The time flew by so quickly.

I hadn’t realised that I had missed Dara so much.

Everything about this day made me remember the old days. If only Jiyong hadn’t showed up 2 years ago and hadn’t turned my already unstable world upside down I wouldn’t have lost everything.

But now it’s too late.

But I am sure I hate him.

I always did.

I hated how he made me fall in love with him without apparently even trying. I hated how weak he made me feel in the inside.

That bastard.

He did succeed to break me, but he just doesn’t know that.

I’ve been in love with him for over 15 years now, and not once was I tempted to tell him.

Yeah I know I was scared he would reject me.

I mean look at me, I’m the most pathetic person on earth pretending to be otherwise.

Who the would fall in love with me?

Who stupid enough would fall in love with me?

Who blind enough would fall in love with me?

Although, always deep inside I hoped that Jiyong would.

It was 8 in the afternoon when finally the guys arrived.

Minzy, Taeyang and Seungri.

It used to be just me, dara and Minzy but when Dara became Jiyong’s girlfriend we got mixed with his friends. Personally I like none of them. They are both like him.

Playing with others feelings and torturing girls just like me.

“can I go to bed now?” I asked as I got sleepy.

Dara nodded as she was about to walk me to my room.

But something unexpected happened.

Something I wouldn’t have guessed not in a million years.

“I’ll walk her. Stay here with the guys.” Jiyong said.

Dara scaned me, like actually believing I would make a move on Jiyong.

“Come on.” He said as he lightly pushed me up the stairs.

“Are you sick or something?” I asked

“Nope, not at all. I’m just overly happy.”

I would prefer if you where just sick.

“well goodnight.” I said as I was about to close the door but he blocked it with his foot.

“Wait.” He whispered.

He smirked.

How I wish I could wash that smirk of his face.

“what?” I asked rudely

“Did you actually think I didn’t know? You think you are hidding your little secret well, but in reality you are doing a terrible job not showing it.”

I was terrified.

“What exactly are you talking about?”

“I think you alrady know. You, Lee Chaerin are head over heels in love with me since day one.”

I froze.

My breath becoming uneven, slightly trembling.

“falling in love with your best friends boyfriend? How pathetic can you get?”

“i-I” I stuttered.

“I didn’t happen that way.” I said

“and tell me, how exactly did it happen?” he asked teasingly.

“nevermind” I replied harshly as I practically closed the door on his face.

I fell down as I hugged my knees while sobbing.

The last thing I needed.

Jiyong was still sitting behind the door wondering if Chaerin knew he could hear her crying.

such a soft kitty, he thought to himself ,always crying.

But not even admitting that things happened the other way around? Chaerin wasn’t the one to steal Dara’s boyfriend, it was the other way around.

Well, she loves her friend that much, huh?

I wonder how much she loves me…