Here I am . Sitting infront of big window in my bedroom . Looking at dark sky with rain pouring nonstop . ' How I wish you were here .. I missed you so much ..' . I thought to myself . Without warning my tears rolling down nonstop .

" Yoona-yahh .. are you alright ? " I heard Yuri unnie call my name . I didn't reply her and keep looking outside window . Staring at the dark sky with teary eyes .

" I miss him , unnie .. ottokaji ? " I can hear my voice crack . All my memories with him appears in my mind . How he liked to cuddle with me in raining days .

" Yoona - yahh .. its has been 2 years already . Pleasee , dongsaeng-ah .. don't tortured yourself . It hurt me seeing you like this .. and .. he will definitely don't want you to be like this , yoona-yahh .. " Yuri said . I know she tried her best to comfort me . But trust me its not that easy . 

" its not that easy , unnie . H-how I wish I can easily forget him .. and .. move on .. I tried but all I can see is him .. the memories me and him keep appear whenever I tried to forget it .. " I know the moment I mention about him there is no way I can stop crying . All about him so tempting .

FLASHBACK .

Today is the last day before our vacation . Yuri unnie and Tiffany unnie already leave like 10 minutes ago . Three of us are in senior year right now .

" jagiya ~ . I missed you " I feel someone back hugging me . I looked over my shoulder and smiled warmly at him . 

" yah , Yesung oppa .. why are you late ? I been waiting for you like 30 minutes " I pout at him . He turned me around and put my hand around his neck while his arm wrapped tightly around my waist .

" 30 minutes , huh ? You know , my dear .. before I came here , I bumped to Yuri and Tiffany . They said they just leave you around 10 minutes ago . " I can see him smirked at me . I looked away from him . Not wanting to looked at his eyes .

" hey .. look at me . I know I'm late and I'm sorry . The boss of mine don't let me out earlier because of a stupid meeting . I'm sorry , okayy ? " Yesung said . I look at his eyes and smiled sweetly at him .  

"Its okay . I forgive you . " I said . He bring my face closer to him and smiled one last time before kissed me . After a moment I break the kissed and I heard him growled .

"I'm not done yet . Why you pulled away ? " I swear he looked so cute when pout . I laughed at his antic . 

" man .. you need to learn how to control your hormone . We are in public . " I said and peck his lip one last time before drag him away . He chuckled at my remarks .

END FLASHBACK .

The rain still pouring nonstop . Just like my tears . I feel so cold right now . How much I missed his warm . I heard Yuri unnie sigh .

" You know what day today is ? " I nod my head slowly .

" so .. are just going to sit here and doing nothing ? Come on , yoona .. today his memorial day . Don't you want to go ? " asked Yuri . I shake my head . I feel someone drag me away from window and make me stand in the middle bedroom . I look at Yuri unnie with shock face .

"I'm telling to STOP torture yourself , Yoona-yah ! This is NOT you ! Its time for you to let it go and move on .. " my eyes widened when Yuri unnie start raising her voice . She never raise her voice to me . Never ! 

" u-u..unnie .. I..I-I can't . I've tried b-but I can't .. everytime .. I want to forget him .. the more my heart break into pieces . Its so .. painful .. unnie .. " i burst out . My eyes start to tearing . Yuri unnie look softened after she see me cry .

"Yoona-yahh .. I'm so sorry . I never meant to hurt you .. i-i just don't see you like this . Im so sorry , my dear .. " yuri said . I'm crying so hard that I can feel yuri unnie clothes wet because of my tears . 

FLASHBACK .

" oppa . Yesung oppa ~ .. " I called him cutely . I can hear footsteps coming closer to living room . I smiled to myself .

" yes , my love .. what is it ? Are you sick ? " He asked . I nodded my head cutely like 6years old kids . He come closer to me and put his hand on my forehead . His form a cute frown .

" love .. are you sure you sick ? " he look at weirdly . I nodded my head again .

" yes .. I'm sick of being alone . I need someone to hug me . can you hug me ?? " I said while looked at him with puppy eyes . He chuckled at my antics .

" oh my god , yoona-yahh .. I really thought you sick . Aigoo .. this girl . " Yesung oppa said while hugging me tightly .

" well .. its not my fault that you so dense . But its okay . I still love you not matter what happen . " I said . He laughed at me .

