“Where do you want to start off first?” Dr. Han asked.

                “I-I’m not sure.” After those thoughts at the party, Soo Yun had decided that she probably needed help, professionally. She found Dr. Han, a therapist, who helps with troubles in a couple’s relationship, most likely like affairs and divorce. But Soo Yun was here by herself. Jaejoong didn’t know she was doing this and she’d like to keep it that way. She felt more comfortable to talk to Dr. Han alone.

                “Okay,” Dr. Han said and cleared . “Let’s start with why. Why did you suggest this open marriage even though you’re not the one taking advantage of it?”

                Soo Yun in a deep breath. “Too make Jaejoong…happy.”

                “Do you really think this makes him happy?”

                “Yes?”

                “Is that an answer or a question?” Dr. Han raised an eyebrow. She felt sort of intimidating.

                Soo Yun sighed and closed her eyes. It was always easier when she closed her eyes. She thought more clearly that way. Plus, it held back the tears. “I was just so tired and hurt of seeing him struggle with himself. I hated how every time he looked at me he’d get mixed emotions, as if weighing the pros and cons. It was getting hard to see him go through this, and I knew that soon he’ll just succumb to whatever and have an affair.”

                “And this is any better, because?”

                “I’m allowing it,” she instantly replied and opened her eyes. “I get to call the shots, the rules, everything. I would hate it if he cheated behind my back, because then it would hurt so much more. It’d be like he chose her, and I’m the only one in this whole relationship who gets broken. There’s going to be an argument and I just won’t win for sure. There would be no point in fighting for someone you already lost. I’m going to be drained mentally and physically for nothing.”

                “Aren’t you drained now?” she asked softly.

                Soo Yun shrugged. “I’m not screaming at the top of my lungs every day. Don’t you think he’ll do so much worse if I fight back? If I had pushed in the first place, he would’ve pushed back. Right now, Jaejoo