Luhan POV

I don't know why...

why suddenly I slapped him right on his face

guess what? I acted like those flithy people who underestimated him..

and here I am, clamming up, sitting on my bed, and clutching to myself like a zombie..

it was raining hard ouside...

sehunnie...

mianhae...

I can't help it  now, a big ruckus is crumbling inside of my soul...

my inner mind told me you couldn't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong..

and this is the final of my heart's wrestling...

apologize to him...say that you didn't mean it, it's just I couldn't stand it when you said you wanted to die,,

is it the right phrase?? or not?

Dear God, my life

I flithy am, but hey... he might love me as a sister or friend...

so, it's better to said a sorry...

I stepped out from my room, I was looking for Sehun's presence...

I tried to find him in papa's room, zitao's room, living room, at the kitchen, bathroom... !

he has been gone to somewhere....

God, what did I do to him?? why must I hurted him that bad??

after he faced everything all alone.. if something bad happen to him, would You like to kill me too?

Sehunie... where are you??

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"hana... dul... set... hana.. dul.. set"  a black haired man was squatting at the park, he counted to 3 and continued to repeat it..

Staring blankly at the white tulip in the middle of the park... it was raining hard, but he ignored it or he might not realized it..

he didn't know what to do, but he did what Luhan told him..

"Luhan didn't want to see me... for now... when she will she allow me back to her?"

he looked at the kitten in front of him, soaked in wet like he did..

"kit..kitten.. is it cold?" he asked the kitten

"meowww" he smiled at the kitten and fetched it to his lap..

"wait... I ha--have something for you.."  then sehun took his shirt and vest from his boddy, wrapped it around the kitten's boddy

" it is... wa--warm rit-right?" he asked again, he was topless... and still squatting at the same spot.. the kitten clutched to his shirt... and he the fur..

"kitten... she hate me... why I always make a trouble? useless..." sehun said and staring at the kitten blankly.. he was in the edge of despressing...

"I am a naughty kid... santa won't give me a present this christmas..." 

"and I want to die... so everyone will be happy... without me... they will.. happy..."

"kitten, where's your mom?" sehun asked the kitten

"was she left you here?" but the kitten was already in dreamland... of course sehun didn't know it

"my eomma love me so much.... she just...  to be near me... she didn't want to be near around me... still, she love me than anyone... she said, she was really proud to having as her son..." he said in hurtful tone...

"I am a naughty kid, once I thought that eomma just lied to me... but she didn't."

"hey... kitten... will God accept me in heaven?" he asked again,,

"I'm a naughty kid, I made a lot of troubles, and people hate me, I'm useless.." he said as the rain started  to running hard...

"meowww"  another cat came to sehun, it was bigger than the kitten... the kitten woke up and ran to it's mother direction... sehun waved a goodbye and still staring blankly at the white tulip..

"you were so beautiful... even hannie likes you so much, you were perfect... white... beauty,..." sehun let his shirt still on his lap... and smiled softly as he rembered something whe he was a kid...

"Luhanie.... mianhae..." he said and the rain stopped... but, it wasn't, there was luhan behind him, stood with a an umbrella in her hand.. she was crying and did what sehun do,  hugging him tightly when squatted  behind him..

"you're wet, babbo!" she said and shuted her eyes for a moment..

"luhan... you are still mad at me?" he asked tried to looking at her

"No... I'm sorry... I slapped you... but, don't say something like want to die again... I don't know how to life without you, " she said again and inhaled the scent of sehun...

"I promise... you.. forgive me?? santa would do that too, right?" he asked which made Luhan nodded her head with a strong shake..

"sehunie let's back to home.... why you give your shirt to the kitten?" she asked him and faced him... but sehun confused with her question, why did I??

"I don't know..." he said and made luhan luaghing...

"Luhanie.... " he mumbled softly..

"hmmm?" the female beside him was hand in hand with him along the way...

"my chest.... beating... drumming.. when you... beside me..." he said...

but Luhan pinched his nose..

"are you sure?? you just want a bubble tea, ne?" sehun hang his head, confused again..

"I want bubble tea.... but...I mean..." he said and still in confuse..

"don't mind it, you're wet and have to take a shower..." Luhan held his hand tighter..

the rain stopped, sehun smiled when he saw something at the sky

"the cloud's shape is deer... hannie, it's deer.." sehun amused with the cloud and luhan smiled to him...

after rain... we will face a rainbow...

after rain, there will be cloud..

and after rain,my heart is beating fast...

because of you

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