14th August 2015

I tugged on each and every of his dainty fingers, twirling my fingers around them to enjoy their delicateness, sliding them up and down his entire length to admire each joint before pulling on his wrist tenderly to bring his hand towards my lips, placing a gentle kiss on every exposed surface area. Feeling a little playful, I let out a cheeky giggle before separating my lips and placing his ring finger in between my crooked teeth, biting down on it softly.

“Ouch! You naughty brat!” my lover yelped in pain as he yanked his hand away from me and patted the tip of my nose with his hurt finger.

Large doe-shaped brown eyes met almond-shaped lighter brown ones as Hyukjae lowered his head to establish an eye contact with me; who was currently lying comfortably in the lap of my lover.

I love you.

No words were needed as we silently exchanged our heartfelt emotions through our loving gaze. It was amazing how after the revelation I was finally able to pinpoint exactly what Hyukjae was feeling at any one point in time because his eyes were truly the window to his soul. That special glimmer in his eyes, which makes them appear lighter and slightly moist, paired with the subtle lowering of his single eyelid; that was tender love and affection. It was almost ridiculous how this same gaze was directed at me practically every day for a decade and I could never comprehend what it meant until today; I am finally able to read Hyukjae like an open book.

It has been almost a year since we were officially together as a couple, no more questions, riddles, confusion or accusation; we knew exactly what we were to each other. It has been a mad rush consisting of a rollercoaster of events lined-up for Eunhae as the popular duo and ‘OTP’ over the past year with a new Korean album, new Japanese album, Japan tour, magazine shoots, advertisements and even acting stints. SM Entertainment was obviously out to squeeze everything they could out of us before we enlisted tomorrow; together.

Isn’t it cute how my wish came true? I mean not really considering the fact that I had blatantly volunteered to get enlisted before my date so I could be with Hyukjae. I could never imagine life without Hyukjae, even before we got together, and then even more so after we did. We were inseparable for the past year, with me moving into his bedroom permanently within the dorm so we could spend every single second in between schedules together. We had also bought an apartment a little outside Seoul where we would spend our long breaks together just enjoying the peaceful company of each other.

Of course, there were a couple of times we had small couple arguments, mostly consisting of either one of Hyukjae’s flings, me messing up his belongings or minor things like what to eat. I knew Hyukjae only had eyes for me now and even before when he slept with those girls but I won’t deny that I am an easily jealous and highly possessive lover, with a murderous impulse surfacing every time I lay eyes on one of his ex-partners even so much as give a glance to Hyukjae. This was also one of the main reasons why I had whined to Leeteuk about attending any of the ‘Gayo Daejun’s in Korea because it was simply asking for attention as we get crowded into a shared waiting room with a dozens of other female groups, half of which were ex-lovers of Hyukjae. I was happy with our final decision to do our 2015 New Year’s Eve countdown in China where a bulk of our fans was any way.

“Are you nervous about tomorrow?” the sweet voice filled the room.

“Nope,” I answered with a confident shake of the head.

Forcing myself off the comfortable position, I sat cross-legged across my boyfriend as I cupped his cheeks and placed a peck on his soft luscious lips.

“I’m not afraid of anything as long as I’m with you.”

His gummy smile lit up the whole room and set my heart on fire; it never failed to do so every single time. Holding the picture perfect view for a couple of seconds, his eyes suddenly turned a tad bit dimmer as the smile faded slowly before turning into a tight one as he caught his lower lip with his teeth; he was nervous.

“What’s wrong baby?”

Hyukjae diverted his eye contact; a confirmation of anxiety. I clasped his cold hands in mine, a signal of support and comfort and silently urged him to go on with a tilt of the head to force an eye contact.

“I’ve been thinking…”

“Uh huh…”

“About what happens after we’re done with army…”

“Of course we’re gonna get married.”

Surprised light brown orbs met mine and I giggled in response. Silly Hyukjae, did he not think I would be able to tell what it was on his mind the moment he started? Did he not realise that I would have had the same issue on my mind ever since we got together a year ago?

“I’m thinking we’ll have a small, grand private wedding with just our families…”

I waited for an excited nod from my lover before going on.

“…probably in one of the smaller ballrooms at a grand hotel…at the expense of Siwon of course since we’re too stingy to pay for it ourselves…”

The endearing grin decorated the gorgeous face before Hyukjae toppled over in laughter at the truth lying beneath my comedic statement.

“And…I w