It had become a habit to observe carefully my surroundings. I think I was quite good at judging the various situations I was confronted with. Of course, I can’t deny that since I came here I was completely at loss. I’ve always been convinced that wherever you may go, human nature never changes. But customs do… and I have to admit I couldn’t quite fathom what was expected from me. Why did Lord Sheffield take me under his care? I was nothing but a burden. Of course, he was rich so what was one more mouth to feed to him? I wanted to believe he was genuinely kind. But my life as a servant at the Choson court had taught me otherwise. Even the most apparently inoffensive old men had hidden purposes.

The King was looking intently at me. I could tell he was intrigued by me. It was probably due to my features: Occidental men are so different from us, Asians. He was beautiful too. Though a kind of arrogance was emerging from him. But he was a King and this fierce look was inescapable I guess.  

Suddenly, Lord Sheffield and the King weren’t talking anymore. Lord Sheffield bowed again and the King tilted his head to me, his eyes planted in mine. I thought I was meant to bow too, but before I had time to do so, he gestured for me to follow him and started walking away.

I wasn’t sure I had properly understood the meaning of this gesture so I looked hurriedly at Lord Sheffield who was keeping his gaze on the floor. When I lifted my eyes to the King, he had stopped in his track and was giving me a quizzical look. So I quickly went after him, glancing worriedly above my shoulder toward Lord Sheffield. Why the hell wasn’t he coming? How was I supposed to understand how I had to behave toward a King if he weren’t coming with me to show me?  I

I followed him along a large corridor, meeting some servants on our way who bowed at him. We got into a room with a huge bed at the bottom and a large table in the right corner with some food on it. I immediately understood what was happening.

He sat on a chair at the table and started to eat some fruit. He smiled at me and gestured for me to do the same which I did.

He kept on talking as if I could understand anything he was saying. Though his voice was steady and calm, you could also sense a hint of deep authority. And I came to wonder what kind of king he was, detailing his every feature carefully. I was deep in thought when he called my name and I was startled. He laughed softly, with a sweet kindness in his eyes. He waved for me to come to him. I obeyed and came close. He put his hands on my waist and pulled me on his lap. I had expected him to do such a thing since I had come in, yet I suddenly felt my heart thumping hard in my chest. I couldn’t possibly refuse a king. He wanted me. I felt rubbing against my rear as I moved on his lap. He whispered something in my ear that sent shivers down my spine. I turned around to face him and planted my gaze in his. It struck me: I wanted him at least as much as he wanted me. Actually, I’d never had any experience in this area and I was a bit scared. But he was so beautiful and I needed so much to let go of the pressure I had accumulated from these last months of unending confusion. Since I had left my country, it felt like I couldn’t make any decision for myself. I was brought here and there, told to smile and how and where to eat, the time I had to go to bed, the way to properly pray or dress… nothing was mine, not even the clothes I was wearing. Even being here tonight wasn’t my decision. But sleeping with that beautiful king in front of me was my choice. I needed release more than anything. It seemed to me that I had lost myself somewhere since I came to live with Lord Sheffield. I couldn’t lose more now. I had no reasons to resist.

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