun and his family are on good terms now and you could see it because Sehun actually seemed more approachable. In fact, I received a personal apology from both his parents though it was kind of awkward…Haewon eventually let go of Sehun, not just because she realized she wouldn’t get him, but because a young man by the name of Chanyeol began working at the company. Sehun was already back in the club he was forced to let go of and left Accounting classes and for the greatest news I’ve heard all month, he was going to work at Fluffy’s Refuge once more. As for Lay and I, the two of us were cool. We were simply good friends now who could comfortably talk to each other.

“I told you Chenghun would be real.” Tao triumphantly grinned as Suho rolled his eyes and huffed at Lay who blinked back owlishly.

“What?” Lay innocently asked.

“I can’t believe I cheered for you, man.” Suho shook his head.

“But they’re so happy together.” Lay smiled.

“What are you doing, anyway!?” I yelled at him and tried to unsuccessfully swipe my phone from him.

“I’m deleting all pictures of guys that aren’t me, in other words, I’m deleting pictures of these boy bands.”

“OPPA!”

“Oh, right, wear something nice tonight. I’m taking you out.” He nonchalantly replied as he dodged another incoming attempt. “Before you ask, my parents would like to properly meet you seeing as you’re someone I’m serious about.”

“You can’t just spring news like that on me!” I protested.

“I just did, though. Jeez, you have a lot of pictures. I might as well format your memory card-“

“NOOOOOOOOOO!”

“Anyway, dress fancy.”

I stomped my foot on the ground. “You know I don’t do fancy!”

By now, Tao, Lay and Suho had already left the room. Kyungsoo was out touring the SM Arts building and wouldn’t be back till break was over.

“It’s only for tonight, why are you making such a big deal about it?”

Why wasn’t he!? Doesn’t he realize what he was asking of me?

“But these kind of things take planning and stuff, how am I supposed to-“

A soft peck on my cheek cut me off as arms wrapped themselves around my frame making me feel warm and secure, I instinctively snuggled closer and relaxed.

“Don’t worry, it will be different this time.” He assured me.

“The good kind of different?”

He chuckled and nuzzled my head affectionately, causing me to smile.

“Yeah, the good kind of different.”

Finished! (like two years or so, give or take a few later)

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Fluffy's Refuge

Story by: AgentWaffles

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