I'm just a lonely man with no one to love. I tried once, but all I gained was pain. As any man, I want to love and be loved. I want someone who cares for me, someone who accepts me, even with my many flaws. Being someone else didn't worked for me, it never did, but being myself only pushes people away from me. They think I'm a freak, and who knows I probably am. 

Since I was a child I've been miserable. I never met my mother, I've escaped from an abusive father...he always told me I've been the worst thing that happened to his life, and who knows, he's probably right. I'm the one who brought pain to his once perfect life. Me being born caused my mother to die. I bring pain and misery to everyone around me. Sometimes, I wish I was dead. That way, people wouldn't suffer anymore. 

Who would love me? I'm a cursed man. Everything I love ends up disapearing....
But I'm only human. At least, that's what I would like to believe. My life is nothing but darkness. My life is nothing but pure agony. Each second I live it's just more time I wished I never saw what a smile meant.

Each breath I take I wish I never saw him. Every single moment of my stupid life has turned upside down as soon I saw that caring, sweet, warm smile. That smile that I would ruin in instants if came close to me.
And those eyes...how could I forget those eyes?

They were looking, staring at me in a way no one as ever looked at me before.
They weren't scared, they weren't afraid and they weren't feeling sorry for me...Who am I kidding?
Who would look at me with such care? Without feeling disgusted? Why would HE look at me like that?

I'm nothing. I'm just a piece of garbage that he saw. 
For a moment, I swore I could feel my heart beating again but....why would he look at me? Why would he smile at me...
Why would such perfection look at a freak?