I Miss Him
Forever My AngelDoojoon POV
I went to my work place. Today I and Seungi will work on day shift. But, where is he? I look in his room. Only his briefcase. I wonder where he is right now. I walk across the ward and saw my Seungi is checking his patient. He look pale. Not like himself. He look.. Different.
“Seung!” I called him while walking towards Hyunseung.
“Oh. Doojoon. Why?”
“Nothing. Just want to see what are you doing.” I said to him while create a smile.
“Ooh. I bet you love me so much.” He said to me while chuckling a bit.
“Of course. Have you done your work? Let’s go to cafetaria.”
“Okay. Let’s go.” We walk to cafetaria together. He look weak. But, never mind. I will ask him later.
*At cafetaria*
“What do you want Seung?”
“I want some sandwiches and vanilla latte. You?”
“I want some sandwiches like Hyunseung order and coffee.” After that we walk to our table.
*At the table*
“Seung, may I ask you something?”
“Yes. What is it?”
“You look pale this lately. Are you sick? “
“No. I’m fine Joon. Like I said. Don’t worry. “
“This is your order sir. “ The waiter said to us.
“Oh. Thanks.” Hyunseung said to the waiter while give me my food and beverages.
“Thanks Hyunseung.”
“Welcome. Joon,did you have something to do tomorrow?”
“No. I don’t have anything tomorrow. Why?”
“Would you like to follow me to somewhere tomorrow?”
“Where?”
“Aish! It is surprise. Don’t ask me that question. But, will you?”
“Yes. I will follow you tomorrow. But I will consider this as a date.”
“Hey! I will not cheated on Junhyung okay.”
“Yes. I just joking. Never mind just eat it. I don’t want you to be sick. “
“Thanks cause taking care of me Joon.”
Hyunseung POV
It is a tiring day. Doojoon has notice my face look pale. I have to hide it. I have an idea. I will put some make up. I mean like mascara or lip balm to hide my pale lips. I will do it. Because I have to. Sorry because lying to all of you. Sorry...
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Doojoon POV
I wonder where Seung want to take me. i just following him. This is my first time seeing he driving his own car. I never know that he have a car. We have been so quite just now.
“Seung, is this your car? “
“No. This is Junhyung’s car. He is going outstation now. So, I ask him to borrow his car.”
“Seung,where are we going actually?” I ask him.
“We arrive.” He said. We stopped at the entrance of the graveyard. Seob’s graveyard....
“Why did we stopped here?”
“I miss him Joon. And I know. You miss him too. So, I want to visit Yoseob. I bought some flowers. White Rose. I go take it for awhile. You go first.”
I walk to a grave at the corner of the graveyard. I read the dibs on the stone.
Rest In Peace...
Yang Yoseob
Date Of Birth :1991/01/05
Rest In Peace : 2010/03/07
Yah Yang Yoseob. Why did you leave me? Where is my angle that you promised me? I miss you so much. I want to die with you. That is our promise. You break it.No. I break it. It is my fault. I didn’t take care of you. I can’t hold my tears anymore. I know you are not meant for me. And I fell in love with Hyunseung. But, he is not my angle he is Junhyung’s angle. Now, I can feel the true feel of love.
“Joon.” Seung tapped my shoulders. I quickly wipe my tears.”Take this.” He hand me a bouquet of White Rose. “Put it on Yoseob’s grave.” He continued. He sit beside me. He caressed Yoseob’s grave.
“Seob, I miss you so much. Why did you leave us? I miss you. I want to meet you. Seob.” I heard his voice cracking.
“Seung. Don’t cry. You have promised him. “
“ ‘WE’ have promised him Joon. Seob,I want to meet you. I want to hug you. I want to hear your laugh. Seob....” I can see Hyunseung crying beside Yoseob’s grave. I can’t stand it too.
“Seob. I love you. So much. ” With that. I leave Hyunseung there. I can’t see his tears. He is like Yoseob. They have so many chemistry. I just stay in the car while waiting Hyunseung. My tears keep flowing from my eyes. After two years. This is the first time I cry a lot. After Yoseob’s death.
Hyunseung POV
“Seob. I can’t fulfil my promise to you. I will die soon. I can’t take care of Doojoon. I will leave Junhyung too. I will follow your path. I am not the angel that you promised to Doojoon. I can’t. Please. Don’t torture me. It is better you curse me than I have to hurt Doojoon and Junhyung. Thanks because being my friend.” I whisper at the grave. I just let my tears flowing. After I calm myself,i walk towards Jun’s car. Seeing Doojoon crying. It hurts me a lot. It very hurts Seob. I enter the car and sit beside him at the driver position and start the engine. He didn’t look at me even a bit.
“Joon,mianhe. “
“For what?”
“For make you cry.”
“Never mind Seung. I have used to it. Actually, thanks to you.”
“For what?”
“For make me happy. “
“Happy?”
“Yes. You bring me here just to see Yoseob. I feel a bit relief now. Thanks Seung.” He create a smile and hug me.
“Welcome... Joon”.
I send Doojoon to his home and drove back home. I land my body on my bed. I feel so dizzy right now. God, just take my life right now. I can’t take it anymore. It hurts. I can’t even stand up to take my painkiller. I just decided to sleep. I close my eyes.
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