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" yoona .. my love . I'm sorry I can't come home early . I have last minute meeting . I'll make up to you " yesung said over the phone . After he ended the called I sighed loudly . Today is our 3rd anniversary . I already cooked for him and set up a romantic dinner for both of us . But its okay . I understand his work .

# I'll be home soon . Wait for me , okay ? - yesung

# its okay . No need to rush . I will wait you forever . Kekeke - yoona

# really ? Thats will be great . Oh , my dear before too late . I want to wish happy 3rd anniversary . I hope you stay healthy and continue to spread your happy virus . Kekeke . - yesung

#kekeke .. isn't too early to wish . But happy 3rd anniversary to you too oppa . I hope you will fulfilled your promises to me . I will waiting . - yoona

# I will try my best . But don't be mad at me if I can't fulfilled my promises to you , okay ? Keke . Btw , I need to go . I will call you when I'm gonna go home . - yesung

# okay . Oppa hwaiting! I love u .

# thanks , my love . Take care yoona . I love you so much . - yesung

I smiled when I read his messages . Such a sweet person .  

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I sighed for the fourth times . I looked at clock that hanging on the wall show 11 am . And Yesung oppa still not coming home . I'm so worried about him . ' I will until 1 pm . If he still not here I will call his office .'

1 PM .

He still not coming home . I called his number one last time , hoping that he will answer his phone . But it just another voicemail . Thats it !  Just I about to called his office the unknown number call me . I hesistant for a while . After the 4 rings I pickup the call . 

BUUKKKKKKKKK !!!

My phones drop on the floor . I can't feel my legs anymore and drop in the floors . My tears streaming down . My heart broken to million pieces .

Just now ..

# Hello . yoona -yahh ! its me Leeteuk oppa .

# oh ! Leeteuk oppa .. waeyo ?

# yoona ! I want you to calm down and listen to me carefully .

# oh my god ..kekeke . Why so serious oppa ? H-

# yesung involved in terrible accident !and  he in hospital right now !! 

# ???

# yoona ! Are still there ? Yoona ??!! If you hear me , you need to come here ! Hurry up yoona ! Before its too late ..

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When I arrived at the hospital . I ran to leeteuk oppa . He waiting me outside the room . I walked at him slowly with my teary eyes .

" listen to me .. I want you to hold yourself . " he said .

" w-what ? Where he is , oppa ? Where is yesung oppa ?! " I asked him

" his here . But .. yoona-yahh .. its too late . " I heard leeteuk oppa voice cracked .

" w-what ?? What do you mean . I-i want to see him .. " I said while holding my tears . He bring me inside the room . Once I step inside the room all I can see is Yesung oppa friends crying beside the bed .

I scanned around the room and my eyes stay at one person that laying on the bed . Looked paled . I walked closer to see the person . My eyes widened and automatically my tears rolling down . I hold the bed for prevent me to fall down . The person who she loves with all her heart laying in a white bed . Couples of bruise on his head and body .

" o-oppa .. yesung o-oppa . I'm here , my love . Please .. tell me y-you just take a nap .. right ??? " I asked nobody .

" Y-you c-can't leave me . Don't you r-remember your p-promises ?? " i continued

" yoona-yah . I'm sorry . But his gone already . " I can hear heechul oppa said to me . But I choose to ignored him .

" oppa .. wake upp .. pleaseee ... I'm not ready to lost you ..pleasee .. wake up !! I'm begging you .. oppa .. " i don't care right now . All i want to do is crying with all my heart .

" i never has chance to say goodbye .. why can't you wait .. me ? Don't you l-love me .. oppa .. pleasee .. don't leave me .. "

All the members start crying the moment they heard my cry  .

END FLASHBACK .

So here I am . Standing infront of his tombstone . Yesung tombstone . Everyone were here . The family , the members and me .HIS lover . The rain have stop around hour ago . But my tears never want to stop . 

I look at his tombstone . " Oppa . Yesung oppa ~ . I miss you so much . How have you been ? Oppa .. I think I'm sick again .. c-can you come a-and .. hug me ? I know its has been two years after you left me .. but I still can't over you .. "

I feel someone hold my shoulder . I know it was yuri unnie .

" ..I know it will take long time to forget you ..but .. I will try again .. to move on .. pleasee .. rest in peace oppa . If you can wait for a while , I will come to you .. one day! Wait for me oppa . I love you . And i miss you .. " I said one last time before look at sky .

Wait for me , oppa . But for now .. please rest in peace . I love you , yesung oppa . Always n Forever .