Hi! First of all I wanna say that the title is a word that came into my mind when I'm writing this but I'm not really sure if it fit the story when I finished.. but I couldn’t think of anything else.  

2nd- This fic is my delusional gri mind. I don't care. I believe in gri! Its about gd bday events, jiko and etc. 

3rd- Sorry that you guys will experiencing a rarely accurance of words vomit from me. This is really long for my standard. Also maybe I was being too ambitious and overestimate my ability. Really sorry if it bad. TT. And also I don't beta this. My beta is on vacation. I miss you girl!

Please enjoy...

Everybody in YG Family was excited and overjoyed with their annual concert in Korea. The concert felt like a big festival as well as a way of gathering for everybody under YG Entertainment. Though having a concert more or less was a normal occurrence to Bigbang, but they too were overwhelmed with the excitement since Bigbang didn't have new album and they were always busy with solo activity. This concert also felt like Bigbang get together. One person could be said was enjoying this moment more than another and he was no other than the leader of Bigbang; Kwon Jiyong. Though Jiyong excitement was more selfish than a mere gathering, he was excited because of one particular reason. His boyfriend, Lee Seungri. Because during times like this he could be closer to him and he had the chance to openly showed his affection to him for the world to see. Of course he would be happier during Bigbang solo concerts since he could claimed Seungri's attention only to him but he took what he could at the moment. Also in YG family concert, though he could still be lovey-dovey on stage, but his ‘difficult to control’ boyfriend aka maknae loved to be a social butterfly and will move around making ‘connections’. This nature of Seungri that Jiyong always found difficult to adjust to. But he knew he couldn’t do anything about it because he loved everything about Seungri even this special nature of him. Seeing Seungri looking happy and proud with his ‘networking’ also making Jiyong indirectly happy and proud with him too.

Smiling at the side, Jiyong watched jealously at Seungri taking selfie and joking around with others, he tried his best to calm down as not to damped the happy mood around them. This concert was special for them as the upcoming events after this concert were very important. Right after this concert, he will celebrated his birthday as well as Bigbang 8th year anniversary. He was very proud of his team for lasting this long and their maknae was the one who they should thanked the most. And for his birthday, he couldn't wait to tell his Seungri what he had plan for them. He really wished that everything went well as he planned it. A sudden shout for him and Seungri to prepare their special stage awoke him from his trance and he can’t help but smile widely. This is what he had been waiting for. He couldn’t wait to make Seungri blush when he on stage and he also couldn’t wait for Seungri to playfully declare his love to him. Because only at time like this that he felt as if they were announcing their true relationship to the world. Because nyongtory is always an open secret but it is a secret nevertheless. Jiyong hated it that he couldn’t openly warned people to stay away from his Seungri. He hated it when fans getting too close or when Seungri’s new acquaintance trying to get Seungri’s attention. Their ignorant of Seungri status as who he was belong to anger him to no end and combined with the fact that he couldn’t do anything about it had displeasure him even more.

So he decided, after tonight he will propose something special to Seungri. Something that could end his heartache and by all means, something that he believed will make their relationship stronger. He wanted other people to stop misunderstanding Seungri’s friendliness to them as if his baby had any interest on them. Seungri's sweet and seductive nature always gave wrong impression to people around them, always testing his level of endurance. Everytime he was dying to shout at their face that his Seungri belong only to him. Despite his trusting and understanding towards Seungri but he couldn’t help but felt unsettled. The ambiguity of their relationship always paranoid Jiyong into thinking that Seungri could be taken away from him. That was the nightmare that he wished to escape. 

And Jiyong had waited for the concert to end when the joyful and happiness feeling still lingering inside them. This was a perfect time for him to coax Seungri into agreeing to his plan. Seungri though was always bright and attentive, sometimes he was dense on how worry his boyfriend could be. Seungri took everything easily and he always satisfied  and comfortable with their current situation not like Jiyong. That was why Jiyong needed to find a good time to propose his plan, obviously Jiyong knew that this was something that Seungri will probably opposed but Jiyong couldn’t help but hoping otherwise. He couldn't hold back anymore. After all he had his birthday to lean on.

