Avid Child

Just My Imagination

 

 

 

 

 

Second update before I got to sleep. Enjoy!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Ok Yoo Yeon, named both for the grandfather who had made it possible for her parents to meet and because she was a blessing to her family, was sitting in her bedroom, hidden away from the rest of the world underneath the fort her Uncle Khun had helped her make the week before, angry, confused, desperate tears falling freely down her chubby face, pouting profusely and hugging her most treasured possessions tightly to her chest.

In her short little arms, she held a wide assortment of her belongings, her favorite book her Umma read to her from every night, the blanket her Aunte Hyoyeon and Aunte Sunny had made for her before she was even born, the money she had gotten two months before under her pillow from the tooth fairy, a well deserved prize, she told herself, for all the pain she went through to pull out her first loose tooth, her report card letting her know that she had passed kindergarten and would be continuing on to first grade in the fall, an impressive feat if anyone asked her, and a picture of her family, just her Appa, her Umma, and her all sitting together on their couch, smiles on all three of their faces. She intended to hold onto her favorite belongings for as long as she could, because they gave her strength, strength she needed. Everything was falling apart around her, and little Yooyeon had no idea how to fix anything.

"Hi, Mommy!" she had yelled in greeting as she ran into her house after returning home from the neighbors. That was where her best friend, Min Hyuk, lived. "Whatcha doin? You look really pretty."

"I have a date."

"Really?" Yooyeon had beamed up at her umma, jumping up onto her bed and throwing her arms around an already dressed Yoona. "You and Daddy are going to kiss and make up." she pronounced.

"I'm sorry, Yeonnie, but I'm not going out with your Appa. I'm going out to dinner with a friend from school, and then we're going to go and see a movie afterwards."

Confused, the little girl asked. "A friend like Aunte Soshi’s?"

"Well, no." she watched as her Mom tried to explain the situation. Sitting down on the bed, she patted the space beside her, silently telling Yoona to sit down, too. "Mommy's going out with a guy, and it's supposed to be a romantic date. Do you know what that is?" Lost, Yooyeon shook her head no. "How can I put this." she listened as her umma searched for the right words. "When two people like each other, they go out on a date, and my friend likes me, like your Daddy used to."

"Daddy still likes you, Mommy."

"Not the way I'm talking about, baby." Yoona returned, growing frustrated with herself and her inability to explain such a simple concept as a date to her daughter. "Do you remember how I told you about your Daddy and I getting divorced, how he isn't going to live here anymore, how we're not going to be married any longer?"

"Yes." the little girl responded, her eyes already filling with tears. "But I want Appa to live here, I don't want him to leave."

"I don't either, sweetie." Yoona confessed. "But sometimes parents fall out of love with each other, and, when they start to fight a lot, they realize that it would be better for their kids if they got divorced and were just friends."

Arguing with her Mom, Yooyeon pointed out. "But you love, Appa, Mommy."

Annoyed, Yoona stood up and started to pace the room. "That's enough, Yooyeon!" she yelled, making the tears that had been pooling in her daughter's eyes fall. Too lost in her own pain, she never realized what her harsh words were making the little girl feel.

"I don't know how many times we have to go over this. It doesn't matter what you do or say, you can't change the fact that your Appa and I are getting divorced. We tried to make it work, we tried for so many years, but we're just too different. He's moved on with his life. He moved out of the house, he started dating again. I know, because I saw him last week at a restaurant with this petite little girl who was the exact opposite of me, and it's time that I follow his lead and start to put my own life back together. I can't sit around here for the next twelve years crying my eyes out over a man who doesn't want me, who only stayed with me because we had a daughter together, and Jonghyun likes me, for me and if he wants to take me out to dinner so that I can forget that for a few hours that I'm a twenty six year old, who's going through a divorce and has a devastated daughter at home, I'm going to take him up on his offer. As for now, it's a first date, but it could turn into more. I could learn to actually really like Jonghyun, he could become my boyfriend, hell, he could even someday become your stepfather, and you, young lady…" she turned back to her sobbing daughter. "Are going to have to learn to accept the fact that your Appa and I are never going to get back together. Now, go to your room, stay out of trouble, and let me finish getting ready for my date."

