[Haeun's pov]

 "I like you, Haeun." Jin declared. He was really serious.

  I didn't know what to say. Jin was standing right in front of me, saying he likes me.

  But I didn't feel the same. I didn't even know what I was feeling.

  I saw how Jin was hoping I'd say the same thing to him.

 "U-Um.." I felt remorseful. "I-"

 "Don't say anything. I'll wait until you're ready to give me your answer." Jin said hastily and walked away and out of the pool.

  What am I going to do? I felt like breaking down in tears as I was so confused and frustrated.

****

  I came back to the room after a couple of ours.

 "Where were you?" Jungkook asked as he saw me, after coming into the room, walking straight to the bathroom.

  I was not in the mood to talk. Especially with Jungkook.

  I took a cold shower, got dressed in my pajamas and went to bed.

  Jungkook tried to start a conversation with me, but I ignored him.

****

 "Why did all of this became so ed up?!" I said a little too loudly while laying in my bed.

  It was 4a.m and I still couldn't fall asleep.

 "What's wrong?" A voice asked softly. I looked to my right and saw Jungkook sitting on his bed cross-legged, looking at me.

 "N-Nothing.." I stuttered. Why did he have to wake up? I groaned inwardly.

 "You can tell me, you know? I'll hear you out." Jungkook said softly.

  How can I tell you, when this regards you? I asked in my head as I was looking at him straight in the eyes.

 "It's nothing." I put on my best smile for Jungkook and turned my back on him.

  Don't confuse me. I closed my eyes tightly.

****

  The rest of the week went by slowly. Too slowly.

  I tried to act normally around Jin, but I just couldn't help but feel guilty.

  Jungkook started to act kind towards me. His small smiles making my heart beat faster.

  Every time I wanted to be alone, Jungkook would appear from nowhere.

****

  After landing in Korea and taking a bus to the school, all of us were gathered in the campus of our school.

 "I hope you had fun during this trip." Our homeroom teacher said. "After a week of relaxation, you'll have to come back to school." He continued and all the students around me groaned. "See you in school on Monday!" The teacher exclaimed and all of the students dispersed.

 "Hey, Haeun..." Jin softly called me as I started to make my way home. I turned around to look at him standing with a warm smile, the rest of BTS standing behind him.

 "Yeah?" I asked. I wanted to get out of there as soon as possible.

 "Do you want to go out tomorrow? Since it's Saturday.." He looked really hopeful. Don't make that face..

 "I'm sorry, but no. I just want to say at home, because the jetlag will be awful." I slightly smiled.

  From the corner of my eye, I caught a victorious smirk on Jungkook's lips.

 "Bye!" I quickly waved at the guys and walked away, not letting Jin say another word.

  I'm sorry, Jin. I'm too confused.

****

  The whole weekend I stayed at home. BTS tried to drag me out of my house, but to no avail.

  On Monday morning, I woke up, did my morning routine, ate breakfast and went to school.

  At school I tried to act as normal as possible. Jin was so kind to me that every time I saw him I felt so guilty.

  The day went by slowly. It was quite hard to get into the 'study' mode after a vacation, but I managed to get through the first day.

  We - BTS and I - were walking out of school.

 "Yah! I asked you the answer to the equation during Math class, but you raised your middle finger at me!" Jungkook yelled at me, while I looked at him incredulously.

 "Why should I help you?" I asked him as I halted to a stop.

 "Well, we're friends." Jungkook said and stood in front of me.

 "Since when? I recall you calling me a ." I commented, slightly jokingly. Jungkook's face turned slightly red from embarrassment as he cleared his throat. "So you do remember?" It was more of a statement than a question.

 "Yah-"

 "Could you two stop bickering?" Yoongi cut off Jungkook by yelling at us and massaged his temples.

 "No!" Jungkook and I shouted at the same time and glared at each other.

 "Then we'll leave you two alone to continue, because we're tired of you always fighting." Namjoon informed us and walked away.

 "You-"

 "Jungkook!" I was cut off by a female voice.

  Jungkook and I both looked at the school gates and saw a girl walking towards us.

  Who's she? I looked at back at Jungkook and saw his face harden.

 "Jungkook, I missed you so much!" The girl threw her arms around Jungkook's neck and kissed his cheek.

