*Flashback*

"Yo Namjoon, let's go and have a lunch" Seokjin invited Namjoon at his desk

"Hurm, but I still have a lot of works to do sir" Namjoon declined his boss aka best friend offer

"Aiii, just drop the honorific buddy. Just leave that work and join me. We didn't talk a lot since I'm back"

Didn't know what else can he say to decline his best friend offer, Namjoon finally accepted Seokjin lunch offer. They're having their lunch at the cafe that located not far from their office

They got their seat and order something to eat. They didn't talk much since it just Seokjin who are always asking the questions and Namjoon just answer it shortly. Seokjin felt that there's something wrong with his bestfriend

"Uhm, your daughters are all cute Namjoon ah" Seokjin already ran out of questions and as soon as he heard Seokjin mention about his daughters, he lift his head up to facing Seokjin

He look at Seokjin as if he wanna swallow Seokjin. Seokjin flinch with the look that Namjoon gave to him. He immediately can felt cold aura was surrounding him, he's sure enough that those aura was came from Namjoon .He's clearing his throat to reduce the cold atmosphere

"How did you know my daughters are cute? Have you met them?"Namjoon asked coldly

"I met them at the supermarket last week. I also met Sowon at there"

"Did you meet them again after that day?" Namjoon asked make Seokjin frowning

"No, that's the first and last time I met them. Why?"

"Nothing. Just wanna know" Namjoon said in fake warm tone

"Oh ok. By the way, it's true tho. Your daughters are cute. Yea, of course they're cute. They have a pretty and gorgeous mother tho" Seokjin said in teasingly way and laughing but Namjoon clenching his fist then leave the cafe make Seokjin weird with his antic

"What's wrong with him? He's act so weird this lately" Seokjin asked himself

He has been eyed Namjoon all this while, he notice that Namjoon behavior are so different from the last time he met that guy. His heart immediately felt uneasy about Namjoon

He starts worried about Sowon and her daughters. He took out his phone from his pocket then make a phone call. He's calling his private investigator that he hired to watch over Namjoon and Sowon while his leaving

"Hello sir" his private investigator greet him through the other line

"Hello Suga. Did you still remember about my best friend that I asked you to watch over them a few years ago?"

"Hurm,Namjoon and Sowon?" That guy named Sugar asking for a confirmation 

"Yea. I want you to watch their daily activities. Namjoon acts so weirdly this lately. I'm worry about his family condition"

"Uhm, so you want me to watch over them like before?"

"Yea,and make sure they didn't caught you"

"Ok sir" Seokjin then hang up the phone

He know that his action was not right since it was Namjoon family affair that he interrupted but he couldn't help it. His was doubting Namjoon love toward Sowon

So he hired Suga to watch and eyed all Sowon and Namjoon activities about 5yrs ago. He knew that how hard Namjoon working for supporting his family

He knew everything jobs that Namjoon did due to his small pay. He saw how hardworking Namjoon is while doing his job. It make he felt guilty doubting Namjoon love toward Sowon 

Felt confident that Sowon already in right hands, he asked Suga to stop eyed them. He even accepted Namjoon works at his company and offers him a kinda big salary. Of course Namjoon didn't know it

But his doubt was haunting him again when he saw Namjoon cold eye looking at him on the first day he introduced himself as the owner of that big company. He somehow can see a bit insecurity and jealousy in Namjoon eyes

He didn't hope for Sowon to love him but he only hoping for Sowon to have her happiness. He couldn't take it seeing Sowon in sadness

"Sowon ah, why did this heart still has your name? Why this heart still want to see your happiness? Why did this heart don't want you to be in sadness when I already knew that he can take care of you and make you happy?" Seokjin asking himself the questions that he didn't even has the answer 

He don't feel like wanna eat at that moment so he just paid for the food then leave the cafe

Namjoon slammed the door opens make Yerin, Eunha and Yuju who are currently playing in the living room that time shock. He saw his daughters shock expression . He let out small smile at his daughters

"Where's your eomma?" He asked softly 

"In bedroom. She's not feeling well appa" Yerin answer 

"She's not feeling well? Ok then, I'll go and check for her condition. Uhm, Yerin ah. Take this money and go buy an ice cream for you and your sisters" Namjoon handing them a few notes

"Ice cream??? Unnie let's go! Yuju want ice cream!" Yuju jumping excitedly 

"But eomma?"Eunha ask

"Don't worry about eomma. I'll take good care of her. Now go, before the shop close. Yerin, take care of yourself and your sisters ok. Don't talk to stranger" Namjoon advised warmly, received a nod from the three girls 

Right after those three siblings get out from the house, Namjoon storming toward his bedroom and saw Sowon was sleeping with SinB in her arms

He walk slowly toward Sowon then put his palm on Sowon forehead. He felt that Sowon forehead are kinda hot 

His anger toward his wife awhile ago are gone. His full with wrath heart has changed to full with loving one 

"Sowon ah. Wake up baby" he's shaking Sowon body a bit 

"Hmm? Namjoon, you're home already? Wait, I didn't cook yet. I'll cook now" Sowon was about to get up but Namjoon held her shoulder 

"No no no.You don't have to get up. Your forehead are hot. Are you fever?" He asked in concern 