That had been ten minutes ago, and, since then, Yooyeon had sat cowering inside of her fort, clutching her prized possessions, and listening to her Mom's mumbles and curses from across the hall. She could tell that her Umma was upset, she had even heard her crying while she continued to get ready, but that didn't mean she was going to forgive her. In Yooyeon's opinion, her Mommy was being stubborn, mean, and acting like a big butthead. Sighing heavily, she wiped her eyes, hesitantly poking her head out from underneath the blanket that made up her fort before crawling out of the safety the dim confines provided for her and settled on top of her princess bed. Arranging her varied treasure around her, she looked around her room, still holding tightly to her favorite book.

The room had been redecorated by her Uncle Khun and Aunt Tiffany for her fourth birthday. She had complained that she was a big girl, and big girls did not sleep in rooms with butterflies painted on their walls, she wanted Winnie the Pooh. So, armed with his paintbrush and his girlfriend, her Uncle Khun had transformed her walls into her own version of the 100 Acre Woods, complete with every character from the story, their homes, and even a huff lump and a woozle. There had been small quirks that confused her, but her Aunt Tiffany had quickly explained them. Piglet was larger than all the other characters, because her Aunt claimed every girl needed an infusion of pink in her bedroom to add a touch of femininity to it. Yooyeon wasn't quite sure what femininity meant, but, if her Aunt Tiffany liked it, then so did she. Then the older woman had explained that she had instructed her boyfriend to make Rabbit's garden a flower garden instead of vegetables, because they were more aesthetically pleasing. Again, Yooyeon was confused, but, with that explanation, she decided remaining quiet was better than asking questions. Overall though, she loved her bedroom, because it was modeled after her favorite book, Winnie the Pooh.

Flipping the book open, she randomly turned to a page and began to read, slowly of course, because her umma was only just teaching her how. She found that the lovable, honey obsessed bear often had good advice for her when she was having a bad day or needed help, and she was hoping he wouldn't let her down when she needed him the most. After all, this time it really wasn't her who needed help but her Mommy and Daddy, because, if they weren't going to do anything to make themselves happy again, she guessed she would have to do it for them.

"You can't stay in your corner of the forest waiting for others to come to you." the wise, rather plump and in need of a cardio bar bear instructed his young reader. "You have to go to them sometimes."

Those were important words, Yooyeon just knew they were, but, unfortunately, she knew that she didn't have time to ride her bike to her Dad's house nor did she have the directions. She had only been there once so far since he moved away, and, instead of watching where they were going, she had spent the whole ride telling her Appa everything he had missed about her Mommy since he had left. Putting her book aside, she reclined back on her bed to think. If she couldn't get to her Daddy so he could help her fix her Mommy, she would just have to make him come to her.

Tiptoeing, she moved towards her bedroom door and looked out the lock hole. Luckily for Yooyeon, she, unlike her Uncle Chansung, knew how to be stealth. Once she realized her Mom was still in her room, she quietly snuck out of her room and crept down to the kitchen. Her Appa's cell phone number was the one on speed dial, and her Mommy had taught her how to call him. While she waited for him to pick up, she impatiently twirled her hair around her tiny index finger, a nervous habit she had picked up from her Umma.

"Hi, this is Ok Taecyeon. I can't come to the phone right now, but if you could leave your name, number, and a brief message, I will get back to you as soon as possible. Thanks."

As soon as the beep sounded, Yooyeon started to talk into the phone. Although her voice was soft so as not to alert her Mom, it held a hint of desperation and fear. "No, Appa, no." she pleaded. "You have to answer the phone. Appa, I need you." Unable to help herself, because she thought her plan was going to fail, she started to cry. "Appa, something's wrong with Mommy. She's crying, and she…"

"Yooyeon, what is it, honey?" her Daddy's strong voice filled the line. He sounded out of breath, as if he had just run to the phone. "What's wrong with your Mommy?"

