"Mwo?" I looked at him

He looked at me "When we're young, I always protected you when you always get bullied by our classmates. I was there when you 

were always down. I was like your older brother at that time. I gave you a friendship bracelet that symbolizes our friendship but I 

think you're not sure if it's still with you. Tell me honestly. Is it still with you?"

I looked down and looked at him "Honestly, I'm not sure if it's still with me"

He looked away and nodded

He looked at me straightly to my eyes. Tears were started to form in his eyes "I know you also don't feel the same like the way I do

but I'm begging you that please keep the friendship bracelet even though it's not important to you"

He stood up and went away. I found myself crying. I really don't know what to do if Donghae will ignore me. I don't want to loose him.

I really don't want. If I'll loose him, I don't have him anymore as my life saver. I decided to went to my room and laid down in my bed.

I cried in the pillow. Someone opened the door.

"Xenia-sshi, are you okay?" Sulli asked as she sat on my bed

"Ne" I said as I was covering my face with my pillow

"I know you're not"

I sat up 

"Xenia-sshi, what happened?" she asked

"I really don't know what to do if I'll loose him"

"Who?" 

I looked at her "Donghae"

"You like Donghae?" her eyes went huge

"Aniya. He asked me if the friendship bracelet is still with me that he gave me when we we're still in 4th grade"

"Then?"

"I said that I'm not sure if it's still with me"

"Chincha? Then, where is the friendship bracelet right now?"

I looked down "I don't know"

"You better find it. Don't worry, he'll understand you" she said as she stood up

She sat on her bed "Yah! We'll go to a church tomorrow and do some ritual doings there since we are here for our retreat, right?"

I looked at her and nodded. She turned off the lights and we went to sleep. 

We went to church. Beside the church, there was a retreat house. We went inside the retreat house. The facilitator taught us

some about spiritual doings and all about some good teachings that God taught us. During our lunch, we went to the cafeteria,

we  met with Donghae but he just walked away. Is he really mad at me? Donghae, mianhe. Sulli, Gongchan and I sat on our

chairs and ate our lunch. I was looking at my food not even taking a part of it.

"Yah! Are you still bothered about it?" Sulli said

I blinked many times and looked at Sulli "De?"

"Aish! Stop thinking about that! We're here for our retreat, arachi?''

"What happened?" Gongchan asked

"Donghae got mad at her for losing their friendship bracelet when they we're still in 4th grade"

"Chincha?" Gongchan looked at me

I nodded at him 

"Don't worry, I know you'll find it" Gongchan said as he rubbed my back

"Gomawo" I smiled at him

He smiled back at me

After our spiritual doings, we went to the chapel to hear mass. I was seated beside Sulli and Gongchan during the whole mass. 

I was looking at Donghae but he doesn't look at me. I looked away and sighed. I hope he's going to understand me. I really don't

know where I placed it. I will try to find it when I go back to Seoul. After we hear mass, we went to the resort where we are staying.

We will go back to Seoul tomorrow morning. It's almost 4 pm. Sulli and Gongchan wants to see the sunset. So, they dragged me

going to the sea shore. We waited for the sunset. Sulli got tired so she went to buy drinks for us. While we we waiting, we sat on

the sand. There was a moment of silence. Gongchan broke the silence.

"Are you mad at me?"

"Why would I be mad at you?" 

"I thought you're mad at me for telling the truth that I like you" he looked down

"Aniya. I'm not mad at you" I smiled at him

He looked at me "Chincha?"

I nodded 

He sighed and looked at the beach "Yah! The sunset!" 

I looked at the beach and saw the golden yellow sunset. I was amazed of the sunset

"Where's Sulli?" I asked Gongchan still looking at the sunset

"I don't know"

"She missed the sunset" I looked at him

"Ne" 

There was an awkward silence. He broke the silence

"The last sunset I saw was with my cousin" 

I looked at him and he looked at me

"My cousin is now in California and I really miss him. He's like my older brother. He scolds like an appa and cares like an umma.

He's always there when I need him"

"I know he really miss you too"

He looked down "If I'm going to die in a few days, I want to see the last sunset with my love one"

"Yah! Why are you thinking about that!" 

He looked at me "I just said that I want to see the last sunset with my love one"

"And why are you thinking that you're going to die?" I asked curiously

"That's only an IF statement"

"Even though! Just please, don't think abou that"

"Arasso" he smiled at me

Please don't think about that Gongchan. We separated ways once and I don't want to let that happen again. I lost Donghae and

I don't want to loose you, Gongchan.