Audition and Guilt

My Heaven

Hey girl how was your day?” Angie asked as Inola came into the hotel room.

Ugghhhh!!!! I don't even know! Like it was great,we went to this overlook that was just beautiful, he took me to an art museum where they were showing his exhibit, he set up a lunch in the hall that they were showing Peter Lik's photography, and then he just kind of left. He brought me back and said he had a nice time but he just left. I just feel like I did something or said something wrong. I just don't know,” Inola said as she fell backwards onto the couch in the living room. “How was your day? Did you and Chanhyuk have fun?”

Yeah, we did. He took me to see Moana and we had lunch at the cutest little cafe. It was great. I'm sorry things ended weird with T.O.P,” Angie said as she came to sit next to Inola. “I'm sure it's just a bingu thing.”

Yeah, maybe. Anyways, what are we doing tomorrow? I figure we go try and tour the city a bit more?” Inola asked and Angie nodded though when she opened to speak the phone to their room rang. Inola gave Angie a questioning look before walking over and picking up the receiver. “Yobuseoyo?”

Annyeonghasaeyo, I'm trying to get in touch with Ray Inola and Lopez Angie, are they available?” A female voice said on the other line. Inola put the phone on speaker and sat back down next to Angie.

Ne, we're available.” Inola responded with innate curiousity.

I'm calling from YG entertainment to inform you that a special audition has been set up for the both of you. We would like for you to come in at two tomorrow afternoon for it please. When you arrive simply head to the front desk and they will have all the information you will need. We are not expecting any choreography as this is simply a vocal audition but we would like you to have one duet and one solo for the both of you. The audition should only last about half an hour and we will be in touch with you again for the results within the following day. Does that sound feasible to you?” Inola looked at Angie who was slack jawed and staring at the phone in Inola's hand.

An audition? Jinja?” Inola asked in disbelief.

Ne, a special audition. This is a one time offer and we must confirm it today to allocate the necessary time and talent,” Angie finally looked from the phone to Inola's face and covered to not teapot squeal, nodding her head frantically.

Uhh... Ne.... That seems fine with us... We each need a solo but we need a duet also correct?” Inola felt like she was simply on autopilot. How was this happening?

Ne, if that is all then we will see you at two tomorrow afternoon. I suggest arriving thirty minutes early to allow for warm ups,” With that the line went dead and Inola turned off the phone.

Does that mean what I think it means?!” Angie squealed as soon as Inola put the phone back on the jack.

I don't really know. What do you think it means?” All traces of Inola's signature sarcasm were gone and the question was genuine. What was going on?

Are we going to become trainees? Are we going to become Idol hopefuls?” Angie squealed again.

Maybe? Are we really that good though?” Inola asked still in shock though it broke when a quick reality hit her like a brick wall. “How did we end up with a special audition anyways? Did Chanhyuk do this?”

Do you really think Chanhyuk has that amount of sway in the company yet? It has to have been one of the BigBang guys. Was that why T.O.P left so quickly? Do you think he set this up?” Angie asked giving Inola an excited smile.

Maybe? I really don't know. Why would he though?” Inola just couldn't wrap her mind around what was happening.

Maybe he did it so you wouldn't just be a fan anymore. Didn't you always tell me that one of the many reasons you'd have no chance with him is because he wouldn't date a fan? Maybe this is his way of saying that he likes you. Besides they did hear us sing and maybe they liked it,” Angie said coming to curl into Inola's side. “Foxy, we need to choose our songs. What should we sing?”

I don't know. Maybe we could ask GD Oppa for some help,” Inola replied pulling out her cellphone to message GD on Kakao. She asked what songs he thought they should sing and he was quick to reply telling her to sing the songs that they had sang at karaoke the other night and that he'd have the back up tracks for Closer, Mercy, and Dark Horse for them tomorrow. Inola relayed the message to Angie before heading into her room and sprawling out across the bed. Inola couldn't quell her curiosity though and texted GD again asking if he knew anything about how they got the audition. Her phone was silent for long enough that she had drifted off to sleep before the reply came and she didn't get to read it.

The next morning Inola was awakened by the screams of anguish coming from her dongsaeng. Angie had come into her room and jumped onto her bed demanding assistance for her outfit choice.

Unnie! What am I going to wear?! Ottoke?” Inola rolled over and groaned at the young girl yelling in close proximity to her ear.

