“Sehun, it’s over!” she said then left.

I told her that we can still be with each other. After work, I already decided that I will go to the café and told her that we can still be together. But she just told me that it’s over!

And what really hurt is she’s already married.

I don’t know what to do. I want to die right know! I want to kill myself for being so dumb to believe such a foolish hope. I know from the beginning that my mind speaks different from my heart. It always told me that I still love her and she’s waiting for me but my heart already know that she doesn’t love me and I’m just thinking that I love her because she’s the only girl that is always with me.

I’m such a trash…

A dumb.

A fool.

A pail of worms.

A stupid.

An idiot.

Living in a false hope is the biggest mistake in my life.

I should’ve let her go.

“Sehun, please move on. I know you don’t love me! I know you know that you don’t love me! You’re just thinking that you love me because I’m the only girl that is always around you. Actually, everytime I’m being with you I feel like I’m just a friend and not a girlfriend. There’s nothing special between us. I really wanted to tell you this before but I don’t want to hurt you. And I know it’s wrong.”

Yes, she’s right. Even before I always listen to my mind only not with my heart. I know deep inside that I just like her. I always think that I want to marry her because she’s the only girl I know. I don’t want to meet another girl again.

“I should’ve have let you go. I even thought you already realized it the day I cut off our communication. I wished I never texted you yes and give you a false hope. I know it’s my fault from the beginning. I’m so sorry. Please, love the right one for you, your wife. She’s your fate.”

Her words are stabbing my head over and over again.

I’m so blind…feared to meet someone blinded my heart.

I buried my face in my hands and closed my eyes.

“Sehun…”

I looked up and saw Hana.

My heart skipped a beat.