“Seungri-ah… Let’s go somewhere else. I need to ask you something.”

Jiyong purposely taking Seungri’s hand and pulled him in front of other members just to see the blush on Seungri’s face. Seungri, even after this whole time being together with Jiyong, he was still blushed shyly whenever Jiyong possessively holding him or whenever Jiyong purposely indicatively showing their private activity to other members. Jiyong loved watching Seungri flustered in front of others and the members will always roll their eyes annoyingly every time it happened. Seungri was more innocent than what people make him to be. And the one that responsible to most of the rumors is no other than Jiyong himself which the leader found it entertaining. However, today Jiyong was not playing, he really wanted to take Seungri to somewhere private to discuss his plan and Seungri as always will obediently follow his steps.

They were now cuddling and resting at Seungri’s house.

“Seungri- ah.. You know my birthday is in 3 days right?” 

Jiyong asked softly, holding Seungri whose face was now blushing brightly. Jiyong chuckled, obviously Seungri was thinking something naughty. His Seungri actually was not as innocent as other members thought. Although he wanted to keep teasing Seungri but his mind was set to something else.  

“Hyung… Tell me what you want. I’ll give you anything.” Seungri answered still oblivious to Jiyong intention.

“Seungri-ah… On my birthday… Let's declare our love. Let’s announce our relationship to everyone around us.”

Seungri’s face immediately pale on the suggestion. Albeit this was not the first time Jiyong suggested this but right now Jiyong sound serious and Jiyong eyes were telling Seungri that he didn't want to compromise again.

“Hyungs… The members knew about us and some of our YG family probably already knew about this. Also, YG hyungnim does not like us being together since the beginning. Isn’t now is already okay? What is the point of telling more people?”

Seungri tried reasoning with Jiyong, giving his best smile and wishing that Jiyong abandon this idea and focusing on this moment only. He was not wrong; they didn’t have any problem all this while and he didn't want to break the calmness they had now.

“Why don’t you see it Seungri? Some of YG family 'probably' knew! But they are not sure. Some of your friends suspected but they are also not sure. All of my friends know about us. I told them and they keep it secret because of you. And YG can’t control us forever. Why do you suddenly care about YG? We can be together freely. People are ready and nothing is wrong with being in love!”

Jiyong exploded. Seungri downright denied him without hesitation. Using the same excuse again and again. Why was it only him who wanted this?

“Hyung… Love is not everything. We are happy like this and we can continue being like this. I am okay and you should be okay too.” Seungri stubbornly insist. He knew why Jiyong wanted this; Jiyong was possessive and overly jealous boyfriend. No matter how many times he tried to convince Jiyong, Jiyong still found him not trustworthy. He wished Jiyong trusted him more and didn’t care too much what other thought of them as long as they knew what they were.  That was enough for Seungri.

Upon hearing Seungri said that "love not everything", Jiyong mind was clouded with his anger because love is everything to him. He loved Seungri so much that he wanted the world to know and acknowledged them. Seungri always thought that he only doing this to control him. Suddenly something trigger in his mind. He must teach Seungri his lesson. Seungri should trust him and didn’t take his love for granted. With a new determination, Jiyong stand up and walk away from Seungri. Jiyong sudden movement surprised Seungri.

“Hyung… Where are you going?”
“Away..”

Seungri just watched dumbfounded as Jiyong walked out from his apartment. He was surprised. Jiyong never this angry towards him. Jiyong always giving in to him whenever he being stubborn in their argument. Did he hurt Jiyong too much this time? Jiyong was so happy on stage today that he didn’t see this coming.

Seungri sighed and wished that tomorrow will be better.

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Seungri woke up when his phone keep ringing in his ears. He couldn’t sleep last night as he waited Jiyong to come back but