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He walked soullessly to his room, threw himself that still wearing the black leather jacket to bed. His eyes were staring at the ceiling, his stare was empty, and full of pain. In this soundless room, he could hear his own breath. Quiet, but it made him even more depressed. Thinking about someone that he shouldn’t think, someone that would never think about him.

The night breeze blew through his ​​window sidelines, cold piercing through every bone between his fingers. Even the cold night breeze couldn’t beat how cold was his heart, he always felt cold wherever he is. He always felt lonely even when he was in the middle of the crowd. At least, he still has a heart, he could feel it, because he knew that his heart is broken.

He didn’t know why Sora was crying. His curiosity about Sora would never go if he didn’t want to ask the answer. Sehun had never know about what’s inside Sora’s heart because he didn’t want to ask her the answer. Because for Sehun, the answer wasn’t important. He already knew what kind of answer that Sora would say:

She just has Luhan in her heart, and it will never change.

“Sehun,” The woman called him slowly, “did you… race again?”

But Sehun didn’t answer his Mom’s question, he just closed his eyes and pretended to sleep. The woman walked closer to her son, she took off his jacket and hang it on the coat hanger. She pulled the blanket, so Sehun wouldn’t feel cold, and then she his hair with full of Mom’s love.

“If I could pay all of my mistakes, I really, really wanted to pay it for you. Back to the old times when you were young, play with you, be the mother that always by your side. I don’t know what happened to you right now, but if I could take all of your pain and your hurt, I would. It will be better if the one who felt the hurt was me, not you, my son.”

And Oh Sehun really wanted to cry, wanted to hug his Mom tightly right now. But he couldn’t. All things that happened wasn’t his Mom’s fault, the death of his Dad wasn’t her fault. Maybe, when he was really young, he was so selfish that he hated his mom and even hated himself. But, now he understood that at that time it was God that wanted to bring his Dad to the heaven.

His mom walked out of the room and closed the door, leaving Sehun who was crying there, by himself. Leaving Sehun with his broken heart. Just the sound of his cry that could be heard in the room. Hurt and lon