I sat down on the same sofa I was sitting before, as the ‘couple’ sat across me.

“So how have you been Chaerin?” she asked

“Haven’t been better ever before.” I gave her a reassuring smile

I don’t want to upset her. Not in her condition.

“How long?” I asked

“The doctor gave me 4 moths.”

I looked down.

4 more moths and she will be forever…

I can’t even think about it.

“How do you feel?” I asked concerned.

“Scared.” She replied

I felt tears welling up in my eyes.

Don’t cry Chaerin. You don’t want her to understand how sad you are.

So I breathed in and out. In and out. Till I was sure no feelings would be revealed.

“Jiyong sweaty, can you leave alone for a moment, just to remember the old days?” she asked sweetly

“Your wish my command.” He replied as he kissed her cheek and headed upstairs.

“How are you Chaerin?” she asked seriously

“Never been better, my friend.”

“I don’t buy it” she replied

Thought so.

“Why didn’t you visit me? It’s been a year Chaerin.” She said with a shaky voice

“I’ve been busy.” I said as I tried to look anywhere else except her eyes.

“I said I don’t buy it”

“What do you want me to say huh?”

“Are you still in love with him?” she asked sadly

“No, I’m not. It’s been so many years.” I replied back defensively.

Lies.

“Then why did you leave?”

“Because I wanted to make a fresh start.”

Lies.

“I said I don’t buy it.”

“What do you want to hear?”

“I want the truth.”

“Which one is the truth?” I asked back.

“Oh my. You are still in love with him.” She replied as a tear rolled down her cheek.

I hadn’t noticed till then that I was crying myself. I quickly wiped them away with my sleeve as I got up and sat beside her.

I wiped her tears away as I cleared my throat.

I caressed her cheek. How much I’ve missed her.

“I am not in love with Jiyong Dara.”

Lies, lies, lies.

“Then why did you leave?” she asked while sobbing.

“I had to leave. I couldn’t be around Seunghyun anymore.”

Lies, lies, lies.

“Are you sure, that’s the truth?”

I nodded.

“Would I ever lie to you?”

Yes I would. I’m doing it right now.

She hugged me.

“Since when did you start hugging people?” I asked teasingly. “ I thought you still where the person that never touched people and didn’t like to get touched”

“I changed. Jiyong changed me.” She smiled lightly

“So” she begun “are you sure you are over him?”

I signed.

“Dara, we’ve done this conversation a billion times. You have asked me a billion times if I still like him and I have replied you a billion times that I don’t. He is not my type anymore.”

She nodded.

“You know, I always used to tell you that he likes you and that you like him as well. But you never admitted it. You were such a stubborn kid” I said as I ruffled her hair playfully.

She laughed. Her laugher sounded like an angels laughs.

So beautiful.

“You were in love with him for 11 years! How could I ever tell you I liked him?”

“You should have. I deserved to know the truth form you. I shouldn’t have learnt it that away.” I replied quiet angry.

She looked away embarrassed.

“You’ve changed” I said

“I have?”

I nodded.

The old Dara would have known I haven’t forgotten Jiyong. The old Dara would know that there was never a Seunghyun. The old Dara wouldn’t let me go so easily. The old Dara wouldn’t forget me. The old Dara would be there for me. I was right Jiyong. I don’t know Dara anymore. MY Dara would never hug. MY Dara is not MY Dara anymore.

She is someone’s else.

Someone’s that goes by the name of Jiyong.