“Where are you, SuHo?”

“Why aren’t you answering me?”

“Did I do something wrong?”

“Suho…Please…”

         My inbox was filled with messages like this…All from HanEul.

         Did I respond?

         No, I was too hurt. Too stupid. Too wrapped up in self pity to respond.

         I eventually just turned off my phone and went out without it. I hadn’t spoken to her in weeks, but I did see her. I saw her in class, I saw her walking to clas, I saw her in my dreams.Everywhere. She was everywhere because that’s all my mind thought of. 

     ‘Just talk to her, you coward.’ This replayed in my head each time I saw her, but I was just too stubborn with myself to even bring myself to look at her square in the face.

      There I was, sitting in an empty aisle away from the peopl, away from our spot. Staring down at a book that held no interest, just hoping she’d walk by and notice me. Hours and hours went by and still no HanEul. I got up from my spot as closing time neared and decided to just look. Look at the spot where happy memories turned to sour ones. I was holding onto a tiny bit of hope that she’d be sitting there clicking her feet as she read her book.

      She was sitting in that same spot like always, but this time her head was leaning back against the bookshelf. Her eyes closed and mouth wide open.

      The announcement came over the PA, ‘The library will be closing in ten minutes.’

      Ten minutes….That wasn’t enough time. There was never enough time. I walked over to the girl and sat beside her, her cheek, “I’ve missed you.”

     Her hand wrapped around mine giving it a light squeeze, “Why have you been avoiding me?”

     Her voice was barely a whisper, but I heard it loud and clear. Her eyes fluttered open, while her hand kept hold of mine.

      “Why have you been avoiding me SuHo?”

      HanEul's voice was like needles piercing through my heart one by one as the words left her lips. Just hearing my name was enough to have me lose my sanity. Her touch was like poison as heat filled my body.

      I pulled her up from the ground as people came around the corner, ushering people to leave the library or head to the counter to check out their books. Without thinking, I grasped her hand, our fingers interlaced and pulled her to the exit. She didn't fight back or refuse so I pulled her closer. Our bodies pressed side by side, I slung my arm around her and ushered her out.

      By the time we reached the exit, the night sky welcomed us along with a chilly wind that made both of us shiver. I clung to the girl beside me but was brushed away. She walked away from me without a word but I followed.

      HanEul was mad and annoyed. She walked the streets with her arms crossed and head down, feet taking large strides to get away from me. I kept pace with her with my hands in my pocket. When we reached an intersection, having no other choice she stopped. I finally met her but stood a few feet back when she turned her head, “SuHo… How could you?”

     I stayed silent just wanting to hear her talk to me.

    “I waited for you…You didn’t call me or text me telling me you couldn’t come. Then, you don’t contact me for weeks? Are you avoiding me? Did I do something wrong? What? What did I do, SuHo? Hmm? Tell me…Please. What did I do wrong?”

    You don’t love me.

    When the crosswalk turned green she strutted forward but I followed suit keeping pace, “Tell me, first. Who was that guy you were with that day? That guy that asked you if you liked me?”

     Her face grew distant as she racked her brain for the answer. Her face dropped before looking up at me, “No one… He’s no one.”

     Denying it only hurt more, enraged, I stopped her. In the middle of the sidewalk I pulled her to the side, “Don’t tell me he’s no one important. If he wasn’t then why did you tell him you didn’t like me? Why did you deny it without a stutter? Is it because you love him? Is it because I was just a game for you? What HanEul ? Tell me why you don’t like me?!” I was yelling at her.

     I was frustrated and hurt. She was crying as my tears ran down my face. She shook her head and whispered, “I don’t like you because I love you, Suho…I love you.”

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