Aish! I'm up! What the hell do you want brat!?” Inola was very much annoyed and had no desire to deal with a whining Angie so early. Though when she looked at the clock she discovered that it was eleven o'clock in the morning and not quite so early. That did nothing to settle her annoyance though.

Will you please help me pick out an outfit? I think I'm going to wear something that GD bought me but I don't know what to pair with my high waisted skirt!” Angie pleaded almost collapsing to the floor at the thought of her current dilemma.

Aish, just wear the black off the shoulders lace top and some of those cute heels you bought! It's really not that hard to match that outfit!” Inola shouted walking into her bathroom to tame her bedhead and brush her teeth.

What are you going to wear Unnie?” Angie asked jumping onto the bed and sitting with her knees tucked under her like an excited four year old.

I'm just going to wear my sailor buttoned high waisted shorts and that black racer back tank with some thigh highs and my combat boots. Maybe wear my jacket that GD Oppa bought me again,” Inola said coming out from the bathroom and digging through her suitcase for the outfit she had just described.

Oooo, you're gonna be fancy today. Why don't you always dress like that Unnie? You know it makes you look ier,” Angie wiggled her eyebrows making Inola snort at the action.

Because I like being comfortable more than I like looking y. If someone doesn't find my tee shirt and jeans look y then they don't deserve to see my trying to be y look,” Inola laughed a bit at her own description making Angie roll her eyes and get off the bed to go get herself ready.

After Angie had gotten herself ready it wasn't long before they were on their way out of the hotel and heading to YG. When the beautiful building came into view though, Inola began to really get nervous. She really wasn't a big fan of performing when people were judging her and she was sure that there was going to be some form of panel. Angie had sensed the panic rolling off of her though and reached over to squeeze her hand.

Unnie, don't worry about it. Just have fun with it like you did at karaoke. Imagine that it's the boys in front of us okay?” Angie knew Inola's performance anxiety was bad but she had never really understood it. It didn't make sense to her, Inola was really very talented and had more passion about music than most people that she knew so she wasn't quite sure how to go about comforting her.

I just don't want to mess up. If I make a mistake I won't be able to recover,” Inola said taking deep breaths as they paid the driver and made their way to the building.

You've sang these songs a thousand times. Just don't think about it, you've got this Unnie,” Angie replied with a quick hwaiting.

Arasseo I'll try,” Inola continued her breathing trying to keep herself preoccupied as they went up to the desk and Angie told the receptionist who they were and why there were there. They were given name tags and visitors badges and told that the audition would be held in the dance studio in the basement. The two bowed and headed towards the elevators. When they got to the shiny doors though they were stopped by Seungri.

“What are you two doing here? Did hyung bring you?” He asked not failing to notice that Inola seemed pale.

“Aniyo, we were called in for a special audition. Did you set this up Oppa?” Angie asked while Inola kept her gaze on the elevator doors.

“Special audition? Ah! Ani, I think that's Ji Yong hyung's doing. Foxy? Gwenchana?” Seungri asked with a clear look of worry on his face.

Huh? Oh, I'm fine,” Inola answered. The longer she had allowed herself to think on the audition the more nervous she became. The issue to her performance anxiety was very deep rooted but to roughly sum it up, Inola never wanted to be the reason that someone disliked an instrument or song. She was always worried that she just wasn't good enough and that she was even potentially bad enough to make someone hate something that she found beautiful, that is why she was having such a hard time now.

“She's nervous about the audition Oppa,” Angie supplied in the elder's stead.

“Yah! Don't be a pabo! You're going to blow them away! Just sing like you did at karaoke! Imagine it's me and the other guys and sing like you did then! Have fun and you'll be perfect!” Seungri yelled rather abruptly grabbing Inola's hands and coming to stand in front of her and giving her a fiery determined look.

“Arasseo, Seungri-ah. I'll try,” Seungri smiled at Inola's response, happy to see the tense slowly starting to leave her. He was sure that this wasn't the end of her nerves but at least it was a start. Maybe they could help her overcome this anxiety.

“Ara. I've got to go meet my manager for my schedule today but I will see you when I get back right?” Seungri asked never loosing his smile.

“When will you be back Oppa?” Angie asked and Seungri cringed at himself. He had forgotten that they didn't know his schedule.

