“What if all I have is my suffering? My regret?”

- Interview With The Vampire (1994)

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“Jongin…”

“Hmm?” he answered, but his eyes still focused on the television. He played the soccer game alone because Sehun (as always) had lost his mood like a teenage girl these days.

“Shall I check to a doctor?” he touched his chest, where the heart always beat abnormally fast when he’s thinking about Sora. “It always beat fast, it doesn’t stop. It has been few years. I think I have some diseases.”

Jongin didn’t look at him, “Idiot. You don’t have to tell the doctor that your heart always beat faster when you’re thinking about her. You have to tell Sora that you’re falling in love with her, stupid.”

“What do you know about love? The only one that you know is ‘How to that s and put my on her tonight’, I’m not your friend for no reason.”

“At least I know how to ask girl out! Unlike you who only know ‘How to stalk her when she’s dating with my brother’, I’m not your friend for no reason.”

Sehun looked at the ceiling and closed his eyes. Jongin’s noisy sound didn’t even disturb him who was thinking about Sora. Jongin was right; at least he knew how to ask a girl out, unlike Sehun. Maybe Jongin is such a man- but he had that thing to ask a girl, but Sehun, he loved her and it’s only her but he couldn’t ask her out even just for once.

They were bestfriend, but Sehun didn’t feel that way. Sehun loved her, but she didn’t feel that way. That’s why Sehun felt like they didn’t mean to be together. They didn’t feel the same way.

**

“Can’t you just texting in your room? You ringtone disturbed me, so damn much!” Myungsoo covered his ears with pillows but Sora didn’t give a to her brother.

“Sora! Don’t you know I’m trying to focus to the television?”

“Yah! Kim Sora!”

Suddenly the bell rang and she stood up, “I’m going, anyways. Bye, Oppa!” and she walked to the front door.

Sehun didn’t blink when Sora opened the door. She’s the definition of simply beautiful, and she really fits in white. She was there, standing before Sehun with her white plain shirt, black skinny jeans that really fits her skinny legs and a pair of classic converse.

He didn’t know why this girl has to be beautiful in his eyes even for these past years.

“Who’s at home?”

She shrugged, “That chimpanzee.”

“Bet you fought with your brother, again?”

“Come on, Sehun! Myungsoo always picked on me. I don’t even want to have an older brother like him.”

“But at least he’s kind, and he’s your brother.”

Sora rested her chin in Sehun’s shoulder, she looked at Sehun through the rearview mirror and then breathed in. “You have him, too. A kind older brother, an older brother. It’s him.”

They were together but Sora always picked that topic back again, and again. Sehun drove his motorcycle and didn’t talk to Sora anymore, because he knew where the conversation would led to. He’d rather keep silent than knowing what will happens later.

Earlier when Sehun fell asleep in Jongin’s place, Jongin took Sehun’s phone and texted Sora secretly, pretending that he’s Sehun. He asked Sora to go out with him, because he couldn’t stay like this for too long. Sehun always had that chance to ask her out, but he didn’t use the chance.

When Sehun woke up and found a text message from Sora that she agreed to eat some ice creams with him, he questioned himself, was it a dream, or? Because he didn’t text her earlier but when he looked at the message, it’s strange.

“Kim Jongin!”

He smirked, “You’re very welcome. It’s my pleasure, Bro.”

“Don’t bro me! Was it you? You texted her? Did you? Did you?”

“Chill out, B