 "What are you doing here, Hyunah?" Jungkook spat out her name with disgust, but the girl cocked her head to the side innocently.

 "I came to get you back." The Hyunah girl answered, confidence dripping from her voice.

  Get back Jungkook? So she must his ex-girlfriend. The one who cheated on him.

 "Stop talking , Hyunah." Jungkook rolled his eyes. He then grabbed my hand and dragged me away from the girl and the school.

****

  After a long time of walking in silence, Jungkook halted to a stop in the part of town I didn't know.

  He was still holding my hand tightly.

 "Um... Jungkook.." I called his name softly.

 "W-What? Ah, s-sorry." Jungkook stuttered and let go of my hand, much to my disappointment, and blushed.

 "Who was she?" I asked cautiously.

 "My ex-girlfriend." Jungkook answered coldly, clearly not wanting to talk about it.

 "Where are we?" I asked as I looked around us. It was a busy street with many people and shops. "I've never been here."

 "I know where we are, my house is close." Jungkook said. "Do you mind coming to my house?" He asked with a shy smile.

 "Sure, it's starting to get a little too cold." I said and brought up my scarf up to my nose, and we walked away towards the direction of Jungkook's home.

  The house he lived in was a two-story, nice looking home.

  As I entered the house, a delicious smell hit my nostrils, making me drool.

 "You're home-" A beautiful middle-aged woman came out of what I figured was the kitchen. She stopped in her tracks as she saw me standing shyly next to Jungkook. "And you brought a girl home!" She exclaimed while clapping, surprising me.

 "Mom!" Jungkook whined as his face turned red and I couldn't help but laugh at him. He shot me a glare, shutting me up.

 "Hello! Nice to meet you, Mrs. Jeon. My name is Haeun." I bowed and introduced myself with a smile.

 "Nice to meet you too, sweetie!" Jungkook's mother came up to me and hugged me. "And call me mom, I don't like the sound of 'Mrs. Jeon'." She smiled a warm smile. "I made some bean paste soup, come, let's have dinner." After I took of my coat, Mrs. Jeon linked her arm with mine and led me to the living room, completely forgetting about Jungkook.

 "And what about me? I'm your son, remember?" Jungkook shouted from the hall.

 "And you live in this house, so you know where the dining room is, but your friend doesn't." Jungkook's mother shouted back. Both of them are so cute. I though with a smile.

  As Mrs. Jeon and I entered the dining room, I saw a middle-aged man was sitting at the table that was full of delicious looking food.

 "Honey, Jungkook brought a girl home, her name is Haeun!" Mrs. Jeon cheered and motioned at me with her hand.

 "Hello, nice to meet you, Mr. Jeon." I bowed at the male with a smile sitting at the table.

 "Nice to meet you, Haeun." Mr. Jeon nodded. "Come and sit, let's have dinner together." He gestured to a chair and Mrs. Jeon slightly pushed me to it.

 "I brought a girl home and you suddenly forget about me..." Jungkook sat at the table beside me with a pout.

 "But it's been such a long time since you brought someone, other then the boys, home." Mrs. Jeon reasoned. "Haeun, sweetie, dig in." She then nodded at me and I took a sip of the bean paste soup from the bowl in front of me.

 "It's so delicious!" I smiled at Jungkook's mom.

 "I'm so glad!" She exclaimed and clapped her hands, and we all dug in to the food.

****

 "It's been such a long time since I ate such delicious food." I said as we all finished eating the dinner, and it was now time for the desert - chocolate sponge cake.

 "I'm glad you liked it!" Mrs. Jeon smiled at me. "So you're in the same class as Jungkook?" She asked.

 "Yes, I am. I transferred to his school after moving to Seoul this autumn." I answered.

 "Where did you live before?" Mr. Jeon asked.

 "Manhattan, New York." I smiled at him.

 "So you're from US?"

 "Yes, I've been living there since I was four years-old."

 "Did you move here with your family?" Mrs. Jeon asked as I took a bite of the chocolate sponge cake.

 "No, I came here alone. My parents are involved in business, so it was more convenient for them to stay in the US." I answered and suddenly felt lonely.

 "It must be very lonely living by yourself.." Jungkook's mother nodded understandingly.