"I don't know, Appa." the little girl confessed, blushing slightly with the slight lie. "She's in her room, and she won't come out. When I tried to talk to her, she sent me to my room and yelled at me. You have to come home, Daddy. You have to help Mommy."

"I'll be right there, Yooyeon." he promised her. "Just be a good girl, watch out for your Mommy, and call me back if anything happens or you get scared, okay?"

"Okay, Daddy." Yooyeon agreed. "Please hurry."

"I will, sweetie, I will."

As she hung up the phone, still moving around the house as silently as possible, the mischievous six year old smiled to herself. Step one of her plan was finished, now, she had to set up the rest. If her Mommy wanted to go on a date, she'd help her, but she'd make sure that only the friend her Mommy went on a date with was her Appa.

Crouching on the floor, she waited until she heard her umma go into the bathroom and close the door before she continued setting up her parents' surprise. First, she went into the family and drug the coffee table to the entertainment center to use it as a stool. With the added height, she was capable of reaching the home movies her Umma kept on the shelf, grabbing her three favorites, the film of her parents' wedding, the music video her Uncle Junsu had made of her with her parents during her first year using a song he claimed his good friend Mr. Lee Seung Chul wrote for her as a favor to him, and the one from her Mommy and Daddy's five year wedding anniversary party. Her Uncles and Auntes had surprised them with a big, fancy celebration, but she and her Uncle Khun had found her parents hiding out in a dark corner and kissing when they were supposed to be talking to their guests. She wasn't supposed to know where that movie was, but her Umma had been watching it the week before and had forgotten to put it away. It was just another lucky part of her plan.

With the films in her hand, she left the coffee table where it was and went into the kitchen to make her parents' dinner. She was only six, so her cooking skills were quite limited. However, she knew her parents liked sandwiches, why she wasn't sure, but she decided to make them. Although she couldn't use the oven, Yooyeon figured they would taste the same if she toasted the bread in the toaster and put some cheese on them at least they would look the same. Next, she made them both a milkshake, that was one thing she knew how to really cook.

Armed with everything she would need for her parents' surprise date, she slipped back up the hallway and hid the movies and the food in her Mom's room, making sure to sneak out before she went back inside to finish getting ready. Now, all she had to do was get her Daddy up there with her Mommy, lock the door, and then make them stay in the room together until they realized they still loved each other and wanted to be a family again.

For several minutes, she jumped up and down in front of the living room window, waiting and willing her Appa to pull into the driveway, and, as soon as she saw his car, she raced outside to see him, grabbing his hand before he even had a chance to shut the car's door, and pulled him inside with her.

"You have to be really quiet, Appa." she instructed him. "B ecause Mommy's really upset, and you can't scare her."

"I don't want to scare your Mom, sweetie." Taecyeon reassured her. "Where is she at?"

"She's still upstairs in your bedroom." At least it would be again when her Appa quit being a silly dork and came back home to live with them. "Make sure you tell her she looks pretty, give her lots of hugs, and tell her you'll hold her until she stops crying like you do for me."

Without meeting his daughter's eye, Taecyeon said. "We'll see, Yeonnie."

Before she knew it, they were standing in the hallway outside of the closed bedroom. With hope, she watched as her Dad quietly opened the door, winked at her before entering, and then closed the door behind him as silently as he had opened it. After locking the door, Yooyeon decided she wanted to be there when her parents kissed and made up. Even if she couldn't see them, she could hear them.

"Are you okay?" she heard her father's voice through the heavy wood of the bedroom door. "What's wrong, Yoona?"

"I'm fine." her mother automatically answered. Yooyeon could just imagine her furious attempts to wipe the tear stains from her face. Too bad Daddy wouldn't be fooled, he knew her too well. "What are you doing here, Taecyeon? Let me guess…" the tone of her Mom's voice was harsh. "Yooyeon did this. She called you?"

"She was worried about you, and, from the looks of things, she had a right to be worried."

