Chapter 19 : I've got to end this. Yeah!
A Geek's Charm"Mission Accomplished." I turn to Namjoo wanting to tell the exciting news I have in the tip of my tongue.
"Spill! Spill! What's that?" She greedily asked for information.
"We're gonna hang out today, like.... have some fun.." I said wanting to sound very happy, but deep inside me how odd it is to feel this way. I'm not that excited. I'm just happy. I'm not thrilled.. not so much..
"You and CNU?" She blasted off. What the.
"Hell No! I'm talking about Gongchan!!!!" I was a bit irritated but then again... CNU, I missed him. Shh. I missed him, like.. I miss his gaze, his voice, his tutor lessons, his whole being. Oh no. No. No. He can't get me now. I'm supposed to date Gongchan. We'll officially break up, later. I'll tell this to him. We should!
"Oh." Those were the unexciting words. "Good Luck then!"
"Thanks!" I replied.
"Uhm, Namjoo."
"Yes?"
"I'll tell him, we'll break up."
"what? who?"
"CNU!"
"No way!" She was surprised.
"Yes, way!"
"No! What about your parents?"
"What about them? I'll just tell them that things didn't work out!" I'm feeling uneasy. Thinking that there will be no more reason I can be with CNU hurts, but this is what I've gotta do.
I can't fall for him any longer. I know this is wrong because he has a girlfriend. I can't continue my hallucinations anymore because it will eventually make me crazy about him more. I can't do this any longer. I have to end this. He has a girlfriend. A hot girlfriend. I can't compete with that!
"But..." I broke her off.
"You know, if we continue this... things will just get a bit more complicated. I can't risk that! I can't risk anymore humiliations. I can't just risk my feelings, anymore."
"Feelings? Why would you risk your feelings? Don't tell me..."
"Oh, No. No. No. It's not what you think..."
"You just fell for the school nerd. You said it, You said it." I can see a smile on her face.
"No! I didn't. I like Gongcha
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