 "It is, but Jungkook and his friends keep me company from time to time." I nodded towards Jungkook and Jungkook's parents exchanged sly looks.

 "So, sweetie, do you have a boyfriend?" Mrs. Jeon asked.

 "Mom! Don't ask her anymore questions!" Jungkook shouted.

 "I don't mind your parents asking me questions, they're just curious about me." I placed my hand on Jungkook's bicep and looked back at his parents. "No, I don't have a boyfriend." I answered and Mr. and Mrs. Jeon looked pleased with my answer.

 "How can such a beautiful and kind girl not have a boyfriend?" Mrs. Jeon incredulously asked and I just shrugged my shoulders.

 "I should get going." I said as I stood up from my seat. "Thank you so much for the dinner!" I bowed to the Jeon's.

 "No problem, sweetie. If you ever get lonely, come here." Mrs. Jeon gave me a tight hug. I nodded in response.

  After get dressed up in my outerwear, I bid goodbye and exited the house with Jungkook, since Mrs. Jeon said she would let me go home alone.

 "I want to apologize for my parents." Jungkook said as we were walking down the street.

 "You don’t need to. They're really kind and welcomed me right away." I said and looked at Jungkook with a smile.

 "That's a relief then..." Jungkook sighed. "Can I ask you something?" Jungkook turned to look at me for a moment. I hummed in response, getting curious about what he's going to ask me. "What are your parents like?"

 "My parents? They're both really loving and protective over me since I'm their only child. My mom is like my friend; we sometimes have 'girl talks', get pampered and do other girly stuff." I smiled to myself, remembering all the times I had with my mother. "My dad is strict, but he acts like that because he loves me. But for quite some time now, we've been disagreeing alot." I ended sadly.

 "Why have you been disagreeing?" Jungkook asked.

 "He's looking for a husband for me." I answered.

 "But you're only seventeen.."

 "But my dad's really stubborn. I can't do anything." I heaved a deep sigh and shrugged my shoulders.

 "But if you find a boyfriend yourself and your dad approves of him, then you won't need to worry anymore." Jungkook said and I looked at him curiously. What are you implying? Or am I just expecting too much?

 "Even if I would find a perfect boyfriend, my dad wouldn't approve of him." I looked back to the front.

  While comfortably chatting, we reached the apartment complex I lived in.

  We bid goodbye to each other and went our own ways.

  For the rest of the day, until I fell asleep, Jungkook's warm smile as he said goodbye to me got stuck in my mind.

****

  The following day was really cold. I thought I would freeze my face off.

  After a long day of studying, I got dressed in my coat and exited the school.

  As I was nearing the school gates, I saw a couple kissing.

  When I walked closer, I saw it was Jungkook, even though I didn't see his face since his back was facing me, I knew it was him, and his ex-girlfriend, Hyunah.

  I felt a painful pang in my heart as I watched the scene in front of me. Then I felt something wet on my cheeks. I raised my hand to touch my right cheek and saw water-like liquid on my fingers.

  I'm crying? I couldn't believe it; it was such a long it since I've cried.

 "Haeun-" I heard Jin's voice behind me and turned around. "What happened? Why are you crying?" Jin asked worriedely as he held my shoulders, but I just kept crying and couldn't force a word out of my mouth.

  Jin then brought his hands around my body and I continued crying while I held handfuls of his coat.

  I'm in love with Jungkook..

[A/N]

  Hey!

  I'm updating this story quite frequently, it's surprising.

  This one is a long chapter so now, I will go and reward myself with some cookies.

  If you're curious about the guy who hurt me, he ing laughed at me for asking for an apology.

  Like, you injured me, you truck.

  If he would've apologized, I would've been like: wam, bam, thank you, man. But he was being an obnoxious , so I stomped on his foot and just walked away. I don't really get feisty, but he was asking for it.

  I want to have a serious talk right now.

  For a couple of months, I've been feeling rather down and I no longer find fun in my hobbies or studying my favorite subjects at school. I don't know what to do, so if you've felt like this before, I would be thankful if you'd help me.

  I've felt kind of like this a couple of years ago, when I attempted to commit suicide. And I'm really scared that I'll do the same thing again.

  Sorry if my serious talk ruined the mood.

  Bye!