"No, just feel dizzy that's all" Sowon softly push away Namjoon hand that resting on her thigh 

"Babe, I'm sorry for last night. Does it still hurt?" Namjoon try to touch Sowon swollen corner lip but his wife avoid his touch

Sowon got that swollen from last night when Namjoon saw incoming call from Seokjin through Sowon phone 

Sowon move a bit far from Namjoon, she's paranoid being near with her husband. Namjoon sat on the bed next to her and holding tight her hands. He kissed his wife hand deeply 

"I'm sorry Sowon ah. I just can't control my jealousy last night. It's all because I love you. I really love you. And his presence make me felt uneasy" Namjoon confessed

"Why did you felt that?" Sowon ask

"We've got married about 9yrs already and look at our condition. We live in small house and look at yourself. You don't even have even one jewelry. It make me felt like I'm such a useless husband for you. I can't give you the thing that can make you feel special. I feel like I'm not doing my task as a good father for our daughters. I can't buy them a lot of toys or dolls like other kids. But then Seokjin came. He has everything. He has a lot of money, a big house, a big and successful company. He can easily grab your attention with that. I afraid that you'll run away leaving me for him. I really afraid that thing will be happens" Namjoon was crying when he say that 

Sowon just look at her crying husband with concern look. She never knew that all this while Namjoon was being burden by that unimportant thing. How could he think that she would leave her beloved husband just for another guy wealth. She cup her husband face to face her

"Why would you think that I'll do that to you. If big house I'm looking for, I'll not marry with you. If moneys I'm asking for, I'll not stay by your side all this while, and if Seokjin is the one that I want, I'm not be here for you. I'll not having four daughters with you. And I'm not here in this small house with you. Namjoon ah, I'm accepting you with just the way you are. So don't you dare even once thinking that I'm gonna leave you for another guy. I also love you Namjoon ah, and I'm not gonna leave you" 

With smile Sowon said that. Namjoon replied her smile with smile also. Namjoon didn't say a word but just pull Sowon into a hug. He's hugging his wife tightly. And Sowon also hug her husband back 

"Thank you Sowon ah, thank you so much" Namjoon kissed Sowon back hands repeatly

"I promise that I'll not hit you again. I'll be a good husband for you and good father for our kids. I promise Sowon ah" Sowon just nodding with bright smile with her husband promise

But however, promise is just leave as a promise. Namjoon only changed for awhile before heading back to his hot tempered act

It happen because he always caught Seokjin smile alone in his office room while playing with his phone. Without even checking the real thing, he assumed that it was Sowon who Seokjin texting with 

It cause Sowon be a punching bag for him to release his jealousy almost everyday. He find a chance to abusing Sowon during his three eldest daughters aren't at home. But SinB who are only about 2yrs old that time was witnessed it

She was witnessed everything that her father did to her mother. And being a small kid she is, she just watch the whole scene without knowing what actually happen in front of her eyes

The thing's that she knew is her father push her mother on the floor and sometimes make a red water come out from any part of her mother face or body. Her mother will hugging her while crying so hard. She don't know what is happening. She's confused

"Eomma, why did your head are swollen?" Being an eldest, Yerin always caught any weird thing that happens in her family 

But there's something that she fail to caught. Her mother suffers. 

"Oh this? I accidently hit the door just now" another excuse from Sowon 

Hit the door, fell on the wet floor, fell from the bed. That's some of the excuses that always Sowon gave to her daughters whenever they're asking about her swollen face 

"Aigoo, your eomma is so clumsy this lately. What's wrong baby? Is there something bothering your mind?" Namjoon ask sweetly while try to touch Sowon purplish head but Sowon avoid by move her head a bit 

He was asking as if he don't know from where those swollen are coming. He such a great actor in front of his daughters

SinB just look at the scene in front her. She just want to tell everyone there that her mother got that swollen because she saw her father pushed her mother till her head hitting the edge of the bed. But she can't say it out. She also don't know why. Maybe because she was just too small and young 

"Nothing, just tired that's all" Sowon said in slow voice and look down on her food

"If you're tired, just take a rest then. Kids, listen to appa. From now on, you guys has to stop giving your eomma an headache ok? Let eomma rest. Get it?" 

"Yes!" His three daughters replied in unison

He then look at Sowon with cold eyes. As if he was threatening Sowon to shut up. Sowon caught his eyes, immediately feeling scare. She's look down and eating silently. Didn't dare to make a sound, afraid that something come out from her room will raising her husband anger 

Living in scariness, suffers, sadness and loneliness. That's what has she face for many years. She's tough facing all those hardness. She just want to run away from Namjoon. Far away from him

But then she remembered about her still small kids. What will happen to them if she's run away? What will Namjoon do to them is she's run away? Will she be able to meet them back one day if she's run away? 

Thats the questions that run wildly in her miserable mind. With those questions, she's tough. With those questions, she's learn to be patience. With those questions, she's still alive. For herself and for her beloved daughters 

*End of flashback*

That's how great a mother love is. But the questions now is, will child's do the same like what a mother did to them in a long time ago? 

Same with Yerin and Eunha, will them treat her mother coldly after they know about Sowon hardness?Or will they change be a good daughter for Sowon? 

Chap 17,check! Did you guys feel this story kinda have a long journey?