I waited and waited.

I waited for Jessica to come. My tears haven’t stopped falling and I’m on the verge of losing myself, yet the person I’ve been waiting for still hasn’t arrived

I looked at my phone; there was no sign of any new messages. ‘Where are you Jessica?’

Minutes later, I heard the front door open and instead of greeting Jessica with a bear hug, I was glued to where I was seated. The things written in that god forsaken notebook just kills every part of me. I snapped back to reality as soon as Jessica gave me a gentle, warm hug.

“Sorry I’m late…” She pulled away and cupped my cheeks, “Would you like to tell me what happened?”

I hugged her again, “Maybe later… Sleep with me?” Jessica nodded and instead of sleeping in my room, I’ve decided to just sleep in her room instead. As we lay on her bed, Jessica brushed my hair gently using her fingers. Funny, somebody used to do this to me too, not that I mind but just by the thought of Taeyeon hurts me

“Tell me you don’t know anything about that notebook…” Jessica stopped midway of brushing my hair and then after a minute, she continued

“I did know something about it… But never the contents of it…”

I nuzzled closer to her neck, “You don’t have to read it if you don’t want to Tiffany… Don’t force yourself…”

I breathed in deeply, “Every beginning has an ending. Maybe she has a reason why she gave me that, and that’s what I wanted to know…”

Jessica chuckled a little, “Then she has the weirdest way of telling you so…”

I looked at her in the eyes and furrowed my eyebrows, “She made you read her diary…”

“What’s so weird about that?” Jessica looked up at the ceiling then returned her gaze back at me again, “Hmmm, I don’t know… It’s just that diaries are something that I consider private stuff… And then making somebody read it is just really weird… It’s like, what’s the use of having a diary when you’re going to make somebody read it in the end? It’s funny that way… But since its Kim Taeyeon’s diary, I have no more questions about it…”

I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion while Jessica just smiled at me, “Just go to sleep already! I’m also tired…”

I hugged her again, “Am I still on the right track Jessi?”

She pulled me closer, “Even if you weren’t anymore, I’ll always be there to bring you back to where you should be…”

I smiled a little… Maybe this is the reason why I kept Jessica beside me even though she wanted to let go already…

***

Morning came and I saw no one beside me. ‘I guess she left now’

I sat and stretched a little. It’s a good thing that its weekend today, it’ll be bad news if it weren’t. But before I got off the bed, I saw a pink paper on the bedside table. I took it, of course and read what’s on it

-Sorry to leave so early, went out to buy some groceries… Stop crying already, you look ugly (No offense intended)

Be back by 9am…

Love you,

Jessi

I scoffed a little, I look ugly!? Seriously?! Ugh… Oh well, it’s the typical Jessica J