"I'm just upset, because I yelled at her." Yoona confessed, a fresh wave of tears entering her eyes. Yooyeon could tell by the sound of her voice. "She did nothing wrong, but I yelled at her anyway, and I shouldn't have. I never want to hurt her."

"I heard that was a part of the problem, the yelling." Taecyeon clarified. "But she knows that you love her, Yoona. You're her whole world."

"No, I'm not." her Mom sighed. "You're half of her world, too, and she feels as if she's losing you, and, when she talks to me about the divorce, I get upset and take it out on her. It shouldn't be like this."

"Things will get easier." Yooyeon heard her Appa try to comfort her Mom, but she could tell by the sound of their voices that they were standing on opposite sides of the room. "She's still young. Someday, she'll understand that this divorce is what's best for all of us."

Laughing, Yoona agreed with him. "I tried to tell her that, but you know Yooyeon. She's her father's daughter, stubborn until the end."

"Oh, I think you played a part in there somewhere, too." Taecyeon taunted. "I've known you to be just as willful as I am." They were silent for a moment, and it had Yooyeon hoping they had finally gotten to the kissing part. How long did it take for parents to make up anyway? Snapping her out of her thoughts, she heard her Father comment softly. "You look nice."

"Thanks." Yoona returned. Hesitantly, she admitted. "I'm, uh, I have a date tonight."

Bitterly, Taecyeon snapped. "Oh ofcourse you do!" Before anything else could be said, Yooyeon heard his angry footsteps moving across the room, and then she watched with her own eyes as he tried to open the door only to find it was locked. "What's going on?"

"Sometimes it sticks." her Mom tried to explain. "Just pull harder."

"I am pulling hard, Yoona." Taecyeon barked. "The door's not stuck, it's locked."

"What?" That was her mother's voice, and, following the loud, slightly shrill exclamation, Yooyeon could hear her cross the room as well. "Ok Yoo Yeon, open this door right now! You're in so much trouble, young lady."

"No!" she yelled back, stomping her foot in the process. "You and Daddy were being stupid morons, and I want my family back. If you want to go on a date, go on one with Daddy!"

"Sweetie…" Taecyeon tried to reason with his daughter. "Your Umma and I have talked to you about this. We're getting a divorce, and there's nothing you can do or say to change our minds."

"But I don't want you to." she cried out. "And Mommy doesn't you to either!" When neither adult said anything, she continued. "She doesn't know that I know, but I heard her talking to Aunt Sica last week, and she told her that she never wanted this to happen. Plus…" she added on a roll. "Every night when we go to bed, I can hear her crying in her room, and she keeps a picture of you underneath her pillow, so she can tell you she loves you before falling asleep."

"Yooyeon, what did Mommy say about spying on her? Those were private moments and none of your business."

"I had to, Umma…" the little girl cried out. "Because you're sad, and, since Appa's not here to make it all better, it was my responsbly."

"Responsibility, baby." Taecyeon corrected her softly. "And it's not your job to make sure your Umma and I are happy." When her father's voice got softer, she pressed her ear into the door. "Listen, Yooyeon…" he sighed, "You need to know that your Umma and I will always love each other, because we have you, but that doesn't mean we want to be together, that we want to be married any longer. Sometimes you just have to admit that something is broken and can't be fixed, and, your Mom and I, we're shattered."

"Oh, you love me alright." Yoona snorted. Yooyeon could tell her Mommy was angry, and that was a bad, bad sign. "You loved me enough to just assume that I was having an affair. You loved me enough to walk away without giving me a chance to explain myself. You loved me enough to serve me my divorce papers on the very same day we first met."

"That wasn't intentional." Taecyeon shouted back. "And if you want a chance to explain yourself, tell me now! Let's hear this complicated lie you've cooked up in your own mind to rationalize why you were away from the house late almost every night, why you were always tired the next morning, and why no one at your job knew where you were or what you were doing when you told me you were working!"

