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Yours. Mine.

 

I remember there being an abandoned barn. It sat alone in a field of dried grass, the type of grass that was too resilient to die, too weak to grow green, and instead contented itself with its dull gold shine. On windy days, this grass would kneel and dance in a mesmerizing rhythm that we could watch for hours. I remember the barn itself was a worn mud-color, with termite-infested wood and nothing but a single forgotten pail that sat on its dusty ground. Looking back, the barn was so rickety, it’s a miracle it didn’t collapse on us whenever we played inside. Sulli and I used to steal away to the barn after our chores were done and play house, pretending we were married to famous actors or boys from school. I was the older sister, and so I always got first pick of my husband. We would sometimes stay at the barn until the sun dipped below the horizon, and when we came back home, Omma would let me have it, yelling at me, “Why did you stay out so late?!” and “Why can’t you be a better role model for your sister?! Aigoo, if only you’re father was still around, he would show you real discipline!”

But all the scolding was worth it. As long as this lonely barn sat on the quiet field, I could always escape to it. My secret refuge. And Sulli would almost always tag along.

 

It has been seven years since I left my mom’s house. I had sworn to myself that I would become something—that I would get my education, get a nice job, and live in the city. And that’s what happened… almost. I did finish school. I did get a nice job. But as fate would have it, the job brought me back to my hometown. And here I am, back at my mom’s.

Nothing’s really changed. Sulli hasn’t moved away, instead choosing to work and stay at home too. And Omma is still as nagging as ever. But she respects me more as an adult now. And I know it’s out of love.

I finally finished unpacking my things and decided to take a walk. I traced the familiar path to the old barn, thinking about all of the past events that led me back home. Back to this small town, surrounded by golden fields, with paths that led to abandoned barns or God knows what else. And as I was walking, I smiled, savoring the idea that some things will never change. I might change. But there are things in this world that will always stay put. That will always be there for me when I needed to return.

 

My smile vanished when I reached the end of the path. I remember there being an abandoned barn, sitting in a wide field of dried grass. But it wasn’t there anymore.

Instead, there was a house.

 

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Do not fret. Idol characters appear in the next chapter!

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byeollie
#1
i dont know how many times i visited and reread this story albeit it has yet to have an epilogue. the magical thing is, the pain of rejection that Choa felt in the last (as of for now) chapter still feel the same every time i read it. it feels like a fresh wound. your heart just squeezed in pain. i dont know why but it does feel like im meeting sunggyu for real, like... you captured the essence of him in the way you build his character and portrayal thus i just can't help myself but to believe and relate him to his real life persona (believe me this is a compliment, there's no way that this is an insult to real life KSG and writer herself).

i dont know why i take so long to post a comment here when i always reread this story whenever i have free time. of course, i'll keep waiting your update for this story. i dont think i'll able to let this site go until i get to read the finale of this fan fiction. until then, have a good day kinsei. Not to leave you with a burden but do come back soon! :)
Achini
#2
Aww! Authornim, the dedication made me absolutely happy! Thank you so much! And thank you for the update, I've been waiting for it for so long and trust me, you hit my feelings spot on.
I feel like I was rejected myself.
Honestly, your style of writing, how you disclose the emotions, everything is so perfectly put down, touching our hearts at where its most sensitive. I don't even know what to say though I was expecting this deep down, because, well, the story has yet to go.
Sung Gyu is my bias, so like with A.U, I wish Choa (I LOVE that name, I can imagine it rolling smoothly out of Gyu's lips) would end up with Gyu, it has that look to it too, I just have that inkling but then again, I might be wrong.
Thank you for the beautiful story, Its so realistic that I can honestly feel the pain of rejection right now. And also I love the relationship between Sulli and Choa because its something that I myself could never maintain (long story) so anyway, thank you so much!
Ah, I don't know if I have beautiful thought, its a first, that you think so, however, thank you thinking that way, maybe you can see through my words.
Waiting for the next update. Fighting!
Ps; I totally understand if it takes long, I'm the same myself so don't haste and dash authornim. Love you!
nabi_devi #3
Chapter 20: I haven't been on much to keep up but finally caught up! Hehe I like how sunggyu and choas relationship is building up and I can't help but not like howon being in the way lol.
....traitor!!,! Lol jk just don't become crazy please :P and don't forget about our lovely hamster grandpa!!
nyangseob
#4
Chapter 20: Heehee sunggyu and Choa~ :D
LOL congrats on becoming an EXOtic; it is treacherous territitory you have entered x) I am in it as well :3
gyurain #5
Chapter 20: Choa slowly realizing her feelings changing :}
Nooo come back to infinite :"(
krusty
#6
Chapter 20: Sweet Gyu at his finest :). Choa has fallen pretty hard for him already.
nyangseob
#7
Chapter 18: Hooray! You updated! :D
Ack they're hard to choose from when you use those videos but......I stay loyal to sunggyu hehe

Hoya you meanie, bagging on sunggyu during his performance >:3
lkimxxx
#8
Chapter 18: I've just read this for one day and it was amazing!!! Will wait for your next update, Author nim ^^
CassInspirit97 #9
Chapter 18: ohhh myyyy goddd finally an update!!!!!!! choosing between sunggyu and hoya !!!!!!!"! no wayyyyyyyg I don't know !!!!!