“I'm not really sure to be honest. Here take my Kakao and message me when you're done and I'll get in touch when I get back okay?” Inola snorted a bit at how scatterbrained he was.

“Arasseo, Seungri-ah,” Inola said bringing out her phone and finding his Kakao to add him to her friends list. He smiled, giving them a quick good bye before heading off to find his manager.

“He really is a child isn't he?” Angie asked as the elevator doors opened.

“Ne, he is something,” Inola giggled entering the elevator behind Angie. They rode down the the studio in a much more comfortable silence than before and Angie couldn't help but grin a bit. She was just so thankful that someone could help Inola feel less nervous.

When they exited the elevator they made their way to the dance studio and found GD standing outside looking at his phone. He almost looked as if he was nervous and it made Inola giggle. GD's head shot up and his face broke into his adorable gummy smile when he saw Inola giggling. He could hardly mask his excitement at seeing her standing in front of him.

“Why do you look so nervous GD Oppa? I'm pretty sure we're the ones that have the audition, not you,” Inola giggled again and GD chuckled with her.

“Ah, I'm nervous because I want you to do well,” He reached into his back pocket and pulled out a flash drive to hand to her. “This has the back tracks for your songs. It's 'Closer', 'Mercy', and 'Dark Horse' arasseo?”

“Ne, kamsamnida GD Oppa. I guess Seungri was right though. You set all this up didn't you?” Inola noticed the pink that spread across his cheeks as he nodded.

“Ne, I couldn't let you two leave without trying to recruit your talent,” GD chuckled and the girls did too.

“Oppa, we aren't leaving though,” GD turned to face Angie with a confused look. “I'm transferring into Ewha Womans University and Inola was going to try to find a teaching job.”

“You... You weren't leaving?” The girls shook their heads and Inola frowned a bit trying to figure out what the look on GD's face meant.

“Ne, while I really did want to meet you and get to know you and everything, your contest was more the definitive push to move here. We weren't really sure if we were going to leave at all but we had already planned on staying past the original departure date. Is... Is that a bad thing?” Inola had started her explanation with a smile but slowly it faded into worry as she noticed that GD's expression seemed to darken.

“Aniyo. I'm glad you decided to stay,” GD's face didn't seem to match his words and now Inola was really worried that she had offended him. What had she done to do that though?

“Are you sure that you're not upset? You look upset,” Inola said timidly worried that whatever she said would only make things worse.

“Aniyo, I'm not upset. Just get ready for your audition okay? I'll talk to you later, good luck,” With that GD walked away. Inola could sense his genuineness in the way he wished them luck but she couldn't help but worry that she had upset him. How was she going to fix this?

“Don't worry about it Foxy, okay? We'll talk to him after the audition and settle things. I'm sure he just misunderstood,” Angie patted Inola's back and smiled an apologetic smile at her. Inola squared her shoulders and took a deep breath. She couldn't focus on that right now, she needed to get through this audition and do her best. She couldn't help but feel the pain in her heart at the way GD had just reacted to her though and it confused her. Why did she feel guilty about this?

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A/N Alright guys! I finally got a new chapter here! I've been having some massive writers block on all of my stories and I just want to make sure that whatever I put out isn't just meh ya know? I want it to at least be up to par with what I've written so far and I hope that you like this one! Let me know what you think in the comments okay? As always Thank You for Reading! Kamsamnida!

 

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RockabillyHippie
#1
Chapter 11: I was about to throw rounds with T.O.P like, damn, I didn't want to go anyway XD
TONNTONN #2
Chapter 10: Can't wait to see what happens with her and GD
RockabillyHippie
#3
Chapter 10: XD Shooting games are my XD
RockabillyHippie
#4
Chapter 9: We finna slay this audition
RockabillyHippie
#5
Chapter 8: Poor GD. Idk who to root for XD XD XD
RockabillyHippie
#6
Chapter 7: I ship it. GD who? XD XD
RockabillyHippie
#7
Chapter 6: I totally didn't sing along to the lyrics XD Fam, I can't wait to see th rest like...yaaas XD I'm so freaking excited^^
RockabillyHippie
#8
Chapter 5: Fight me T.O.P...fight me you little ...fight me
RockabillyHippie
#9
Chapter 4: Should have said that in english XD XD Don't kill me...I just met Chanhyuk
RockabillyHippie
#10
Chapter 3: Fight me, G-Dragon...catch these hands