"I was trying to go back to school." Yooyeon heard her Umma scream at her Dad. Lowering her voice, her Mother continued. "I am going back to school, and I kept it a secret, because I wanted to surprise you. Don't think I don't know what everyone says about me around here. To them, I'm still the screw up. I knew that I was hurting your reputation at work, and I wanted to do something to make you proud of me, to make this whole damn, stuck up, judgmental town proud of me, but, before I could even finish a semester, you walked away and said you were sick of all my games. Apparently, you were the only one who knew the rules though, because I'm still confused about what exactly I did wrong."

"You lied to me." Taecyeon tossed back at her.

"I haven't lied to you in years." Yoona countered. "Not since we got back together. I told you that I was doing stuff for work, and I was, because they were paying for me to go back to school, but my coworkers didn't know about it, because my boss didn't want the whole SM to know. It was none of their business, but, instead of coming to me with your questions, you turned something innocent and special into something that was sordid and disgusting in your own mind and came to your own conclusions. Obviously, you don't trust me, Taecyeon."

Yooyeon could hear the shock in her father's words and the sound of the bed collapsing when he sat down upon it. "Why didn't you tell me about any of this?"

"Because I thought we were passed these petty misunderstandings." Yoona explained. "We'd been together for eight years without a break, married for six, and we had a child together. I didn't want to have to explain myself to you, I wanted you to believe in me without details or justification."

"So you just let me walk away?"

Sniffling, her Mommy pressed. "I didn't want to hold you to me, I wanted you to stay on your own, and, when it became apparent that you didn't want to, I couldn't fight you anymore. I knew in the back of my mind that you had always settled for me when I got pregnant with Yooyeon, so that's why you jumped at the first reason to leave so quickly."

"Yoona, I didn't want to go, I thought you wanted me to leave, I thought you were trying to drive me away by having an affair."

Her Umma's next response was so soft, Yooyeon had to hold her breath to hear what she said. "What do you want from me, Taecyeon?"

"I want us to quit fighting." her Daddy answered. "I want us to start acting like adults and the parents that Yooyeon deserves. I want to come back home."

"Well, it is your house." Yoona's sad voice filled the bedroom. "You paid for it, so, if you want it back, I guess Yooyeon and I could find an apartment to rent, someplace affordable while I finish school."

" the house." she heard her father yell.

"Daddy!" she exclaimed, shocked by his language.

"Sorry, princess." Taecyeon apologized for himself through the door before she could hear him turn back to her Mommy. "This place is just some bricks, a few wood beams, and way too much furniture picked out. I never said I wanted the house back, I said I wanted to come home, and, Yoona, you and our daughter, you're my home."

"It's not going to be that easy. You really hurt me."

"I know I did, baby." Yooyeon heard her Appa acknowledge. "But I was wrong. I was selfish and pigheaded, and I should have never doubted you, but I don't want to throw this, throw us away because of a mistake. Yooyeon deserves more than that, we deserve more than that. I love you, Yoona, and I want a second chance."

Now that was what she had been waiting to hear. "So, you're not going to get divorced now, right Daddy?" she asked her father through the key hole. "You're going to make up and kiss, you're going to come back home?"

"I don't know, Yooyeon." Taecyeon responded. "It's up to your Mom."

"Don't put that on me." Yoona snapped at him. "If I say no, she's going to hate me and blame our separation on me when it's not my fault, and, if I say yes, that you can come back home, she's going to think that everything is back to normal when we really will have a long, uphill road to climb in order to get back to where we were this time a year ago."

"I'll do anything." Yooyeon heard her Dad promise. "We can start over again, go on dates, get to know each other all over again. I'll stay in a different bedroom, and, if you want, we can try counseling, finally figure out this communication problem that seems to have plagued us for our entire relationship."

"You're serious, aren't you?" she heard her Umma ask. Oy, as her Grandpa Yoo Suk said, adults were so slow, Yooyeon realized as she continued to listen to her Mom talk. "You really want to try again?"

"I do." Taecyeon admitted without a hint of doubt in his voice. "I've wanted to since the day I walked out, but I didn't think that's what you wanted, so I stayed away and never said anything."

"Okay." Yooyeon started jumping up and down when she heard her Mom agree. "We'll try again." Yoona spoke slowly. "But we're going to take this one step at a time, counseling is a must, and, for now, you're going to go back to your place and we'll talk."

"Can I call you later tonight?"

"No, Daddy!" Yooyeon spoke up, yelling through the door. "You're not going anywhere. You and Mommy are going to talk now on your date."

"What date?" both of her parents asked at the same time.

"The date I gave you." she told them smugly. "I made you dinner, it's in your closet, and there are movies, too, they're in your nightstand."

"You can't keep us in here, Yooyeon." Yoona told her daughter. "You have to let us out."

"Nah uh!" she argued. "You and Daddy were bad, Mommy, and now I'm grounding you. You both have to stay in your room all night, I'll let you out tomorrow morning, so Appa can make me pancakes."

"Sweetie." Taecyeon tried to reason with her. "You can't stay out there by yourself. What if something happens?"

"I have the phone." Yooyeon pointed out. "So I'll be fine. Don't try to change my mind, Daddy, because I'm not going to change my mind. Min Hyuk told me how this works."

"How what works?" she heard her mother query apprehensively.

"The last time Min Hyuk's parents had a fight, she told me that they spent the whole night talking and kissing and making up in their room while she and her little brother played. Then they had a baby, and I really want a little brother or sister, so I thought you guys could do the same thing, and I'll take the baby for my birthday present in a couple of months. Now, if it's a boy, we'll have to name it Jae Suk, and, if it's a girl, her name can be Nah Yeon." Interrupting her, the doorbell rang. "Whoops, I've gotta go get rid of Mommy's date."

"Ok Yoo Yeon, you are not allowed to answer the door to a stranger." Yoona's voice warned her from the bedroom.

"Duh, Umma." she dismissed her Mother's concerns. "I wrote him a note, and I'm going to slip it through the door."

She could hear the curious aspect in her Dad's voice when he asked. "What does the note say, honey?"

"I just told him that you and Mommy decided to make up, that you're kissing and going to give me a baby brother or sister, and that you're going on a date with Mommy not him. Oh, and I also thanked him for forcing me out of the forest."

With that, Yooyeon skipped down the hallway and whistled all the way to the door, sliding her carefully created note through the mail slot. "Thanks, Winnie." she whispered to herself as she made her way into the kitchen and towards the freezer. The last time her parents went out on a date, her Aunte Taeyeon, Aunte Seohyun and Aunte Yuri had taken her for ice cream. She might not be able to have her favorite flavor, strawberry, in a waffle cone that night, but there was no reason why she couldn't celebrate her parents making up with a bowl of it at home, or a carton, Yeah, definitely a carton…

 

 

 

 

 

 

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1227530lovestruck
#1
Chapter 12: I cried... Jinjja, it breaks my heart when TaecYoon were getting divorce *sobs* but thank you Ok Yoo Yeon for making them back together~! :))
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#2
Chapter 11: Awwwww, baby Yoo Yeon... YAH TAECYEON OPPA, MAKE YOONA UNNIE PREGNANT NOW TO HAVE BABY YOOYEON IN REAL LIFE AHEHEHEHE..
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#3
Chapter 5: I like it =D
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#4
Chapter 4: Ohohiho.. I like it!
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#5
Chapter 3: *sobs* ;__; my otp TaecYoon..please be real...
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#6
Chapter 2: ;__; im really crying right now... Oh, how I miss Taecyeon oppa and Yoona unnie...
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#7
Chapter 1: Ooohlalala~! I always imagine this... Wheeew! Taecyeon oppa as my brother and Yoona unnie as my sister-in-law?! WOW!!! I LOVE IT!! :D
rnm4321 #8
Chapter 18: this is so good. I was touched. :)
happylovestories #9
Chapter 18: This chap was absolutely beautiful!!
LuvFFWorld #10
Chapter 18: This chapter is too awesome. I love how you wrote the process of their relationship. It's so touching that he changed for her and willing to settle down with her. Gosh, this is too beautiful. Thank you so much for this one-shot!